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Last Kiss

Updated on January 28, 2014

I did not know that the last time you kissed me would be the last kiss. Bitter, biting tears claw their way down my face as I strain to recall every detail. Perhaps if I had known it was our last, I would have guarded these fleeting images more carefully. Every kiss we’ve shared is carved into my heart’s memory. I dared not allow myself to think they would ever, ever end. Unable to bear the pain of this possibility, I did not want to look into the face of a future without your kisses.

I enjoyed the pleasure of basking in the glow of every movement, every pressing of your lips to mine. I know the curves of your mouth, I know its softness too. We forged ourselves together, into each other, arms wrapped around each other, linking hand with heart. Life is so good in those moments, those aching, needing, wanting, can’t live without you moments. My joy was complete, and I was blissfully lost in a place where time stands still. I never wanted it to end.

What is at the end of a kiss? What comes after the last kiss? My heart aches, and I am hollow. I am shriveling up, and the next wind to come upon me will surely blow me away. I will be no more. I will never be her again.

At this moment, it is as safe to stand on the edge of sanity as any other place in my life. And the edge of sanity is the only place where a last kiss can occur. Lingering on this edge, I close my eyes, and try desperately to remember the last kiss. How long did it last? Were you holding me tightly? Were you kissing me . . . or were you kissing me for the last time? I believed nothing if I did not believe that our last kiss was a prelude to our next.

The last kiss.

The last kiss.

You have brought me immeasurable pain. But I am in love with your kisses.



© 2012 Bella Nina



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      xethonxq 5 years ago

      Wow...the pain of passionate intimacy lost. You expressed this very well Bella Nina!

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      Bella Nina 5 years ago from USA

      Thank you for reading my work, and thank you for commenting. I appreciate your input so very much. This piece is so very close to my heart, and sharing this helps. Thank you for following me, I am following you as well.

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      Escobana 5 years ago from Valencia

      Incredibly beautiful! I feel the exact pain sometimes. The open wound of a relationship that just ended.

      Loved to read this amazing Hub! Voted up, shared and away:-)

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      Bella Nina 5 years ago from USA

      Thank you so much Escobana. Your kind words of encouragement are greatly appreciated. It's so good to share these feelings, and have them received by others who know this very pain. Thx for following me, and thank you for taking the time to read my work.

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      blondepoet 5 years ago from australia

      Loved it. So deep, romantic passionate all the things I love writing and reading about :)

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      Bella Nina 5 years ago from USA

      Hello Blondepoet ~ and thank you for your comment on this hub. This comes straight from my heart, and I am so pleased if my work touches the hearts of others. Thanks for the follow, and for stopping by!

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      Vinaya Ghimire 5 years ago from Nepal

      Wonderful piece of writing. Your emotions are very powerful, they took hold of me.

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      Bella Nina 5 years ago from USA

      I am so happy that this piece spoke to your heart Vinaya. Thank you for reading, and thank you for your comment. I always appreciate your feedback!

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      Mike Pugh 5 years ago from New York City

      So touching to share thoughts such as this, any last kiss is always going to be the hardest to deal with.

      Each time I was done with a relationship with some unfortunate young woman years back, I dreaded them last kisses, and I knew ahead of them that it was over. I was the cause of moving on mostly about 95% of the times, I just out grew certain relationships. So I fully understand your feelings and emotions being expressed here in your words.

      This hub is very sensitive and shows to me that you truly have a good heart, and the courage to share a fraction of your experience.

      This stuff just can't be made up, it must derive from pure experience in order to touch another person in such a way as it done to me here by reading it.

      Such a Beautiful hub this is, voted up on many levels, and thanks for sharing with me in my hub as well, oh and awesome song to top it all off.

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      Bella Nina 5 years ago from USA

      Dear CloudExplorer ~ THANK YOU. You're right, this is real. I don't know how to make it up, I just know how to send a piece of my heart out through my writing. And always with the hope that it will land on the hearts of those who can see with their hearts. Thank you so much for your very kind words. They are encouraging, just when I need it!!

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      jacqui2011 5 years ago from Leicester, United Kingdom

      A very touching and emotional article which I can relate to at certain points in my life also. I can feel the pain that you experienced. Life can be a roller coaster of emotion. Great work. Voted up and beautiful.

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      Bella Nina 5 years ago from USA

      Thank you Jacqui. Life is a roller coaster, especially when it comes to matters of the heart. Thank you so much for your kind words. I really appreciate it.

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      Carlon Michelle 5 years ago from USA

      Nina I'm totally feeling you here. That unexpected last kiss haunts the mind and the heart for seemingly an eternity. Or at least until the next first kiss. LOL Smile!

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      Bella Nina 5 years ago from USA

      Carlon ~ Trying to smile ~ still in love with him. Thx for your encouragement!!

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      Rolly A Chabot 5 years ago from Alberta Canada

      What a gift you have share with us.. Thank you.

      Blessings

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      Bella Nina 5 years ago from USA

      Rolly ~ I thank you so much for your kind words. It means so much to me.

      Happy 2012 and blessings to you and yours!!

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      Mike Pugh 5 years ago from New York City

      This hub glows of loves true essence in every way, and I'm so inspired to kiss my wife as she returns home from work, thanks to you.

      I do kiss her every night, but this hub made me remember how important it is to kiss your loved one, and especially because of the fact that you never truly know when its going to be the very Last one.

      I loved it and the line about standing on the "edge of sanity". Awesome job, voted up and shared across all my networking tools.

      Now this is what I call one powerful hub, hope it gets to become a hub pf the day, because the beauty that it projects deserves it.

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      Bella Nina 5 years ago from USA

      Aw CloudExlorer ~ how can I thank you enough for your beautiful comment? It means the world to me, it means everything when something I've shared through my writing makes a difference to someone else's heart!!!

      Kiss your wife tonight. Then kiss her a million times more. Love every single moment you are blessed enough to have with each other. Nothing compares.

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      Deborah Brooks Langford 5 years ago from Brownsville,TX

      wow this made me remember the last kiss with the man I love.. so sweet and moving and the beauty of it pulled me in to worship that last kiss.

      great poem.

      debbie

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      Bella Nina 5 years ago from USA

      Thank you Debbie! The balance of love . . . pain and pleasure. I would never trade the pleasure just to avoid the pain. Thank you for reading my work!!

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      Deborah Brooks Langford 5 years ago from Brownsville,TX

      this reminds me of the song LAST KISS. from the 60's i loved that song..

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      Bella Nina 5 years ago from USA

      Who performed the song you mention Debbie?

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      Deborah Brooks Langford 5 years ago from Brownsville,TX

      I will find out.. who performed it.. I want to share this on my Facebook page to.

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      Deborah Brooks Langford 5 years ago from Brownsville,TX

      http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lMuWmC5urcI

      LAST KISS

      BY

      Based on the hit recording of J. Frank Wilson and The Cavaliers in 1964

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      Bella Nina 5 years ago from USA

      Thank you Deborah! I was just listening to your link, loved it!!

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      KT Banks 5 years ago from Texas

      Your words are so moving, it's hard to make an adequate comment. I just want to let you know that I loved reading it.

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      Bella Nina 5 years ago from USA

      KT ~ you just made my heart smile. :) Thank you so much.

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      KT Banks 5 years ago from Texas

      That's the sweetest thing that has ever been said to me! Thank You! You have such a wonderful talent. I just wrote a hub that made me wish I were a poet, instead of just a writer.

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      Bella Nina 5 years ago from USA

      Awww KT ~ poet, writer, it matters not which, or both. If you are either, then you are giving to humanity. You are giving yourself to others. What could be better than that?!?

      Thank you so much for reading my work. As a writer, you know how much that means to us!!

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      Justin W Price 5 years ago from Juneau, Alaska

      excellent work, bella nina. I really like the ending.

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      Bella Nina 5 years ago from USA

      Thx PDX!!

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      Thanx 4 years ago

      I don't really know what this site is all about... I found myself here after a google search. I not a writer or a reader. The words that you expressed in this writing hit my heart so hard. It expressed every feeling that I have had as I'm trying to heal from a failed relationship. I want to thank you for posting this.

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      Bella Nina 4 years ago from USA

      Dear Thanx ~ I am glad that you found my hub, and that it spoke to your heart. I hope it was helpful, and that you found some kind of comfort in knowing that others have experienced the type of pain that you are going through right now.

      I hope that you find peace and comfort, and please realize that the sun always comes up to give us a new day. Your days will become brighter again. Peace and comfort be yours.

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      Vincent Moore 4 years ago

      Wow what a powerful poem, I felt every word, I felt your pain, your loss and your hunger for the man you held and trusted in your arms. I to remember with fondness the last kiss of my ex and I've never felt another since. I am alone and sadness reigns my darkness, yet I scribe and I share my life with those who read me. Thank you for this beautiful work, I felt the last kiss indeed.

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      Bella Nina 4 years ago from USA

      Dear Vincent ~ I am both honored and pleased that you have read and been moved by this piece. It is given from the deepest recesses of my heart, pushed out by the sadness that reigns there, and a very deep desire to just breathe. Sometimes we just have to get it out. When it lands on the hearts of others, and they are moved to tears, or find these words to deliver their deep emotion, I count it as a very great blessing. I hope for each of us that we have indeed not experienced our last kiss. I pray that our next is just ahead . . . even if we do not see its source at this moment.

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