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42 Marriage Proposals

Updated on March 30, 2017

When are you getting married?

I asked my friend:

- When are you getting married?

- May 20th.

I gave him a quizzical look. His memory was not that great. Did he really memorize my ex’s birthday? He went on:

- May 24th?

I relaxed. No, he did not remember.

- No, May 42nd.

Now, it took me awhile. First to notice, that there was no such date. But then it dawned on me… Of course, 42! That number he remembered. How could he not?

I laughed and I laughed and I laughed. I just couldn’t stop. Even if only for moments like that it was worth having a number. A common reference.

I was afraid that for my friend, this number was somewhat painful. I told him that I had 42 lovers. He was so serious: “Svetlana, please don’t tell me that you had 42 lovers. Please!” I said, “But, of course, it is my favourite number. Even my telephone number ends with 42…” He did not like my jokes. We had a few more conversations like that, when he would start with “Just don’t tell me about your 42 lovers!” But then he stopped and I forgot. Only to hear that “May 42nd… is his wedding date”. It was so sad because it sounded like NEVER.

My February Wedding

Lyrical Digression

Maybe it should be My Wedding Date. In Russia, May is the worst month for getting married. “Don’t get married in May, you will suffer for the rest of your life!” goes the proverbial wisdom. I suspect that the only “wise” part of this expression is the fact that May and “to suffer” (‘mayatsya) have the “may” part in them.

Or MAY-be, the reason is that traditional Russian weddings took place in September – October, after the harvest was dealt with. September was a beginning of the calendar year before Christian times. It’s different now. I still would not get married in May or on the 13th of any month. My wedding (the only one) was scheduled for the February 13th and I changed the date for February 6th. We could have chosen February 14th; it was possible, because in 1993 it fell on Sunday. But… we did not know about St. Valentine’s day back then. Funny enough, I don’t know the divorce date – the document does not state the date, it offers me to count days. Well, you know how I count.

It makes sense having a number – December 42nd, 2009, then.

I am only happy when I remember your name

Hand in Marriage

By the way, my sensitive friend offered me his hand in marriage. It was not an official proposal. It was constant badgering – maybe he had mentioned it more than 42 times, but I don’t count as I told you. The number remains constant. 42.

I like him. He is serious about marriage. He would have bought me a ring in a heartbeat – I warned him “Don’t you dare!” I don’t want to decline a ring – it would be awkward. But, all of a sudden, I feel the change in the tide and it occurred to me to check out our compatibility – out perfect relationship is LOVE. Not marriage, Love, I hope you understand there is a difference.

I tried to break up with him. I asked:

- Do you love me?

- No.

- That is a relief. Then what are we talking about?

- Come on. You know there is no right answer. You will leave me no matter what I say.

- True.

I left him. He erased my phone number right in front of me. I said “This is juvenile; you know it does not work like that. There is no reason we cannot be just friends.”

I was right. We bumped into each other within a week. The surprising part was I was glad to see him. He did not seem to be angry either. The break-up did not work. Not at all. Maybe not this time.

The Universe must be onto something.

"Whatever relationships you have attracted in your life at this moment, are precisely the ones you need in your life at this moment. There is a hidden meaning behind all events, and this hidden meaning is serving your own evolution.”--from Deepak Chopra


If I had 42 lovers and 42 marriage proposals, that means… let me think (wait, it is not that simple, there are more powerful forces at play)… that means that all my lovers proposed. No, my math does not work at all.

Maybe, 42 ==> 4 + 2 = 6

The problem is not in numbers, the problem lies in defining what a proposal is.

The number is more or less close to Zero.

Later, I will tell you that in metaphysics “adding a Zero” in not the same as “adding a Zero” in mathematics.

Mathematics: 42 + 0 = 42

Metaphysics: 42 + 0 = 420

I’m much closer to Zero in marriage proposals than to …

I don’t know about number 4, but there were two rings.

42 ==> 4 X 2 = 8

The secret of the perfect combination: there are 48 combinations (12 months; each month has four sections: Previous Sign – Sign Cusp, Sign I, Sign II, and Sign III).

For example: Cancer - Leo Cusp, Leo I, Leo II, Leo III.

I am Scorpio I.

For me there are

eight perfect combinations for Love and

eight perfect combinations for Marriage.

Not too bad.

I was married, but not proposed to

Frankly, I was never officially proposed to. Yes, I was married, but my ex did not propose to me. We decided to marry. No, I don’t remember the happy day. I have trouble remembering my own wedding.

Not to remember the proposal that did not happen is not as strange as not to remember the day we met. Most couples do remember. I don’t. We met in 1987, September, maybe even September 1st (let me designate the day – the same way I play with all my numbers – I choose them arbitrarily). We met at the University, where we both studied engineering and physics, but the happy occasion – I saw him and lost my conscience? No.

We had a long history of “tug-of-war” and started dating after his birthday in 1992. Yes, by the end of the fifth year. Can you imagine? That was one of the best predictors of a strange marriage. People, who notice each other, fall in love and normally don’t wait for five years. We? We have been in each other’s face for five years, played ridiculous games and when we started dating, we went straight for marriage. But our love story ended badly.

I was told that I never loved my husband. I am undecided. Still. Don’t jump to conclusions, however. According to our compatibility chart, our union was perfect for…marriage. Not Love.

There was another Bull I was in Love with. He offered me to marry him. Not proposed, offered. That was the first time I contemplated suicide. But the offer? I declined. We both had to divorce and there were other complications. I thought if one marriage did not work out, I could not get into another one without a test drive. But what he told me I would never forget.

- You are making a mistake. It will never work out.

The Universe must be onto something.

The first suitor

However, the first suitor was my childhood friend, a perfect candidate for Love. We had only been friends until we were twelve. My Taurus #1 was planning our future life as husband and wife and I knew even then that it was all a chimera. He wanted to be an actor (it did not happen) and it was thought that I would become a biologist (it did not happen either).

But, of course, there were no proposals. I think we even rehearsed a wedding at one point. But mostly my parents remember how we played “family”.

He would leave for a war.

- Did you take your passport with you?

- Yes. Don’t tell the children.

- OK, I won’t.

- …. [change in scenery, he is a wounded soldier, I am a nurse on a battleground].

- Quick, there is an explosion coming!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

- [he, wearing a white shirt, lying down on a dirty rug, asked me to drag him away from a battlefield. He was slightly too heavy-built for me. What do you expect? A Bull].

But our love story ended badly. He hurt my feelings, I left and stopped talking to him and he never talked to me ever again. Bulls have the longest memory. Scorpios come second. Or third?

Taking a Leap of Faith. It is still Raining in my Universe.
Taking a Leap of Faith. It is still Raining in my Universe.

What do you want from me?

There was one odd character in my stormy love history. He was Pisces, he was in love with me, and I was not in love with him. We did not even date, we spent some time together. I tried to get away and I could never explain the reason so he would get the message. So, at one point he asked me:

- What do you want from me? Do you want me to marry you? I will.

- Oh, God, no! This is the last thing I want.

What do you know? Our ideal relationship was Marriage.

I was once told that I greatly overestimated the effect my beauty had on men. Beauty? With my low self-esteem, I never considered myself to be a Beauty. I may joke about it a lot (a dead give-away that I am not comfortable with the title).

But the Pisces Man story shook me to the core. I overestimated the effect I had on him. He did not want to leave, he harassed me for a while, but it all came to an end. An intermission. A year later, I saw him again. I was about to get married. It was May. He told me not to. He was begging me not to. He was holding my hands and asking me to marry him instead.

- You are making a mistake. It will never work out.

The Universe must be onto something.

During that year that I did not see him, he managed to marry a girl with the same name Svetlana and divorce her. It was a revenge marriage. What revenge? I did not even know. I did not care. Not until he told me. His heart was broken and I felt responsible. Did I lead him on? Was it my fault?

Only a few months ago I was told that people break their own hearts. They play games and get lost in them and it is their responsibility to look for themselves. I don’t know. Maybe. But bearing in mind how I broke one man’s heart, I told my future husband that the day may come and I would leave him. He did not listen. I was more dramatic before our wedding; I told him it was a mistake. “I would ruin your life”. What I meant, however, was that he would ruin mine.

A Girl To Marry

The Ring

There was a Bull in the House. I always said that “if there was a Bull in the House” we would manage to find each other. I don’t know who found whom. He found me or I found him. No, he found me. I felt no vibrations. No, I felt something, but I thought he was not interested in me. He was hard to read, especially that I was not trying to read him. Only at some point, I was losing my conscience, but I dismissed it nonetheless.

I was wrong about him and I still think I am wrong. But that day I decided to be bizarre. I might have succeeded, bizarre I was, but still very unsuspecting. It came out of the blue. So, I asked him:

- What is your sign?

- Oh, I know YOUR sign.

I did not believe him even for a second. If he knew my sign, then he must be someone I was compatible with. A Cancer? (could it be?) Pisces? Virgo? Capricorn? [those guesses I wrote before I checked the compatibility chart].

The universe was cruel.

- So, what is my sign, then?

- You are a Scorpio. We are perfect for each other.

- But what is your sign?

- I am a Taurus.

- No!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am leaving.

- You are not going anywhere. Yes. I know all about you. I can feel it. We are a perfect match.

- When are we getting married, then?

- Right now.

That was a first. A Taurus telling me he Feels and Knows who I am. A Bull with an Intuition? That rare kind? Yes, I have been told before that “I am special, not like everybody else”, I have been told a lot of BULLsh-t before, but a Taurus telling me HE KNEW I was a Scorpio? No, that was the first.

The Universe must be onto something.

He was right. He is my perfect man for Love.

We went for a coffee. The best and the worst moment of that day/date: the Bull took a ring off his finger and put it on mine.

- You are not even asking me whether I will accept, you are just doing it.

- Yes.

- This is so Bull.

- Yes.

Maybe it was the only proposal I would remember. It was so emotional, romantic, and not fair to me at all. I only had the ring for a week. The next time when I saw him I knew “the marriage” was over…

- Do you want your ring back?

- Yes. I felt naked without it.

- ???

- I have been wearing it for a long time.

- You can have it back, but it will never be the same.

- I will get you another one.

He never did. But I gave him a ring instead. Why? That was his question. I don’t know why. If he feels and knows so much better than I do, maybe it is time to ask him. I liked the expression on his face. I needed to see it to remember.

The Universe must be onto something

I liked him, I still do. Is this the end of the story? I don’t know. I don’t know.

I have two rings. Both rings from my marriage, my ex does not like keepsakes. I do. I have a divorce ring, I bought it myself, when I was so furious and maybe I needed courage to break our union. It should be worn on my middle finger on the left (dominant hand). I love it, but I cannot wear it, I lost weight.

After “The Ring” story, I am still sad and wistful and I found another ring (on my ring finger on the right hand – we, Russians, wear our wedding rings on the right hand) – the meaning? I am married to the Universe.

The Universe must be onto something.

- You are a small phenomenon.

- Why small? Is it a compliment or an invitation for a fight?

- An invitation for a fight. I would love to fight with you.

Indeed we fought a little bit. I was always left perplexed and emotionally disturbed. It ended badly.

- What if I choose you? [This is so Bull!]

- I may not choose you. [Did I miss my sign?]

Before I checked out the book that I only recently bought, I had no explanation for the attraction I felt.

“Opposites attract – and how! Since Taurus … and Scorpio I are 180° apart in the zodiac, it is not surprising [it was for me!] that a strong magnetic pull should be present here. And this initial attraction is nothing compared to the energies that can be generated, both for the good and the bad, once the relationship gets moving. Indeed this matchup runs the full gamut of expressiveness, from the most brilliant to the most passionate.


ADVICE: Know when to stop. Be aware of negative forces. Don’t get stuck in destructive attitudes. Cultivate trust and tenderness.”

From “The Secret Language of Relationships.” By Gary Goldschneider & Joost Elffers

I think I have to give credit where it is due. He stopped. He knew when.

But what did I want? What did I expect?

What do I want?

  • A lover?
  • A marriage proposal?
  • A husband?
  • A sponsor?
  • A ring?

I was clueless that My Universe kept sending me the right men. But something must be wrong if it all keeps ending so badly. I can’t make the right choice, is that it? I don’t recognize my perfect match?

I want energy that I don’t have. The energy to rise and shine.

Guess What? There was a Bull in the House

Again? Yes, again. Quite a charming one. We found each other. This is the Law of Metaphysics. It was completely unexpected. I was nearly crying for a different reason however. He kept asking the “Guess Question.”

- Where are you from?

- Can you guess?

- Korea?

“Guess” is my signature. Once I bought two tops only because they had “Guess” on them and I paid ridiculously high price. It was so 2008. In 2008, my answer to everything was “Guess.” But then people started asking me “Guess What? What doe s it mean?”

Only this year I came up with answer what my “Guess” was all about.


When first we met we did not guess

That Love would prove so hard a master;

Of more than common friendliness

When first we met we did not guess.

Who could foretell this sore distress?

This irretrievable disaster

When first we met – We did not guess

That Love would prove so hard a master.

Robert Bridges (1844 – 1930)

The Secret of Eternity

I chose Point Zero as the answer to the question “What is your point?” I was just playing games. That was 2007.

However, however…

Point Zero has more significance for me than I realized.

Number 42 in numerology becomes 6 (4+2)

"The Venus Six (6) vibration is the Feminine vibration of the Universe, representing and symbolizing the ultimate FEMININE principle in all of Life and Love.

The Mars Nine (9) vibration is the Masculine vibration of the Universe, representing and symbolizing the ultimate MASCULINE principle in all of Life and Love.

Six and Nine. 6 and 9. Female and Male. Negative-Positive. Dark - Light. (Polarity). Duality. Combine the two 69, remove the tails, it becomes 0 – that was my point – ZERO.

The circle is the secret of Twin Soul blending - the deepest mystery of the Sun Sign of Scorpio, and Scorpio’s ruling planet, the awesome, powerful Pluto. For the number to which Pluto vibrates is – ZERO. The circle which represents Eternity.

Therefore, all the mysterious Pluto-Scorpio “power” comes from a subconscious knowledge of this Zero principle that the perfect blend between Masculine and Feminine creates a Third Energy Force, which is both, yet neither – neutral and ALL-POWERFUL – because it does not oppose, but causes polarities to simultaneously blend and flow into each other.

Remember the wonderful rule of metaphysics? Numbers’ dance. “What happens when you add ZERO to any other number?” It “increases” the power of the number: 1+0=10 .

That is the secret of eternity."

(Almost verbatim from Linda Goodman’s “Love Signs”, page 16)

I love the Universe and Eternity.

I don’t present this information as the Final Truth. I am only justifying my choice of Point ZERO. For me, this justification is enough, even if only anecdotal. A sense of humour is appreciated not only throughout this article, but for all my work.

Metaphysics versus Quantum Physics

The Bull and I had the most animated conversation. Why did I start telling him about my discoveries about Point Zero and Point-Zero Energy?

The Universe must be onto something.

- You look like someone who would be interested in Quantum Physics.

- I? Despite my engineering degree, I am not so fond of Physics in general, but Quantum physics is just beyond me.

- No, no, I am positive. It is your thing.

But I was trying to explain “The Point-Zero Energy” concept that I did not understand myself. And this concept is from Quantum Physics. Talk about bizarre conversations.

The Universe must be onto something.

I consider my “Point Zero Energy” to be Zero, NULL. I have no energy. Yet.

“In cosmology, the zero-point energy offers an intriguing possibility for explaining the speculative positive values of the proposed cosmological constant. In brief, if the energy is "really there", then it should exert a gravitational force.[8] In general relativity, mass and energy are equivalent; both produce a gravitational field. One obvious difficulty with this association is that the zero-point energy of the vacuum is absurdly large. Naively, it is infinite, because it includes the energy of waves with arbitrarily short wavelengths. But since only differences in energy are physically measurable, the infinity can be removed by renormalization. In all practical calculations, this is how the infinity is handled. It is also arguable that undiscovered physics relevant at the Planck scale reduces or eliminates the energy of waves shorter than the Planck length, making the total zero-point energy finite.”

It is large, infinite, yet finite. To say that I understand – it is an overstatement. No wonder I keep missing the road signs. It is time to get a driving license, madame. Study the Traffic Rules and start practicing.

But again – it serves my purposes. Of being slightly insane. Point Zero Energy is my energy being infinitely non-existent. That is the first thing to be addressed.

I would like to receive a ring of Eternity from a man whose energy can sustain the Wonderful Me, my family and the ring-bearer/offerer himself.

I don’t even care if it is going to be a Bull.

I know it is going to be the Marriage Proposal #42. The one.

This time I will keep the ring, I promise.

Dear Universe, give me the Energy, the Ring, the Eternity.

I love you, Eternity; I love you, the Universe.


The Universe has a strange sense of humour

I have not pressed the “Publish” button yet. There were a few things to do. We went to a school concert with Daniel. I saw my ex. We needed to make arrangements for the week-end. Daniel told him that he had a date to play soccer. He dropped a name.

- A boy his age?

- No, it’s my friend.

- ??? When are you getting married?

- He is JUST a friend. Oh,…read my article.

He did not believe me even for a second. He was burning me with his eyes.

- …just tell me.

- Look at my ring - I am married to the Universe.

- [stern unyielding look]

- Find me a rich husband.

- He does not have to be rich. I’m not rich.

- That’s why we are no longer married.

You see why I need a number? Not to have inane conversations. We have already rehearsed it. I could have spared myself some awkwardness.

- When are you getting married?

- May 42nd.

My ex left looking unhappy. But he would have understood, he knows all about the number 42.

Some people don’t have sense of humour, though. I need a back-up plan.

Advanced lesson in Metaphysics

- When are you getting married?

- May 4 + 2 = 6th


- When are you getting married?

- Right now.

There is a problem. The universe is laughing. I hear the thunder of laughter. Listen intenlty.

I was already married on the 6th. Now? Today is May 6th.

I had an idea for this article, yet I was working on names. My latest “Eureka!”, “la dernier crie” was “I found the central idea for the article on Daniel’s name”! Ask my friends.

This article had nothing but a name to it. All of a sudden, I drop everything and I write “42 Marriage Proposals”. On May 4th : 4/5 = 4 + 5 = 9 (male vibration).

I decided not to rush with publishing only to be faced with the number 6.

May 6th: 6/5 = 6 + 5 (my birthday number) = 11 = 1 +1 = 2.

4, 2, 5, 6 (female vibration), 9. 6 & 9 creating the circle of Eternity. Zero.

I have to publish it on May 6th, then. (6/5 = 6 + 5 = 11 = 1 + 1 = 2)

2? 2? 2?

OK, I am done. Officially, I am tripping. I am calling 911.

911 = 9 + 1 + 1 = 11 = 1 + 1 = 2

Dialing: two – two – two – two – two - two .......

© 2011 kallini2010


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      kallini2010 5 years ago from Toronto, Canada

      I love the poem, too. I love the song "Quisiera decir tu nombre" - "I want to keep saying your name" -

      it is all a song, a story, but the best part is

      once written, FORGOTTEN.

      I can only get over things after I write about them.

      If others like it, so much the better.

      I have read somewhere that the more general a story is, the more personal it becomes. Everybody can relate to it.

      When the right guy comes...

      I have no idea ... you have read my speculations on the Man of my Dreams - I went for a trip.

      If anybody like that comes, I will surely open a circus.

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      Nikki Wicked 5 years ago from Louisiana

      This was quite useful and entertaining still have the men are buses hubs to read through. I really loved that poem by Robert Bridges you posted. I dont think the universe knows what the hell its doing sometimes. it just kinda goes with the flow or does stuff intentionlly to mess with our mind/hearts. But if it sent you the right guy ever, things would have worked out and stayed working out. because things didn't then perhaps they weren't the right guy...

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      kallini2010 6 years ago from Toronto, Canada

      Thank you. You should see my Wedding Plan for marrying the One.

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      kimberlyslyrics 6 years ago

      very creative!

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      kallini2010 6 years ago from Toronto, Canada

      Thank you, Sunnie.

      Don't worry, you will never miss YOUR bus - it works like this - when the YOUR bus comes - you know. That what makes it YOUR bus.

      Yes, I had "proposals", but most of them were not serious enough or maybe it was only "testing the ground"?

      All for entertainment.

      Anyway, I have to work on my next hub and it will take a while.

      Take care, Sunnie.

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      Sunnie Day 6 years ago

      Another great hub that keeps my mind going, taking it all in, and thinking deeply..I was thinking how many proposals I have had..I think maybe three..would have had more maybe if I had not missed that darn bus so many times..who knows...I was everyones sister..not fun after

      Anyway..have a great night..

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      Neil Sperling 6 years ago from Port Dover Ontario Canada

      LOL -- Thanks my friend ...

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      kallini2010 6 years ago from Toronto, Canada

      Thank you for your comment, Neil Sperling. You can count the way you want - the universe does not know any numbers, it operates with any awareness of its own laws.

      All the numbers are in our heads only; therefore, feel free to manipulate.

      As far as group sex goes - for gang-banging read "Alejandro the Russian Spy" - I am no match for Lady Gaga.

      In Russian, "Ga-ga" is the geese language,

      - Ga-ga-ga

      - Ga-ga-ga right back at you

      (conversation between Lady Gaga and Canadian natives).

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      Neil Sperling 6 years ago from Port Dover Ontario Canada

      LOL -- not sure it if 4+2= 6, 8 or actually 42.... no matter how you look at it though it is "group sex" for sure.

      LOL - Thanks for the chuckle and count me in!

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      kallini2010 6 years ago from Toronto, Canada

      @ Neakin:

      Thank you for your comment, Neakin. Your praise is very high indeed. I am not quite sure, what is next. "42 Marriage Proposals" came out suddenly and now I don't even know what is next.

      Even though, there was an interesting twist in the story after it was written - there was another "Bull" I met - I could not even believe it was happening. And having all those "Bulls" on my mind - I thought about writing a story called "Dancing Bull", but then I lost interest.

      Writing Muse is quite capricious, I am afraid. I don't know "what and when".

      Thank you for your interest, please stop by again.


      Thank for stopping by, Ruchira. Maybe I have only one idea - to rework a conversation I had yesterday at the club, but I don't like to make any promises - it always works out as quite the opposite - I promise one article and deliver something else.

      Thank you for your interest.

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      Ruchira 6 years ago from United States

      Beautiful glad to come across your hub.

      would love to

      keep it up!!

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      neakin 6 years ago

      Wow! What a wonderful Hub! You are the best!! Look forward to reading many more!

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      epigramman 6 years ago

      ..yes it's true Miss S - you may be a 'pain' lol lol - but you're a beautiful intelligent 'pain' - lol

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      kallini2010 6 years ago from Toronto, Canada

      Dear Colin:

      Thank you for the comment. It is hard to read before having your morning coffee ... I understand.

      Especially with your hostile "neighbourhood situation" when tattooed people run around naked while their dogs devour strangers.


      All credibility, all good conscience, all evidence of truth come only from the senses. (Friedrich Nietzsche)


      But there is nothing to understand here - I am asking the Universe for the One, for the Ring.

      If when you read you feel something, that is what you are supposed to feel, if the article fails to move you ... - then again, it is your answer.

      I opened a book yesterday about "106 Philosophers" - the first story was about a ring with the inscription "This too shall pass". To ask for a ring that will make a happy man sad or a sad man happy ... it is a stretch.

      The interesting detail: the author of the book was saying that wisdom is not as complicated as many people try to portray it, it is the framing that diminishes the meaning of philosophical thoughts.

      "Excessiveness of the minor".

      Colin, you probably don't need a wife like me, even if only on HP - I am too much of a pain (call me an anomaly, if you like), but I would say - a pain. But I remember, Mr. Bull, that you are from the Bull House and from the 3rd section at that - my perfect marriage partnership pool.

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      epigramman 6 years ago

      ...I really do not know what all of this means but then again the daylight is just breaking here over the lake at 6:30 am and I haven't had my first cup of coffee - but I will tell you one thing - you ALWAYS take me on a journey and I would like to propose to you right now and make you my 'official Hub wife' because you make me sit up and think and ponder and feel and react and I am moved and I am touched - and you provoke my mind - you stretch my mind - and you open my mind to new possibilities - is there anyone else quite like you -(I hear they say that about the epi-man lol) no there isn't - you are a creative anomaly all of your own - you operate in your own universe - and you always take me to places I'v never been ..... now for that first cup of coffee!!!

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      kallini2010 6 years ago from Toronto, Canada

      Ian, don't think of the surface and depth, one cannot exist without another. If you want "a ride" - you are always welcome. Sometimes living in the depths makes you reach for the light and the feeling of freedom of gliding on the surface and not thinking.

      I may wallow in my own speculations and it was funny today - I watched a film "Generation P" (an adaptation of Pelevin's novel). I've read it so many times and only today I got what he meant by Generation P. Not Generation Pepsi ... it was a linguistic play as well.

      Sometimes it takes me an effort of writing an article to get to the point of understanding that was not there even at the beginning of writing.

      The question is "Do I understand myself what I write?"

      The answer is "Not always. But I enjoy the process."

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      Twilight Lawns 6 years ago from Norbury-sur-Mer, Surrey, England. U.K.

      Your thinking is so deep, Svetlana. When I read your comments; you hubs; your e-mails; I am constantly made aware that I am skating along on the surface and you are way, way down there... or flying so high. You have an amazing mind.

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      kallini2010 6 years ago from Toronto, Canada

      Ian, that is my point precisely. There are more dimensions that we can count -

      math needs minds.

      minds need words.

      words need symbolic representation.

      I love the idea of adding zeros = 1 + 0 = 10

      (nothing wrong with the written expression, something is not quite right with the formula).

      Do you think, the Universe "thinks" in Arabic numerals? When you add 6 and 9, you put them together, erase tails ... and there is a Circle?

      How is that for manipulation? Besides, are not all dates (numbers) arbitrary?

      October 31 = 31/10 = 3 + 1 + 1 + 0 = 5

      (what if the "0" of the year is January 2nd? Then all numbers would be different. I don't have to tell you that).

      You know that I am playing with words, numbers, ideas, concepts and I twist them for entertainment. Maybe I also play with feelings.

      If I listen to one song, I feel more cheerful, I listen to another, I feel in the mood for love, yet another - I cry.

      It makes the whole argument VOID and NULL. You know the importance of the VOID. It is not the vessel that is important, but the space it creates for "containing" something else.

      ZERO is not only ... It's value is infinite for creating linguistic cul-de-sacs.

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      kallini2010 6 years ago from Toronto, Canada

      Thank you, Kathy, I appreciate your comment. I think without images and especially without the song (I hope you gave it a chance), it is absolutely beautiful - but cannot be embedded - the article is not quite the same.

      Extra features give a 3D - feeling - life is not reduced to words only - there are images and sounds and aroma and feelings and so much more...

      Everyone's choices of topics, words, images and of everything else is as much a reflection of a personality as anything else. And it is the beauty (not "bold brows, red lips & fashion "this style and "it is SO yesterday!" style). Everybody is unique and NEVER "SO yesterday".

      I always try maintaining the tone of irony, ever-present doubt, what if it is all true? Were those the right men the Universe kept sending me? Or at least from the right category?

      From that perspective, life becomes an inexplicable journey and a fairy tale at the same time.

      "You and your Universe!" - the latest comment from my friend ... yet I feel something that never can be explained...

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      Twilight Lawns 6 years ago from Norbury-sur-Mer, Surrey, England. U.K.

      Just to remind you that in Mathematics 0 has no value, it isn't even 1 - 1 It's the symbol for Cypher which means, in layman's terms, "I have reached my Base and I am here to stop anybody getting into this space. We use the denary system so it means: "I have reached my Base (ten) and bugger off if you think you're creeping in here."

      If we used Base eight, for example, we would count 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 10. 11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 20, 21 etc..

      That's why in numerology there is no 10... it always ends with a single figure maximum 9 and minimum 1.

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      Kathy 6 years ago from California

      Wow, Svetlana - thoroughly enjoyed this incredibly witty look at relationships, the universe does have a strange sense of humor, although I don't know if everyone in it is yet able to see the irony.

      BTW-The images you have chosen speak volumes and accent your phrases perfectly.

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      Mr. Happy 6 years ago from Toronto, Canada

      I like tropical birds (birds in general) and I like fruits too; they are all beautiful so, Kallini is great either way.

      I did not listen to the song before but I did now. It is indeed beautiful. Latin languages are lovely languages to begin with, I think. What would this song sound like in German?

      Everything is in our minds therefore, anything can work (theoretically).

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      kallini2010 6 years ago from Toronto, Canada

      @ Augustine:

      No, don't just nod, come up with some answer, but stick to it. Make it a signature.

      - So, darling, when will you finally settle down and marry a nice girl?

      - ...

      I will tell you a little secret - a secret of a happy marriage remains a secret.

      @ Mr. Happy:

      Kallos in Greek means Beauty. You can call me Bella. But I still prefer Kallini.

      How did you guess? Yes, I sing. Even "Quisiera decir tu nombre ... " - the song that I used for this hub, did you listen to it? It is so beautiful.

      Yes, I love to sing. I will write about my "Singing in the Mall. Out loud".

      But the one who sings BEAUTIFULLY is the 1st character in his hub - "don't tell me about your 42 lovers... please". He sings when we dance and I love his voice.

      And numbers? They are either important or not. The universe does not take into account your awareness or your inclinations. Math does not work in cosmos - it is all in our minds... X, Y & Zeds.

      Quisiera decir, Quisiera decir,

      Quisiera decir, Quisiera decir tu nombre

      I would love to say your name! (this song is enchanting!)

      and it leads me straight into the subject of names.

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      Mr. Happy 6 years ago from Toronto, Canada

      Kallini sounds like a fruit to me ... or maybe a tropical bird. Do you sing (along with the dancing)?

      I like 2, 3 and 6 but I am supposedly an 8. That's ten but I don't care much about it.


      Next interesting stop: Dacia. I'll let you know when the bus gets there.

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      Augustine A Zavala 6 years ago from Texas

      Will you ever forget Number 42? Never, it's my biological age this year, the cost of half a tank of gas in my car, and the number of times my mom will ask when will I settle down and marry a nice girl. I will take your advice, and answer her questions minimally, maybe just nod. We'll see if that works.

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      kallini2010 6 years ago from Toronto, Canada

      @ Mr. Happy:

      Kallini sounds like Fellini, yet, I keep it for a reason, it has a meaning in Greek. (It's all Greek to me).

      As for the strange looks, you may imagine how many strange looks I get - I don't just WRITE this way. I am this way. I live this way.

      I love everything with a meaning. Jewellery with a meaning. Or a memory.

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      kallini2010 6 years ago from Toronto, Canada

      @ A.A.Zavala: Of course, you may borrow it.

      In fact,

      "you will never be the same". Remember the day - May 6th.

      It is all about gymnastics of the mind and juggling words. You can pick any date, any word and start playing with associations the way you like.

      You'll see how much fun it is.

      The trick - don't over explain - let others pull their weight. When we were children, we all knew what creativity and spontaneity was.

      But, for some cases you need "common references".

      Will you ever forget Number 42?

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      kallini2010 6 years ago from Toronto, Canada

      @ Mckbirdbks:

      You are welcome. As I said, everybody likes it - I think it creates the perfect mood for the article - longing for ...

      I was led into it by DJ El Romantico. He recommended a different song but from that one I was on the "right" page...

      I wish it was always so effortless to find music for my articles. A lot of songs that strike me as moving are either in Russian or in different languages. Not even subtitles...

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      Augustine A Zavala 6 years ago from Texas

      You had me at the marriage proposal, lost me with the marriage calculus, won me over with the May 42nd marriage date for conversations. May I borrow that? Family reunion coming up, my mom asks alot of questions. Thank you for sharing.

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      Mr. Happy 6 years ago from Toronto, Canada

      Greetings Mrs. Kallini - I was about to spell it Khalini and turn you Persian, I think.

      I love the fact that you made that observation: it's not about the ring; it is indeed all about the circle. Hence, the ring is almost useless - the circle is spiritual and it's up to the one who wears it.

      I enjoyed the ride because my mind is always racing. I skip thoughts sometimes and people lose me. I get the strange looks ...

      Lysergic acid diethylamide leaves imprints and I sometimes wish I were Rasputin.


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      mckbirdbks 6 years ago from Emerald Wells, Just off the crossroads,Texas

      With the house to myself this morning I had an opportunity to listen to the song that you recommended. What a wonderful piece of music you choose to accompany your Hub. You set me to wondering about a person with the mind of a scientist and the heart of a poet and the spirit of a dancer and where such a person finds harmony.

      Thank you for introducing me to that music.

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      kallini2010 6 years ago from Toronto, Canada

      Thank you, Mr. Happy. I am not big on jewelry, but I guess Mr. Method Man sounded slightly possessive. As far as rings go - no, it is not about the ring, it is about the Circle.

      A trip to Pluto? Maybe. Somewhere to the back of beyond, perhaps? To the other side of nowhere...

      Funny, but the Russian expressions goes "Where Makar(ius) did not drive (or drove) his calves". (too far).

      One of the Metaphysics cartoons I did not choose, but it was funny - cowboys driving the stock of cows (Bulls) ask each other "Do we drive them or do they drive us?"

      As for the warning - the whole article took me by surprise as much as everybody else.

      Who knows? May 6th. The first thing on the agenda is the trip - school trip to the Harbourfront.

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      Mr. Happy 6 years ago from Toronto, Canada

      "You don't need a ring to be my wife" Method Man

      I love that quote (and the song).

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      Mr. Happy 6 years ago from Toronto, Canada

      Wow ... you flew to Pluto and back. Gotta worn me next time I decide to tag along, to pack a sandwich or something at least. I loved the ride though.

      I wish your wish to come true.

      Keep dancing!


      The Universe does have a strange sense of humor. It's fine with Me; keeps things interesting.

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      kallini2010 6 years ago from Toronto, Canada

      Thank you, Mckbirdbks! I did not expect ... anything ... It just struck me as so strange that my ex should say "When are you getting married?" - as if the whole thing was in the Air.

      Waiting? Or looking for? Maybe opening my eyes? For the first time?

      The last thing I expected was your comment to come so quickly - I was about to shut down the computer.

      I don't know if you had a chance to listen to the song, it has been my background music for the whole day - it is in Spanish. I don't mind not understanding lyrics, but then I sent it to a friend and I thought it would be nice to tell what it is about (to find out for myself, too).

      I would like to tell you

      that there is no love in my life

      that only I have happiness

      when I remember your name.

      It was meaning, meaning,

      it was meaning your name.

      It was meaning, meaning,

      it was meaning your name.

      Everybody loves it.

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      mckbirdbks 6 years ago from Emerald Wells, Just off the crossroads,Texas

      Your intellectual prowess soars to realms unknown to me. It appears that you have been swept up into the mysteries and beauty of life's equations and the ideal answer pushes itself away - waiting.