As I looked at you that first day
I thought many things....
When I spoke to you on that first day
I spoke of my direct intent...
When I kissed you on that first day.....
my body exploded like a contained bottle of coke that
had been shaken for a decade but never released..
I can not forget your scent....
it called to me whenever you were near me
and it drugged me whenever I was with you
it was an aroma I could not get enough of
i did not want to get enough of and i always
Your smile and laughter always made me
feel like a child that had been given her
favorite toy.. i glowed in reaction to you
to all of you..all the time
How I miss our mental affair, it drove me insane
and took me away from everything else more important
our time was never our time
there was never the action but
the intent was clear....but never done
how I miss ...the opportunity
to be with you
It would of ruined me for life , to be able
to use you ..but not have you
I wanted to be used....I didn't care
how, when or where...I just wanted to be
consumed by your energy..I wanted to hear you
whisper to me
I wanted you to be within me and make me become one
How I miss that opportunity
time was not mine to change
time was not mine to make more of
time was not my friend
I would still take you
I would still runaway with you
no matter what the cost
It would be a moment of pleasure
that I would be paying for a lifetime
you are my guiltiest pleasure I could never
I am missing you still