Waiting For Superman
What if I’m not the hero? What if I’m the bad guy?
Every young girl wanted a hero on their life. A hero who would save them every time they fall, who would be there for them when times get rough and who will always be ready to stand on their side.
And I knew deep inside my heart that I also want to find my own hero and my own fairytale ending. Luckily enough, I found the perfect hero for this story.
But did I get the “happily ever after” that I wanted my whole my life?
Who says Superman is just a comic or movie character? He’s true and he’s here. But you can only see him if you look closely and deeply not just only on his physical appearance but straight right thru his nerdy eyeglasses. I guess I found one unexpectedly and unprepared. So they say, love happens when you least expect it.
Have you ever felt that when you saw someone the first time, there’s a part of you that says you’ve met in another lifetime? That you feel something in your heart that you cannot explain? Or something that says “i knew i loved you before i met you?” You may think it’s crazy but it happens. And I’m the living proof to it.
I just found his real identity when I was still halfway thru my fall. I’ve tried to ignore it and just focus on the outside world, and make myself believed he’s just another guy next door. But I’m wrong. No matter how I discarded his frozen memories on my mind, I’m still stuck on the feeling he’s got something special inside of him.
Waiting for him is like waiting for forever to come – endless, unsure and who-knows-when.
Swirling back to the past, it was one vibrant Monday morning when this superhero came to my life. Well, as you might have guessed, he didn’t see me. Life is indeed a movie but on that day, it wasn’t.
I might say, there’s a lot of competition to his heart. I know and I admit I’m a coward because I gave up even before we get to know each other. Who am I anyway? I’ve been through a lot already and I didn’t think its right. I’m out of his world, there’s nothing special in me, and I don’t have what it takes to win. All I have is a big heart to love him for the rest of my life.
But in the end, he’ll have to catch only one.
Seeing him laugh with his girl that time tears my heart into a million pieces. I just wished it was me with him, talking and laughing as if the world will end tomorrow. And no matter how I’ve tried not to fall, the gravity was just too strong to stop. I can always feel that she doesn’t care about him, all she wanted was security.
All I know is when I looked deep into his eyes, a different story will emerge – a story about a great man with a kind passionate heart who deserves more than a hug and a kiss after the end of the day. Who am I to say that when I literally don’t know any of his past? Believe it or not, I can see and I can feel it. But sometimes weird people know something just by looking.
Imagine yourself falling and falling in love with someone who doesn’t see you, who doesn’t even know you existed in this world or even falling! Oh well, just trying my luck here.
As they say, nothing lasts forever, even movies. It turns out I’m right, you meet first the wrong person before meeting the right one. After endless years of falling on nothingness, he finally catches me.
Lost years will never be replayed again. And the more I got to know him, the more I see the hero inside of him. His sacrifices, his love for his family and friends and taking things responsibly – I never met someone as good and kind as him.
He loves unconditionally and he’s willing to take an extra mile for the one he loves. And most of all, what he did to save me in the life I’ve chose and get me back on the right trail was the most heroic deed he has done to me even if it means giving up and sacrificing the things he love in his life...without asking for a return.
He’s my inspiration in life; I looked up to him with all respect and love. I honestly admit that he’s the reason why I fought so hard to be the person I wanted to be. I wanted to be like him, successful and happy.
I salute his determination and courage. The unconditional love and his kindness will forever stay and engraved on my heart.
Well, let us end the story with a secret. Superman and I had a long way to go. We never see each other but when I needed him, he’s always there. (he can fly, right?).
And for that, I will always wait for him. No matter where he go, part of him will forever stay right beside me. WE all do have Supermans in our life. He exist and he's right besides us. It's up to you to unravel or just to pretend and keep it as a secret.
Falling in love with Superman is a risk that I shouldn’t have taken in the first place. But I must say, he’s all worth it.
He doesn’t have that red cape and the bold letter S on his chest but he does have the heart of a real superman, a true hero indeed; and that’s what matters most.
See you around!
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