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Living without Hope

Updated on May 30, 2011
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Life is never easy and simple. It is complex and confused. It is not bed of roses as life always give you new challenge every day. Life goes beyond this expression as it takes your test and you have to walk on burning logs to prove yourself.

I am writing this tale when I am completely broken as I have lost someone who was mine from ages with whom I have grown up, with whom I have seen all dreams ,who taught me how to walk, talk and grow. He was always with me everywhere.

He was my soul partner, we use to breathe together in one another ,life was so enjoyable and pleasurable that we wanted to live every moment. We were so happy together that we use to set example for others in love. The love we hold for each other was a unique and strong bond between us we use to think together, even we use to see dreams together, every night use to be in his arms for a endless sleep.

I was so complete that I started thinking myself as a Princess, my all dreams were coming true. I was lost in my world of happiness, I had no place for tears and pain in my life. I use to wake up with his arms around me, and loving smile. I use to think about him all time.

But suddenly one day he realized that he has different priorities in his life. He moved on with his life, I asked him not to go but he was prepared to go mentally. He was strong emotionally to leave me. I waited for him with no commitment to have him back in my life.

When he left me, I thought I will die but I was not that lucky, As I was taken through more bitter phase of life, I was living life without him being on my side. I wanted to die every minute even when I was already dead I was breathing but I was having no charm to live.

Today I don’t have him with me and my wait is over as I am on my last breath of life. I have a desire to see him before I leave foe heavenly abode. Why he left me alone?

I still miss him but have no hope to have him...

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      Bhawana Salaria 6 years ago from Australia

      Thanks Surabhi,

      I really appreciate your concern.And your supportive words for me.You are one in lakh's who can understand pain of someone with such an attachment.Life really doesn't stop on this as it has better things in his plate to serve.I am thankful to you for this comment.

      Thanks for reading and commenting.

      Bhawana

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      Jaspal Singh 6 years ago from India / Australia

      I am completely agreeing with Surabhi, no one can dare to hurt a loving heart. Please dare and you will be certainly princess. Soul partners are made certainly in heaven. And you got ONE for you. He is always waiting for you. Now and forever.Love you.

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      Surabhi Kaura 6 years ago

      Bhawana ji,

      First of all, I salute you for writing your inner thoughts and feelings, which made all of us emotional. It is rightly said that, life is not only bed of roses, but it is also bed of thorns. Just a little piece of advice to you that life doesn't end, it is beautiful and full of challenges. So, we should move ahead with the passage of time rather than remembering such bitter memories. There is a saying in Hindi, "Musibat padi to roya tha, zayda padi to chup hogaya, aur zayda padi to hasta tha akhir duniya mein basta tha." The translation of this saying is, "When trials, tribulations came upon me, I cried. When they increased, I smiled. When they increased even more, I realized after all I am a resident of this world."

      Bhawana ji, I know emotional hurt is that type of wound, which takes years to heal up. But, if we are mentally strong, then we can cope with it. You are such a nice human being and I am sure there is a lucky one made for you. You are one in millions, no one can dare to hurt you. I wish you the best for your future!

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      preet 6 years ago

      its gud and true

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      Bhawana Salaria 6 years ago from Australia

      Jaspal, Thanks a lot for your comment.I really appreciate your concern.Glad to have follower like you.

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      Jaspal Singh 6 years ago from India / Australia

      Just suggest you to dare once and accept you happiness, dreams and destination. If love is so deep and pure, you will certainly get it. I wish you be together now and forever. Love & Salute for you love. Jaspal

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