Oh my! Am I Day Dreaming?
Bad cheetah . . .
That's what she told her ex-boyfriend when they had a closed encounter. She did not mean it, as far as she know. The words just came out of her big mouth - loudly.
And yes - from her big mouth. She also told her ex, "Oh, you're really - inconsiderate! such a thick-faced person . . ." - one thing really unusual about her. She doesn't criticise nor say negative comments on other people.
At the end of the day - she asked herself, "AM I DAYDREAMING? Did I really did that?" - and at the back of her mind is the answer:
"YES! I did that. I did what I believe is right. I did just spoke up. And DID what must be done. After all, I've been in utmost silent when we are still together and attracted to each other".
Their encounter is not that bad - it was just simple. She just approached him and asked if he can pay his debt to her. But the guy answered that they already agreed regarding the matter and both parties said to call everything quits (making the guy debt-free). He also told her in a raised tone that he has no money. But then, as far as she remembered what she said is, "... money is just money, you can have what you owe me, but please return the books you borrowed that my friends gave me - those were special, those were gifts from my love ones."
And I wonder - is she still attach to her past? Why did she felt that way? Haven't she moved on? With such a simple encounter . . . or its just that she finally realized that the guy just used her - that the guy courted her only because she was there when he needs someone to listen, when he just broke-up with his ex before her ... and when he thought, she was strong and has no burdens and fully submissive.