- Gender and Relationships
Stolen Moments - Reflections of a Snowy Night
Looking back, I now know what it was that made you so special. It was that sparkle in your eyes and that warmth in your smile. For the rest of my life, I will always remember and envision in my head the moments that we shared together.
I'll remember the two of us standing outside, the rain coming down, and you looking only the way you could. How your hair laid down on your forehead and how you would gently brush it away from getting into your eyes. How you told me how much you loved me and missed me and needed me in your life. How I pulled you close and kissed you so passionately. I remember how it felt like the world was spinning and how it made me feel so absolutely complete to have you in my life. I remember the very moment that I realized that I was in love with you.
It was a snowy night in Kentucky, and I was sitting alone in my room, hoping that you would call. I remember how I felt when the phone rang, and it was you on the other end telling me that you wanted see me. And how ridiculous I must have looked running down the street in the middle of a snowstorm. I remember how anxious I was to reach your door, and how I had to take a deep breathe to collect my thoughts before I found the courage to knock. I remember how you looked when you opened the door, with your fluffy Eskimo parka and matching boots. I remember how everyone else seemed to be so consumed with throwing snowballs and playing in the snow, but I all I could do was look at you in total admiration. I remember how I reached for your hand and asked you to take a walk with me. And how we walked hand in hand across that snowy field. I remember how we found a swinging bench, and though it was covered in snow, I sat down on it anyway and asked you to sit down across my lap.
You never uttered a word, you simply allowed me to control the moment. I remember how I held you in my arms, rocking you back and forth, hoping that this would keep you warm. I remember looking around, and then down, I guess in hopes that I could find the words to properly express the feelings that I was feeling this very special night. Then I looked up, and saw you sitting there, staring down at me with the smile that only you could smile and the snow falling all around you. In all of my life, I had never seen a more beautiful vision. And then suddenly, the words that I had been searching for, found me, and they came from within. On that snowy night in January, in that Kentucky field, sitting on that swinging bench, with you staring down at me, I knew, I just simply knew that I was totally and completely in love with you.
You no longer belong to me, and that's fine, but that night and all the other wonderful moments we shared are woven together by time to form a beautiful fabric of memories. Time goes on, seasons change and there is love after love, but, whenever I see a snowy field, I can't help but smile and remember when.