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Struggling to be Loved

Updated on May 10, 2012

I love you with everything that I have in me
but sometimes the inner me becomes my enemy
sometimes it is not that obvious to me
but I push you away while you think I play games
but its only because I'm scared to be in love
scared of giving my heart to another without knowing
what I will get in return
scared of trusting another knowing that betrayal could be next door
scared of the future because I don't know whats in store.
something that scares many
something that takes takes courage,dedication and determination
something that has to remain strong
I am committed to you in the weirdest way
I only want you to stay but I dont know how to show it
without pushing you away
I prayed for love,
I always wanted love
but when it comes
how easy is it to know if its right
when all you remember is wrong
how do you know its real when your mind is telling your heart not to feel
what you know is real
the enemy is out to steal, kill and destroy
he doesn't want us to have hope
relationships, marriage, family, love
he doesn't want us to succeed in anything that came from Above.
So i constantly pray, I'm constantly battling what I feel and what I portray to feel
I love you, I really do, I know that God sent you because you make me love you with the
undeniable love that you possess for me
yes I know that we are destined to be
I'm scared but I'm going to make the best of it
its been too much wrong for anymore to continue
I know God had this in His plan
to bring me to you
you to me
eventually we will be happy
yep, just you and me.


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    • MsLofton profile imageAUTHOR


      6 years ago from IL

      Amen Amen!!!!

    • Efficient Admin profile image

      Efficient Admin 

      6 years ago from Charlotte, NC

      "the enemy is out to steal, kill and destroy

      he doesn't want us to have hope

      relationships, marriage, family, love

      he doesn't want us to succeed in anything that came from Above".

      Wow I know I've read this in the Scripture many times but to see it again and be reminded of this, it makes me add to my prayer list for me to resist the devil and he will flee from me. It reminds me to look up and know our Father in Heaven is bigger and more powerful than the enemy of our souls, and our Father wins in the End. Pray for protection against the enemy. Thanks for great article. Voted up.


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