The Dating Games
So after two failed marriages you would think I'm a pro at dating and would understand all the hidden rules. The truth is I find all these rules disturbing and aggravating. As I'm getting older the dating pool is getting smaller and smaller. Then chances are high if you find a good one he thinks he has to play the dating game also.
I'm really not sure if the dating game is protect the person who is playing the game or if they think the person they are after will be scared away if they don't play. What happened to if you like someone acting like it, taking it slowly and just showing someone how you feel? So I've dated this man on and off a few times since I walked out on my marriage. For the most part I would say he is exactly what I'm looking for besides he plays the dating games.
He can see this upsets me and tries to reverse the situation on me as if it's all my fault. He does the typical things like never responding to a text too fast and usually waits for me to text or call first. We have talked about this and he says he wants me to make him a priority and that I don't seem really interested in him. The truth is I'm very interested but I'm also confused because at my age I just don't have time for this.
Who wants to be mid-thirties and wasting months of what youth I have on somebody who I'm just not sure is ready for a girl like me. I'm a faithful, loving and a honest partner so I expect the same in return and this is also a challenge to find. We have hours of conversations wich is hard to do with being a Mom but after the kids are sleeping I stay awake just to hear his voice. I can be angry for the strange games he plays but once I hear his voice it's all over and I'm like a love struck teenager.
I feel like I've really put myself and my feelings all out for him and I'm only getting about half of that in return. I can see he really cares for me and I think that scares him because he's been alone for such a long time. With all of this I'm not ready for him to meet my children, play family board game night or anything that would involve my children at this point. He has tried and asked for a plan to meet my children which I just push aside because if this isn't long term why get my children attached to anyone new?
Trying to figure out how to love and move forward with my past is so hard but I'm trying because I really could see a future with this man. Right when I think things are going perfect he falls back into the dating games. The texts that take forever to respond, the waiting for me to text back, trying to make me jealous and at some points I feel as if I have fallen into that trap with him. When he doesn't text back for hours and then he does text I find myself wanting to wait to reply so he doesn't think he's winning me over and can treat me however he feels.
I'm just a girl who has loved few times and it's never worked out regardless how many times I tried. I never believed in divorce and I do believe in that forever love because I'm the typical hopeless romantic. I just don't know if I'm suppose to play the game or just move on in life with the hope that either he grows up or I find someone also not into the dating games?