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The Many Thoughts of a Girl Thinking

Updated on April 12, 2014

WHAT WILL I BE THINKING when I think of what to think and when?

Will it be men I think? Or thinking like men? Oh how I hate to think.

Thinking is bloody, muddy, and sad.

I think, and in a blink, my passion and dreams go cowardly down my sink

HOW WILL I BE THINKING if ever my eyes are waking and my body quaking

Shall I wink at a shining ring, on the lovely hand of this man I have in my hand?

I hate myself for being single. I hate to be a girl who has to mingle, and a heart to dingle

At every mariner who stumbles by

MORE THAN LIFE my bed I love. The God above and secrets only girls can think

Of bracelets that clink, my name in ink, and another broken heart on my link.

Oh how I wish to marry, a baby to carry and think of thinking as I do

To roll my eyes to envious skies and think I be lying in morning dew

MY MOM WHISPERED secrets things to think about men, any men

As to why they are here, there and already been

I clasp my weeping lids, and think of kids crying as I skip through the sun

Running and thinking, my life I am thinking is a tub that is sinking

. . . as sister Rosie and her girls are calling again.

I LAUGH AT THE DEMISE of my mama's friends and think it sad

To dress so thin, and lean on my chin, do I think myself righteous or bad?

He drifted inside from his wife said he to hide, I think. His pet poodle's name was Dink

. . . and my papa is ready to think me married again.

BUT NOW THE SHADE IS DRAWN I am thinking forlorn leaving for town to be bored

Lips I kiss and friends I miss, but thinking can neither be measured or scored

She leaves me the door, I think I played the whore, and thought it better than before

. . .and Rev. McDovey and his minstrels are gawking at my wayward soul again.

MY THOUGHTS ARE OVER and I lay sleeping 'neath cover

Of silk and slime that I think are hers, hers, and hers, but not mine

My smile is fading, his question evading, and I think it is time to sleep

. . . And God is again calling my name.

I think.

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      Kenneth Avery 

      4 years ago

      Dear Anita,

      Okay, but I meant what I said. To me, you will always be a celebrity-talented, cool, in touch with life, and my friend. That is my favorite part. And I am glad that you love to write. I do also.

      Peace

      And please, keep in touch with me.

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      Anita Saran 

      4 years ago from Bangalore, India

      My celebrity phase is over Kenneth when I was widely written about in my author and fashion model avatars. That's what I meant by 'past'. Today I'm just a simple spiritual seeker who still loves to write.

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      Kenneth Avery 

      4 years ago from Hamilton, Alabama

      Saturday night - 10:39 cdst

      Dear Anita,

      Thank you so much. I am not about hurting My Special Friend's feelings. You are very sweet and YOU WILL ALWAYS be a celebrity to me.

      Good night, my Special friend,

      Kenneth

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      Anita Saran 

      4 years ago from Bangalore, India

      LOL Kenneth, I thank you for the compliment and no offence taken. Of course we are friends!

    • kenneth avery profile imageAUTHOR

      Kenneth Avery 

      4 years ago from Hamilton, Alabama

      P.S. @ Anita,

      My mistake. You wrote in your profile "I've been a . . ." but still, you have done things that most people only dream about.

      Are we still friends?

    • kenneth avery profile imageAUTHOR

      Kenneth Avery 

      4 years ago from Hamilton, Alabama

      Anita,

      Oh, I am sorry. I must have misread your profile. I thought it said you were in television work and things. To me, that is a celebrity. If you will forgive my boldness, your photo is like those of celebrities. I mean, you look like a celebrity.

      I am stuck. I wanted to tell you the truth, but I do not want to offend you.

      I am sorry for my error.

      Forgive me, please.

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      Anita Saran 

      4 years ago from Bangalore, India

      What celebrity status? That's the past!

    • kenneth avery profile imageAUTHOR

      Kenneth Avery 

      4 years ago from Hamilton, Alabama

      Hi, Dear Anita,

      Thank you for your lovely words. I get so nervous when I reply to you because of your celebrity-status. But I really appreciate YOU and your comment.

      Kenneth

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      Anita Saran 

      4 years ago from Bangalore, India

      Lovely poem, Kenneth. That's why they say women are difficult to understand. They say one thing and think another. Made me laugh.

    • kenneth avery profile imageAUTHOR

      Kenneth Avery 

      4 years ago from Hamilton, Alabama

      Dear friend, Annegma (Love your name)

      Yes, you are right. Shock is an understatement. I gave it a good shot of trying to think like you, but failed.

      I am not an expert on hormones, but I have seen them in action. Some nice actions and some not so very nice actions.

      You said it best in saying that what you think today may not be your thinking tomorrow.

      Come back anytime for a visit.

      Peace.

      K.

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      Merida Craze 

      4 years ago

      LOL Thank heavens men are not allowed in women's thoughts or you would seriously die of extreme shock! Thanks for trying to examine us but as you know, we are ruled by our hormones so what we think today is not the same as tomorrow or yesterday. Loved reading this!

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      Kenneth Avery 

      4 years ago from Hamilton, Alabama

      THANK YOU . . .mgt28,

      I sincerely appreciate your comments. They keep me encouraged to keep hubbing.

      Have a good day and weekend.

      K.

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      mgt28 

      4 years ago

      Ken, you one of his own kind. Your writing has its own genre.

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