Unconditional love: The Hardest Lesson!
Only babies understand unconditional love!
The universe favors those who operate in love!
Life is not what it should be!
The sun is shining, but I feel very cold.
I fell in love, but the spark is no more there.
I got my PhD, but I experienced no joy
Something important is missing!
There is invisible black baggage;
The burden is unbearable.
My closest friends asked me with concern:
“Why are you so detached; so cold?”
“I feel no love; my life is empty!” I replied.
Planet earth is beautiful; but no longer to me!
The Creator adorned it with goodies I liked;
All are meaningless; all have lost value!
I dare not ask anyone; but it hurts so badly!
I need someone wise to restore my love of life!
“The Creator is in control, He speak from His throne”.
The still voice spoke with compassion and authority!
I fell on my knees; begging for revelation.
Lord! Please help me see what you see!
I deeply wanted to feel love; it was a sincere prayer.
In dream, I saw myself walking in a dark valley.
Earnestly seeking a light; feeling danger around me.
Tripping over stones and living objects!
Suddenly, I fell in a deep hole!
“Lord!” I cried in terror and desperation!
A saw a lightening-like light in my falling state!
A light so overwhelming; it expelled darkness instantly.
My horror was blissfully terminated!
Gentle hands pulled me up and held me tightly!
Love flooded my whole being! What a joy!
I woke up in cold sweat and embarrassing scream!
Realizing with relief, that I am alive and well!
Noticing that the universe had heard my cry!
Noticing also the lightness of my body;
The baggage has been removed!
Revelation is given: Relationship with my mother!
Though she lived; I had condemned her!
She had a baby; and I did not approve.
Rudely I had displayed my displeasure.
My father had died: why a strange baby?
The burden was removed; love is abound again!
I dishonored my mother and judged her.
The Lord did not approve of my behavior.
I had closed the door and He did the same.
I lived in condemnation; I was without Him!
The Creator is Love; He is holy and fair!
Nothing pleases Him without love.
Without love you are, and have nothing.
“Love without conditions!” He said.
I withheld love and I experienced hell!
Back on my knees; I prayed!
With gratitude I shouted praises.
Oh my Lord! I was lost and You found me!
I experienced rebirth! My spirit sang.
The Lord came to restore the lost soul!
All seemed new. What a bright day!
I called my aunt; “where can I find mom?”
“Your mom is here; she had come three months ago!”
“Forgive me mom!” I begged her.
The Lord restores. He is Love!