You Were Right
You Were Right
You told me no one else would want me.
I know now how much this to be true.
It's not that no one would want to be
it's that none of them would want me too
It's the ones that I fall for that don't stay
Either I'm not pretty enough and stray
Or be alone cause I'm really just crazy.
I can't hear anyone's voice but my own
Since it's so loud at hurting me I'm a black hole
Seems the quest to slowly kill me is working
Cause you cursed me by always staying
Now I'm alone even tho that I'm not
My heart is dying to be snuffed out
I don't have enough potI'd love to smoke my life away
But there's no such thing as cannabis ODing
So I suck on my past like a lollipop
Maybe if I cry enough I'll die from drought
I wish that there was someone who sees
I might be damaged but I didn't want to be me
I used to wake up every day and cry to my mirror
Why am I so unattractive why can't I be prettier
I wanted to be the girl with some virtue
But boys they lie they just want to hurt you
I tried not to give my body away
But if someone took it
it's not my fault ok?
I've been blaming myself for an eternity
I should have been a better girl
Maybe then I'd have been born pretty
It's such a waste to think about these things
I can't fucking help it tho they're consuming me
I've been begging even trying to pray
To get me out of this head space
But every time I deny what I know I get hazy
Wanting to die is so strong in my Soul
I have two kids that I do love
I wish that they made me feel whole
I started to Love myself again over time
Now it feels like it's slipping away.
I don't believe confidence should be mine.
It keeps waking me up telling me I'm not fine.
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