A lot of people feel like they can't trust anyone. A lot of people trust everyone much too easily. I find it to be true that the best of friends you don't have to talk to every day, but are always there for you when it comes down to it and you can always pick right back up where you left off. I have a few of these friends, and my close friends I can quite literally count on one hand and still have some left over- unlike in high school when I had so many people I thought were my "best friends". I wasn't one of those super popular kids who thought everyone loved them, I was smarter than that. I just thought I knew who I'd remain close with. Well, I was wrong. The people I thought I'd stay close with, I don't even speak to, and probably wouldn't go out of my way to say hello to.
I've had one best friend for nearly thirteen years.
Another for nearly ten.
And Ange, who I became close with about two or three years ago.
These, are my best friends.
Ange was an unlikely friend. You see, I hated her our freshmen year in high school, for literally no reason. But it was fine because eventually, I learned, that she hated me then too. After I began dating her cousin, we became friendly. Somewhere along the line, we even had a huge episode, which I totally forgot about until now, where we were so mad at each other over a huge misunderstanding and instead of listening to one another, we just stopped talking. One day, I realized we were both being stupid, and I texted her. After that, we became fast friends, realizing that our craziness lined up quite nicely. We spent a good sum of time together, and to this day most of our text messages are ALL IN CAPS BECAUSE WE'RE OBVIOUSLY EXCITED OR SOMETHING?
It's easy to become best friends with someone who you share everything with and can be yourself with. I would say the night the best friend feeling sort of clicked was the day that her and her boyfriend broke up. I told her, and I quote, "Okay, I'm sleeping over tonight, we're ordering pizza and watching movies. Don't worry about it." and we did. Hawaiian pizza, Batman, and cheesy bread.
While we do a collection of odd things, such as record ourselves making weird faces with a webcam, singing loudly to High School Musical songs, (yes, we're adults), play American Idol on Wii, cry about the stupidest things, and write Mr. & Mrs. Claus on our Starbucks drinks, we're the perfect amount of weird for one another. Yes, we're goofballs, but I've never known someone I was more comfortable to call while hysterically crying.
Ange, you were there for me every time something happened that I didn't think I could handle. You knew about everything I was going to do before I did it. You've seen me cry more times than everyone else in my life combined. You've pulled me out of so many rough patches. You've made me feel like I'm not alone. You've reassured me about any decision I've ever made. You've practically saved my life. I can say honestly that no one has ever been there for me that way that you have, and I am eternally grateful to you.
Rereading some of this, it's really funny how you could pull this all out of context and think I was talking about my boyfriend. Nope, talking about my cousin, people.
I've told you this time and time again, but I will always be here for you. Sometimes, yeah, we go a week or two without talking, but at the drop of a dime I would come to you if you needed me. I hate that you're farther away from me and I miss how every Friday we used to just act like jerks and drive everyone nuts with our singing and laughing and ukes. I promise, I am always just a phone call away.
Things have changed, and yet, you're always still here for me, and you're simply the first person I come to when I'm feeling down. Those weeks you were gone a few years ago were absolute hell for me, and I could not WAIT for you to come back. We find some way to heal each other when we're hurting, I swear.
I guess my point is, somewhere along the line, we graduated from best friends, to cousins, and honestly, why would I ever want that to change? I love you. Regardless of the circumstance, I'll always be here for you. For everything. And thank you for doing the same for me.
And to end it in my words from a couple of years back, "I love how we act like absolute idiots together and laugh for hours on end. I love that we can tell each other anything and know that the other person isn't gonna judge. I love that, in your words, "No matter what we've been through, we're still best friends." I love having you in my life and I can't wait to put you in your yellow bride's maid dress!"