I long to get a phone call from my former husband telling me he realizes the terrible pain he inflicted on our family by leaving for "the other woman". I'd like him to tell me he realizes the great harm that was done to our child by his leaving and apologize from the depth of his soul. I'd like him to tell me again, as he told me when he left, that I was a wonderful wife and a wonderful mother. I'd like him to tell me some of the things he loved about our marriage and about me. I'd love the conversation to veer into a "remember when we..." and he and I could laugh and laugh. At the end of a lovely reminiscense, I'd like him to say he has saved money for our now adult child and for me as well and say that he'll be sending it along shortly - maybe $100,000 for her and $50,000 for me. He would say that he knows no amount can make up for the pain, but that he hoped it would help us enjoy some things he realizes we didn't have because of his leaving. He'd wish me all the richest joys and thank me for having been in his life. He would say that the memory of me and our life together will always be with him. Of course, that's just a dream. It will never happen, but if it did, it would be very very lovely.