hi, jmusil! It's ok to still want her as your wife, don't let anyone tell you different! I have been married to the same wonderful man for 23 years and I can tell you what will catch her eye - something different in you. Now, this whole ball of BS is not your fault, don't misunderstand me. What I mean is this: stop appearing to be crushed and seem to get on with your life - oh, it will be the hardest thing you ever did, but i promise you she will never come back while u chase her. Make her wonder where u are going and doing. Act like this doesn't phase you. Smile. Get some new clothes. Go out to a bar and hire some cute chic to make her jealous. All is fair :) I wish you all the best, jmusil.