I had a long distance relationship about 12 yrs ago. Her and I were about 600 miles apart, when we were together it was great, we got along great. She was beautiful, funny, a wonderful person, and looking back she was the best thing to happen to me in a number of years. I confided in her and told her that I had something I really needed to tell her about myself. She took the news about me and my in private crossdressing alot better than I thought she would. She accepted it and was very positive about it overall.
Due to SOCIETY and the stigma that comes with things that the average person does not understand or accept, like male crossdressers, I cannot begin to count the number of times I VERY SERIOUSLY considered suicide. I felt that family or friends that if they ever knew my deep secret, they would pretty much be shocked, surprised, and not really know how to handle the situation. Alot of the attitudes of society in general have also drove some crossdressers to years of therapy or even to suicide. Anyway --- Since I stayed so hidden because of crossdressing, I dealt with depression for years, so along with depression came the self medication with drug of choice. When my then girlfriend found out she was upset, pissed, felt like I lied to her, etc. I cant blame her at all.
My Biggest mistake was not doing everything within my ability to keep that love in my life. I let her get away. I screwed up, I couldnt see what should have been more important to me in my life at the time. I honestly think I could still be with her if I just could have been honest with her and with myself. That was the last real relationship I have had in my life. Was it worth it ? Not at all. I loved her so much and there are days I still miss her, and yes it hurts. So theres my long drawn out babble and my story.