Love or Hoax
We can’t marry because in my family Inter-Caste marriage is not allowed so there is no reason we should stay together in relationship. What benefit would such a relationship would furnish? - She exclaimed!
What the fuck!! If it was so that why the hell she came in relationship with me? Why the hell she engender a feeling of hopefulness in my heart? Didn't she loved me? Was this one year old relationship was a hoax?
She used to tell call me babu. She used to say “I love you babu, I can’t live without you don’t ever leave me” and now she herself have left me. Can’t I even complaint in relationship? I thought I had right on her but I was wrong. I used to tell her “Shona I can’t live without you, don’t ever leave me or I’ll die” and many times I even offended myself badly whenever she got angry and left me in anger. And this was the only reason she was with me till now. She told me that she was with me just to prevent me from doing anything wrong. What the fuck man!! You must have left me if u didn’t loved me, there was no point in staying back.
I needed someone who could understand me, someone with whom I can share everything, someone who could make me smile J in hard times. But now I’m confused whether she was like the way she acted or she just pretended?? I don’t know what the reality is. Is she saying all these in anger? Or she is uttering the harsh reality?
Yes I let the cat out of the bag. I said what I felt. I have told her not to communicate with him as that made me insecure. But I don’t know why she disregarded my words and unblocked him on Facebook and started talking. When I asked her she said “we’re just friends” and told me that I don’t trust her and she wants breakup. Hell man! One year ago she told me that her X cheated her and I don’t want any contact with him and now they are again getting social. Yes I lost my temper and told her many things that might not be right but I was jealous of him. I want her to see me as her first priority. Is this wrong? Is seeking attention from the one whom I love is wrong? If it is than let me be wrong. Someone said “it’s worth fighting for true love “and I would fight for my love.
I agree there was my fault. But I yelled at her because I was scared of losing her. I was afraid that she might reject me and would choose someone better than me. She used to say “sooner or later this fear of yours would put an end to our relationship “and that’s what transpired. I am victim of my own shortcoming. She says I was always suspicious about her. She claim that I never trusted her. But it’s not true, I’ve always believed her. I even quarreled with my friends because they didn’t valued her. I gave my best but lost her. I just don’t know whose fault have led this relationship to this state. Was that mine? Or hers? But I love her. I want her to come back.