Stupid silly little girl-nothing that nobody ever wanted
Stupid Silly Little Girl
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Poetry By H.C Porter. Becoming yourself, regardless of age or circumstance is scary. Finding your strength is important.
Just see all that he is and all that you are not
Each day is a surprise.
Will you be able to breath, will you be able to do or want anything for yourself.
Most days are a fight. A fight against time, against wants, against dreams of being a better version of who is here now.
How do you know if you are being loved if you are not sure if anyone that has ever held you, touched you, has ever loved you?
You can’t blame your mind set on anyone else but you.
You have done so much wrong and so little right.
Your clarity on thinking what you deserve and want in life is a recent discovery that you have sprung onto the people that surround you.
You are told, communicate. Then you communicate and are told;
“Stupid, Silly little girl , you think you would be better without me?
You think you can survive and life would be easier if you were alone ?
You think that things would smell, taste and feel better?
No one else wants you. Where are you going to go?
I assure you, you don’t have it bad, there are thousands out there far worse than I, which would treat you far worse.
You don’t have it as bad as what you have made up in your little mind. If you would just stop complaining and enter reality from your fantasy world, things would be so much better all the way around. Then perhaps you would be happy.”
You walk away from the words feeling doubt, feeling lonely, feeling embarrassed and ashamed.
Are you a stupid, silly little girl? Maybe your dreams aren’t worth dreaming? Maybe your wants and desires for you are selfish and worthless, just as he says you are.
No one else seams to notice the sting of his bite.
No one else notices what you have thought to be cruel words and actions.
You know his buttons, yet you push them repeatedly, and all that is accomplished is anger.
You beg him to stop and to see what you are showing him.
You beg him to hear you.
You have sat and told him of the hurt you have felt when he has done or said something that took a fraction of your heart.
Stupid, silly, little girl. He must be right, he is happy. He smiles, when you are not around. He says that it is you that makes him stay so far away.
You should prove to him, how much you love him,
You should help him, and offer to help him more, when ever you can.
You are so selfish, worried about what you are giving up, not getting out of life, not having the opportunity to experience, yet he carries you.
You have nothing of to call your own, and if you do, it is because he has shown you how to steal it from the world.
Stupid, silly, little girl. Do not try, do not think, do what a stupid, silly little girl should do to make sure that he won’t leave.
Being happy shouldn’t be hard, why am make it so hard? Smile, and then, you will be happy.
Don’t think of yourself, and think more about him, and you will be happy.
It is your own stupid fault, you’re not happy.
You can’t leave; you have no place to go.
Can’t make dreams come true, you shouldn’t even be dreaming them in the first place.
Stupid, silly, little girl. Don’t cry yourself to sleep, you will wake him up.
Stupid, silly, little girl. Don’t breath without permission.
Stupid, silly, little girl. Don’t dream you don’t deserve to.
Stupid, silly, little girl. Don’t think, you’re thoughts are not important
Stupid, silly, little girl. Don’t try; you will never be anyone to anybody
Stupid, silly, little girl. Don’t fight, just give in-so you can be happy
Another Piece About Living a Life of Confusion and Abuse