Every morning when i wake up, I start to wonder "what now" What's going to happen today. Is today going to be a Good day or Is it going to be a Bad day like the past few weeks has been.
It's been awhile now since he's been home. I keep wondering where is he and what's he doing and who he's with. Why do I even care anymore. He called me the other day and he didn't say much. he wouldn't even tell me where he's at or if he's coming home. We've been together for almost 22 years now on and off. So I am wondering, Is it worth it any longer. trying to hold on to something that is most likely going to end. The kids are all grown and living on there own and I'm here alone all the time.
So what's the point to holding on to something that's gone. Should i even care, he doesn't seem to care about nothing besides himself, oh and the dog that is.. yeah Bear is our dog, we've had him since he was a puppy. I can't forget about Bear. the first thing he asked when he called me was "how is Bear" I told him he's fine. well i guess a man's best friend is a dog. wow i can't tell you how that made me feel. I really don't know what to do.