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Letter to the first boy I ever loved.
This is a letter of thanks, It's been nearly five years since I've seen or even thought of you, so I'm not sure of exactly how to begin- so I'm starting with a poem just for you! You don't know this, but between the ages of thirteen to eighteen I wrote you so many poems, none of which you ever read of course. I'm twenty-three now; and this is the last thing I will ever write about you. Not that you'll ever read this either, I just wanted to have an opportunity to say thank you:
For every time you made me cry- You taught me to be strong.
Every time you used me- You taught me to never let it happen again.
Every time you led me on- You taught me how to tell the difference.
All the times you betrayed me- You taught me to rely on myself.
Every time you took me for granted- You taught me to appreciate those who really love me.
Evey time you lied to me- You taught me the importance of honesty.
All the times you made me doubt myself- Taught me to be proud of who I am.
Every time you accused me- You taught me to give the benefit of the doubt.
And every single time you mistrusted me- Showed who you really were.
For all you said and all you did- That showed me what I never want in a relationship.
I was so young, and you took advantage, of my naivety and my vulnerability. I was so in love with you, and you loved having a doe eyed young thing mooning over you.
But eventually I saw through your charm, after five years of dreaming, wishing and praying, those rose tinted glasses finally fell off. I hardly moved for a week after that last infamous phone call. I cried for days and for so long everything I did reminded me of you.
And then I met him. the real love of my life. He was so sweet and so kind, everything I always wanted you to be. And after years of loving a boy who gave me nothing in return, I could recognise that he was everything I needed.
Kevin. You helped give that to me, you taught me so many important lessons that I will never forget, and that in the future I will be able to pass on to my daughters,
and for that. I Thank You. Sincerely.