A Controversial Conversation: Discussing Evolution Verses Religion and the Belief in God
Contemplating and Asking Questions????
In recent weeks a lot has been on my mind. This world we live in has fast become riddled in hate and fear. Every time I step out of the door I wonder whether it will be my last. This has gotten me thinking about God and his purpose for us here.
Not too long ago I wrote about the fact that I was through with religion. In all honesty, I was through with it for quite a while; I just never admitted it to myself until this last year or so. Oh, I still believed in God. I always had my personal relationship with him, and I continue my daily talks with him today. However, I have been at some sort of a crossroad. I feel lately that with all the violence and division in this world that maybe, and I hate to think this way, but maybe there actually is no God or Jesus. I started asking myself questions like; If there is a God, why is this his will for us? Even more, why has it always, when I think about it, been the bad humans that live unscathed without life’s woes and hardships and the innocent and hardworking that have had the luck of Jesus himself? The one who hung up on that cross and suffered? The one who was taken as a joke by so many as not being who he said he was? If there was and is a God, then how could he have even sacrificed his only son to that kind of torture? I mean, did it do any good? Has it helped even in the slightest bit to bring this world to peace and unity? Has sin been washed away to enough people, because now it seems we are drowning in it?
More and more questions I cannot stop from entering my mind, and all the while I stay committed to my talks with my God. My personal relationship to whatever or whoever it is that makes me feel, at least, a little more at ease when I’m so stressed out and worried that I feel I would like to go ahead and die instead of try to breathe another day. Then I go further with my questions upon feeling this way. If he was truly helping me, if he was really real, why do I still feel a little better but still harbor so much despair within myself? How? Who is this God that I talk to? Could it be that I have made him up to validate the beliefs I grew up with? The ones my parents to this day instill in my psyche? Could my God actually be just me and my ability to rationalize my bad days and soothe myself? Is the voice I hear inside myself only the part of me that has learned to heal through difficult days? It’s all debatable now to me.
It's All Very Scientific If You Ask Me
Darwin's Theory On Evolution
If I delved into the part of my brain that seems to be making an appearance more and more, I would begin to question Charles Darwin’s theory of evolution. I will not lie; it has brought up questions in my mind lately; Mr. Darwin being a naturalist and his research bringing into his mind the idea that we evolve out of natural selection. We do not come from a God’s hand, but we have evolved through adapting to the ever-changing environment. When I think this way, it does not seem all that unrealistic. Do I wish and hope that it isn’t true? Yes. I think; like most people, I want to believe in the greater power of a God. I want to believe we were in this place of serenity before being brought here in the world to a hand-picked family that would set our life a sail with different realms of emotions and conflicts but all for a purpose in the end, even if we could not know that purpose until we once again entered where we began (heaven). It is a lovely way to think. Even if you are not a religious person, but more of a spiritual hippie chick like me, it’s the way most of us would want to live and believe.
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A Modern Day Darwin: Richard Dawkins
One day recently, I was skimming my newsfeed on facebook, and I came across a video short of a man I have never personally heard of, but seemingly he has been in the publics' conversations for years. His name is Richard Dawkins. I don’t know why I clicked on this video. I can’t remember. Although, I assume it had a title attached that caught my eye, apparently it was about religion and theories on this subject.
As I watched Mr. Dawkins in this video, I was intrigued by his mind. I could detect a similarity to my own mind in a sense. He had individual thoughts, and though he is a scientist, a zoologist if I’m not mistaken, he still talked through his beliefs and wrote about his beliefs in a way that expressed his personal thoughts and feelings on subjects, and in this case religion. His theories and questions to those who don't have the same ideas of him, would eventually brand him as being a controversial person.
There was one video of his that I found, where he traveled to speak with an evangelical pastor and by the time this interview was over the pastor, Ted Haggard, told him in the process of finding his truth, don’t be arrogant. I had to laugh, because as I watched Richard Dawkins simply ask his questions; it's his curiosity I saw, and his need to find why people believe in what they believe in. I find a lot of people feel I’m arrogant in this way, when really all I'm doing is asking questions that may quench my thirst of my own curiosity. It is very questionable to curious minds as to why we have all these religions and different books and stories to worship from. How does all of this come together in the grand scheme of going to heaven and meeting one God? I, for one, see exactly why Mr. Dawkins is researching and asking people of religious faith these questions. I think I would like to know the answer myself.
I suppose being curious and asking questions in your own accord could be defined in a lot of ways; arrogance, judgmental, even maybe narcissism. However, I like to think of myself as being altruistic in my search for knowledge and my need to share my thoughts. That’s the way I look at my journey. I see myself as informative and trying to bring unity and conversation to others in a good way. I may go about it in a similar way as Mr. Dawkins; full force with no thought of how people may perceive me until after I have already stated my questions and opinions. Even so, like him, I shed no apologies. If I were to do that, I would lose the me whom I have learned to admire, and I want to admire myself more than I want admiration from others; not in a narcissistic way, but in the way of survival through this life of mine. I have learned through many ups and downs, it, in fact, was the days of insecure thoughts about myself that had me so deep in depression and scared to do or say anything which would make others judge me in a negative fashion. I’m not doing that anymore, and I do not care if this makes me arrogant. I’m truly disappointed if altruism cannot be seen by some as my quest, but I assure you that is what it is.
Concluding My Thoughts On This Subject
I don't know if I totally believe in Evolution. I don't know if I totally believe in God anymore either. I have no answers at this point, only questions that I'll keep asking until I decide on something for myself. I suppose, until then, I will continue to talk to my God. There may come that day in which the light bulb will just explode above my head and I'll come back here with my total belief of one of the two along with my reasons to back it up. Until then, I hope all are happy with what they believe in.
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