A Funny Thing Happened on My Way to Work
This morning was like any other Monday morning - dreading the idea of having to go back to work. Work has been stressful - stressful to the point where I've been contemplating putting in my resignation. I keep going back and forth on this decision. I tell myself "give it one more day" or "tomorrow will be better" and, of course, "don't be a quitter!" Tomorrow is never better though, it's the same (or worse). A clusterf*ck of chaos day in and day out. See I'm supposed to be happy - the happiest time in my life - because I am newly engaged to the love of my life. My job, however, has been preoccupying my thoughts and the stress and anxiety leaves me too exhausted to do the things I once loved. I used to like to do things like drawing and painting and taking photos. Even buying a fashion magazine at Walgreens and coming home and laying on my bed to read it gave me so much joy. I'm distracted though, distracted and depressed. But I digress....so back to this morning.
I was driving the hour commute to work, thinking about the recent job I had applied for last night. It seemed almost too good to be true. I mean the pay was less but the commute was much shorter. Saving on gas would be an excellent thing. And it was something I know I would enjoy doing - that's priceless, right?? So I'm thinking about this job I applied for, hoping they would call me today, while dreading going to work. I don't think I could last at my current job much longer because it's sucking the life out of me and I'm about to snap. So, I return to my thoughts of just putting in my resignation and getting it over with. Just imagining it is like a weight lifted off of me. I don't know if it's such a good decision though because I don't have a new job lined up yet. I need guidance. I need guidance from above.
So as I'm driving I'm talking to God (something I do very often, especially recently). In my mind I'm asking God for guidance. I'm asking Him to give me a new opportunity. I'm asking Him to give me a sign that I'm making the right decision to leave my job in the pursuit of happiness elsewhere. For the past few years, anytime I saw a beautiful red cardinal I felt it was a sign from God. So this morning in my hour of need I ask God for this sign. I ask him to show me my little red friend. I didn't even complete the thought in my head when the unbelievable happened. A little red cardinal flies right in front of my car. My jaw-dropped. What are the chances? Can anyone tell me what are the chances of that happening at the exact moment I ask God for that specific sign??
Needless to say, I am handing in my letter of resignation tomorrow.