A "God" Idea
"Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of Heavenly lights who does not change like shifting shadows." James 1:17
Have you ever had a good idea? I mean a really inspired idea? First, I want to say that I am a dimwit, a lamebrain and I've never in my life been able to come up with a really good, inspired idea on my own. Growing up and making new friends is hard when all that's ever really mulling around in your head are a few dust bunnies and a couple marbles. We spend our lives meeting new people (some of us spend our lives avoiding meeting new people) and suddenly finding ourselves needing to make conversation. You know you don't have a whole lot of good ideas when conversation is so difficult that you have to strain your brain to simply come up with the idea to make idle chit chat about the weather...and even then you fall short. Afterwards you breathe a sigh of relief and say to yourself, "Phew! I'm so glad I at least thought to mention the weather, otherwise it would've been dead silence." I guess it's a lifetime of no "good" ideas that will really open your eyes when a "God" idea comes along.
It is certainly my own lack of natural revelation and personality that has helped me to understand and see who God really is. Often, over the years it was in my moments of desparation that I would seek Him. I would bow down and humbly ask for what I needed and then, like a ray of light popping through the clouds He would show Himself and reveal a little of who He is to me. I'm not saying it always was immediate (though at times it was), but ultimately, once the storm had passed I could look back and see His provision and love for me. I would see how He had brought me through the circumstance and placed me safely down on the other side. These would be the moments in my life I would call "bowing down" moments. At the same time, however, I would liken it more to a person bowing in the direction of the King's palace from outside. It would be like the King coming outside and giving me, the poor and needy subject, an alm, as they did in England during the Rennaissance.
Now, there is an altogether different experience that I have had as well. It came at a time when I was seeing (also by God's grace) just exactly how pitiful I really was. My husband and I were fighting and I was continually appalled by my own behavior. Gone were the days when I could blame all our problems on him, it was time for me to be sick of myself as well. This was the moment when I threw caution to the wind and decided to fully surrender myself to God. As a result of this act of surrender, I found myself no longer outside the King's gates, begging for bread or alms, but ushered into the inner courts of the King and bowing before His throne. This is when the "God" ideas came along. The difference between a "good" idea and a "God" idea is like the difference between a dried up twig on barren ground, surrounded by pine needles and a blossoming tree planted by water, deeply rooted, lush and green. When a "God" idea comes, you know you it didn't come from you.
This is the basis for my articles. I am writing this initial one because I want it to be known in advance that anything I write that seems like a "good" idea, did not, in fact come from my own head. I can promise you that. Again, never in my life have I had, on my own, a truly "good" idea. I have, however, had a few "God" ideas and I want to share them with you. Oddly enough, I have found over the years that most of these "God" ideas have come when I am not in a place to be writing them down or typing them....like the shower, or when driving. It's something that frustrated me for a long time until I realized that God was protecting me from myself. He knew that at that point, if I had been allowed to write down what He was showing me, I would have been tempted to take credit for it rather than giving God the glory. So, He works all things together for His purposes. God does not want us to take credit for the wisdom that He, by His grace, shares with us, and wants to be sure that He is the only one who receives all the glory. I am so thankful for that. So, if you're willing to indulge me and are interested in journeying some through God's magnificence with me I invite you to follow, comment and walk with me a ways. If you don't already, I'm sure you will soon have plenty of "God" ideas too! Walking with God is full of wonderful surprises...and, please, do, feel free to share!
Just one last note: I take full responsibility for any blunders or bad ideas...I can assure you those are mine and not God's fault at all.