A Lesson in Faith
To follow a dream and eventually come to a point where you have no shelter, no food, and no income, knowing that you cannot go back but have to continue going forward even though you don't know how, is the start of a spiritual journey that will teach the traveller lessons in faith and trust.
Several years ago I found myself facing this journey...
I cannot pretend that I didn't feel afraid, but as I moved along this path guided by my higher self, I eventually developed a stronger sense of inner security and grew in confidence. I came to understand how the universe works, and realised that surrendering to a higher power is one of the most enriching experiences anyone can have, because the lessons you learn have far greater value than money!
I had followed my dream of being a writer, a dream that had haunted me like a friendly shadow since my youth. I worked as an office administrator at my local Fire Station; typically, I felt that I couldn't leave my bill-paying job; I was divorced and totally responsible for keeping the roof over my head. But as each year passed and my love of writing grew, my sense of dissatisfaction increased. Nevertheless, I continued working hoping that one day an opportunity to follow my dream would materialise.
And it did.
In 2006 I received a sum of money, enough to pay my bills for two years. Did I leap at this opportunity and hand my notice in straight away? No! I tucked the money into a savings account and went on a pre-arranged holiday to Turkey.
But if you are meant to move the universe will nudge you forward.
On my first morning back at work, I was told to throw away all the paperwork relating to the old Fire Precautions Act. Parliament had passed a new Act which had come into force, therefore the paperwork relating to the old Act was obsolete. One of my last jobs in that office, was throwing away all my work! Eighteen years of typing and filing were destined for the shredder!
Later that day, I met by chance, a woman who was looking for a job...as an office administrator. As I listened to this lady talk about the difficulty of finding a job, I realised that someone else needed my job more than I did. I had dreamt of an opportunity to leave, and it had materialised.
Six weeks later I left...
The next two years went by in a blink of an eye. I had written a good framework of my book, but my money was running out. Once again I was on the threshold of more changes; it was time to explore my options...sell my house or return to work. The former felt scary, the latter felt depressing. Nevertheless, I put my house on the market whilst reluctantly looking into the job situation.
I was offered another job working for the National Health Service...throwing away old patient files! Another clear message from the universe. Go backwards and you will pick up where you left off!
By the end of that year my house was sold, providing me with more more. I couldn't afford to buy another house, so I moved into a static caravan. But I felt miserable. I didn't like the caravan and no longer wanted to live in my home town. I loved London. Over the years I'd made regular visits to the city and dreamt of moving there...when I could afford it.
But the spiritual path is littered with "leaps of faith". A leap of faith requires you to follow your highest feelings and their guidance, putting love before logic, faith before finance, and trust before doubt. The following spring, I leapt and moved to London. Again, everything fell into place, and although I only had eighteen months of money to live on, I felt happier, totally confident that I'd made the right move.
Eighteen months later I faced another precipice...my money was used up but I had finally published my book on the internet; this encouraged me to expect my circumstances to change for the better. I didn't realise what was ahead of me. I would live in one of the most expensive cities in the world without finance. But how do you stay well fed, warm and washed, with no home and no money?
I was destined to find out.
Our dreams come from our heart; they are imbued with our love which is why they feel more fulfilling to accomplish; to deny the heart is to deny the lessons that evolve the spirit. The path is challenging, but when we surrender, our higher self takes control, and this is the reason why we are brought to a point where there is nothing and no else to rely on. All we need is love, and letting go of the ego is an act of love.
For over two years I slept in a woodland in a park, something that would have horrified me a few years before. I cannot over emphasise how my needs were met. I asked and it was given! I didn't beg. I didn't plead. I didn't steal. I simply asked. Everything from food to footwear to clothing, was provided. This may sound magical, but when you surrender to a higher power, magic and miracles occur. This is the way God works.
I asked for hot healthy food, and was guided to the Hari Krishna temple in London. Every day, after a lunchtime talk, a free meal is served; in return, I worked as a volunteer in the temple kitchen.
At the heart of this journey, is my dream, my book...
The world is facing a war between the forces of Evil and Light. The energy of Evil has reached critical mass and is slowly spreading over the world; this Darkness cannot be stopped by mankind's military weapons. The answer comes from a higher dominion. A Wave of Light energy descends and the two energies fight it out over the skies of Africa, but this energy was creates tremendous turmoil on earth. A tide of people leave their homeland to try to escape the growing Darkness; the rest of the world look on in fear, but mankind is being challenged to believe in a higher power, to transform fear. This transformation is crucial to conquering the growing Darkness!
The above forms the basis of my book. I had written about turning a negative situation into a positive, and found myself learning the practical lessons! I finished my book and published it on the internet in 2011, and now I see similar events happening in the world.
I now have shelter,but I am still working towards my dream, still learning lessons that teach me about the dynamic energy of the spirit. And this learning continues and always will, because like love, learning is eternal!
© 2015 Betty Janet Davis