A Daughter's Plea to God
Heart Cries for Mother
This is a personal impersonal letter to you. I am suffering from many problems nowadays. I am not able to understand what is my fault or why suddenly destiny starts disliking me? My life was going very smoothly earlier, suddenly these unknown bumps came in my life and I lost my control, unbalanced and fell down. And now whenever i try to get up, some problems come and ditch me more deeply. All my efforts become futile. What to do?
Ohh, but many people would be suffering from the same problem, then how would you recognize me? So should I tell you about myself before explaining my complaints against you. Yee, complains, I know this is a wrong word, but what to do, I have.
Ok now let me tell you first about myself. I am a small creature Anupma, sent by you on this earth. My parents were the best parents of the world ( blessing of Yours). Yess were, because you have taken them away one by one (this is the biggest complain). My family was also the happiest one of the world. We all were so happy with each other. I am the youngest girl of my parents among four sisters and one brother. All love me a lot. Life was really good that time. Childhood passed in joy and merriment, youth came that was also fantastic. In short, days were good. But suddenly one horrible day came and destroyed our beautiful world. I lost my father. And from that day our misery begin. I was in university. A helpless creature I was- not even able to support either my mother or my family. We were in shock and pain. Our condition was so pathetic. But we did not have anyone who could help us to come out. It was YOU GOD, who helped, encouraged us to get rid of this pain. Finally after four years our derailed life came on track.
The best moment of any girl's life was about to come in mine too. I was getting married with a wonderful man. Only ten days were left of my marriage, we all were happily, specially my sweetest and loveliest mother. It was the matter of just 5 months ago- May 3, 2013, We had a Pooja (Prayer) of Yours at our home. But do you remember what you did... May be you forgot- You took my mother... Yess I lost my mother... My mother left us all alone on this day. And again you derailed my life and this time you made my life hell. You know why I am angry to you. It is said that YOU ARE OMNIPRESENT, then why don't you see your own children' s problem. You knew the best time of my life was about to arrive and in one moment You made it the worst time of my life. I am one of the fewest creature of the world with whom this can take place. The saddest and the happiest time of my life was together, what to feel, what to enjoy- I was not getting. Even today I am not able to understand.
Life is not Bed of Roses.
So my smooth and joyous life got worst. You bless me with a good husband, but do you think a husband can take place of a mother. So my answer is no, no and no. Nobody can take place of a mother. A mother is a creator, You are also creator, so You must have a heart of a mother. Now you tell me why did you do this to me? Do you think I am such a strong girl who can bear it with a big smile on her face. Sorry God, I am helpless, I am unable even to understand Yours this plan. My heart is full of pain. I miss my mother, I always want to be with her. But now I am alone.
Now will You please explain me Why you took my mother when I need her badly..? Why You brought both the saddest and the happiest moment together in my life? I know that everything in this world is pre-planned, but why do you make such plans that hurt us, that hurt Your own children. Why God..????
Waiting for your reply
Your Poorest Daughter
I am Angry to You God
Smile With Tears
Have you ever seen the same situation- You laugh with a lot of pain and tears in your eyes?
There is a Will, There is a Way. . .
I read John Milton poem On His Blindness. In this poem, the poet Milton complains to God against his blindness. Actually at the age of 42, Milton became blind. He was a very famous poet. He knew about his talent. He wrote this poem as a complain against God. In the beginning of the poem he asked God why He fetch his eye-sight, now Milton would not write about God's glory but later he realized that God did not want anyone's praise. He is omnipotent, omniscient and omnipresent. Thousands angel are ready to serve Him.
I also understand whatever happen happen for good? But it is very tough to understand it when you are in worst time. It is a letter not only of mine but of many people who suffer from any problem. Why sudden unseen and unwanted bumps come in life? Why do they unbalanced us? It is really very hard to come out from such problems.
At last, but not least-
WHERE THERE IS A WILL, THERE IS A WAY. . .
© 2013 Dr Anupma Srivastava