A Slave to Unforgiveness
It is often said, that God forgives. It is also said that we must forgive. Both of these statements are hard, sometimes even impossible. But there is a forgiveness that we often look over in our lives—it is the forgiveness that we must give ourselves. So often the baggage we hold on to, either because we feel that we are horrible people or even more a lie that God could and would not ever forgive us. If that is the truth then our Lord, who hung on the cross died for nothing. He came to save us from ourselves, because without Him—we truly can do nothing. There is no man, nor beast that can harm us. And there is only one judge. The struggle within is the hardest war to fight and win.
In the scriptures Jesus tells us that if we cannot forgive others—then God will not forgive us. This statement is one of authority and power. We are in control of the forgiveness factor, not only in our lives, but our lack of forgiveness binds the hands of God. Just imagine being hung on the cross by the same people who once praised your name. Being beaten, whipped, ridiculed. Having spikes driven though your flesh then hung on the cross to ultimately suffocate. A torture that none of us could even imagine. And that the man who hung there, did so with intention of forgiving those who put Him there, and taking away the power that Satan had over us—death. We can’t even imagine the pain that Jesus must have gone through. There is none of us that have experienced anything the likes of the crucifixion. So the question I pose to myself and to all of my brothers and sisters is this: Is there anything that anyone has done to us that is as horrible as what was done to Christ?
We can tell ourselves that: “What if someone hurt or killed my family member? What if someone killed my child? Molested my child?” That would be the most horrible and terrifying thing to go through as a parent. Would I want revenge for the death of my child? Then I think to myself: "Jesus was someone’s child. He had His Father in heaven and his mother on earth watching, helpless to the fact that their child was being punished and sentenced to death. And, not only that but that those individuals that he came to help were the individuals He was saving. Love is something that cannot be explained or given it must be felt, and it is truly a gift from the Holy Spirit. The saddest thing is that some of the most unforgiving individuals are those who call themselves Christians. When faced with the reality of God’s love how many of us can truly forgive with our whole hearts? How many of us can bear the burden that Christ took on His shoulders?" If He could bear the weight of the world, and take on all our sins, then truly we should look within ourselves and begin the examination of our own lives. When we have forgiven ourselves and asked forgiveness of the Lord then we can seek the forgiveness of others. Then finally, we can forgive others what they have done against us.
“I acknowledged my sin to You, and my iniquity I have not hidden. I said, 'I will confess my transgressions to the LORD,' And You forgave the iniquity of my sin.” Psalm 25:3