Aliens, Demons and Me
Here Are Some Pictures of "the Grays"
This is the perfect video for what I am tring to say......
The Connection With Outer Space And Spirits
Look out, for I am going in…. into subject matter that I have avoided writing about for some of my accounts are somewhat unbelievable in nature. Except for the fact that many of my experiences echo the stories told by others who have claimed to have been abducted. This by the way, is one of the reasons I chose not to publicly speak about my encounters. After all, it could appear that I was influenced by the occurrences others had claimed to have. In fact it was not until Whitley Strieber started writing his accounts of the “visitations” he received that I started to realize that I have had similar exposure to something not of this world.
It was then that I started to wonder if there was a connection between what I perceived as imagination was something else. For some of the things I thought had happened to me I convinced myself was just all in my head. Like many “abductees” I tried to find other explanations, for the concept of “little green men” was just to absurd! Even so, the more I searched into the subject the more I found similarities with my own life. I became obsessed with finding answers to this mystery and in the end all my research was “inconclusive.”
The only deduction I could reach is that there was a connection between the aliens and the Occult, or better yet the spirit world! There was just too many similarities between the two fields that after awhile I started lumping them together. I should admit right now, that in many ways I was a spiritual daredevil, for I chased after the unknown! I was quite arrogant at first, for I felt anyone who tried to whitewash the practice of Magic was a wimp! My attitude was much like Aelistor Crowley’s; if you were going to practice the Occult you should push the envelope!
The problem was that after a while something started pushing back and pushing back hard! There were countless times I had the poop scared out of me and yet, it was addictive! There was nothing like the adrenaline rush you get when you are messing with things that most often you do not even see. I have come to realize why I was such a “spirit junky” for I had become possessed by that I was chasing after! It took ownership of my mind and my soul! I now realize what a lot of abductees realized, these encounters with the unknown started much earlier than I consciously remembered at first.
By the way, there was a time in my life that I felt that I was some kind of high-bred, part alien and part human. The reason why, is that when I was born I was what some called a “blue baby” for I had to have a blood transfusion when I was only for days old. From dreams I had and other occurrences I came to believe that during the blood transfusion something else happened that was not physical but still very real. I was convinced that some non-human entity “intervened” in some way. I also got this idea in part from what some so-called psychics told me though the years.
However, the first event that I could remember without the aid of hypnosis or other means was when I was nineteen years of age and living in Trinity County a wilderness area in Northern California. The place that I was first living in was not even a town and had no electricity. In fact, I had to keep my food cold in a well. I had worked out a deal to be the caretaker for an eighty archer ranch with the nearest neighbors about a city block away. I lived off the land and the odd jobs I could get. The night of my “abduction” or what ever else you want to call it, I had just gotten home from a friend’s house and I immediately felt like I was being watched. This was quite strange, for there was no one else living on the property.
Later on that night, my dog and the neighbors dog started barking like crazy, which was common for after all there were a lot of wild animals in the area. This went on for about ten minutes and then all sound suddenly stopped! It was like I was listening to a recorded and the needle was lifted. Then a bright white light came though the window over my bed and I saw what I could only describe as “waves” of light passing over my body. It was then I realized I was paralyzed completely!
I heard a strange sound that was almost mechanical in nature, except it had a rhythmic chanting like attribute to it. I also began to “vibrate” or “pulse” as intense energy flowed though me. It was then I heard yet another sound, something was walking up the stars to the cabin I was staying in! The next thing I knew, it was morning and I did not have a clue to what happened the night before.
Two days later, I was painting a house for this strange old geezer who lived close by and when he saw me he said matter of fact like, “they came for you the other night didn't they?” Of course I did not know what to say except to ask what he meant by “they.” He then began to tell me that aliens had visited me and they took my sperm! How do you respond to something like this?
By the way, this was in the late 70’s before the whole “abduction” books became popular. Yes I had heard some stories about cattle mutations (in fact there had been some close by) and other alien talk but this was the first I heard anything about aliens wanting young men sperm! The old coot went into great detail about what happened to me and why the aliens had come. Remember, I had not told him a single thing about my experience for I was starting to think it was a dream.
Another important thing to say is that I was not high on any drug during the whole incident or anything other physical reason why this should happen. This was, by the way during the time I was practicing Satanism, even though I was not very advanced yet. From that moment on, I started reading anything I could find on aliens while I returned to “normal” life.
A couple months later I moved to another ranch in a small town about ten miles away and I became a ranch hand for a wealthy x judge who owned a large amount of land. He had a hundred head of cattle and five horses and he was gone most of the time so I had full run of the ranch. It was during this time that I started having strange dreams and visions about being inside a space ship with some really weird looking creatures.
The main thing I remember about them was that they seem more like dolls than humans and they had extremely dark eyes and when they would look at me I felt very frightened.
One evening I had a friend over at the house and we had gotten really high on weed and booze and when he was about ready to leave I filled his truck from the gas tank that was on the property. While I was filling up the truck, I looked out into the pasture behind the house and I saw a bright white light slowly sliding behind some near by hills. It moved with absolute silence! I ask my friend if he could also see it, but he could not, which I found quite strange! It was all I could do not go and investigate the bizarre light and I got into an argument with myself about if I should go our not. Finally I chickened out and returned inside.
Trinity and Humboldt County were influenced by two extremes in life views, one was the New Age Hippy types and other were the “Hillbilly” or cowboy side which was much more conservative. The interesting thing was that I was highly influenced by both camps! I had cowboy friends and Hippy friends and even a combination of the two. Now when it came to my encounters with aliens and UFO’S I keep this pretty much to myself and would only discuss it with the old man who first told me about these aliens.
I eventually returned to Los Angles and devoted my self to Satanism and song writing. I swept the whole alien thing under the proverbial rug for a time, but that did not keep the bazaar incidents from increasing! In fact the house I was living in became well known for poltergeist activity. Things were constantly being moved and once again I started feeling like I was being watched. I would also see apparitions and one night I felt something actually crawl on top of me.
For a moment I thought it was a cat for there was a black cat that seem to hang out at our duplex and I thought it had gotten inside and crawled on my bed. I could even feel it walking on me, but when I went to pet it, there was nothing there! The strange thing was I was not even frightened, for I had started to get accustom to these presences. I looked at it as if it was just part of my “admission fee” for probing into the spirit realm!
Well I was a restless soul and moved around a lot and yet, I would always seek out those who were interested in metaphysics. Finally, I kind of sort of settled down in Northern California in Napa and then Sonoma Valley. This is when I started having an increase in dreams visions and actual UFO sightings. By then I had drifted away from the “Black Arts” for they just seemed too severe and dangerous. I was however still using a lot of Psychedelics especially what some call “magic mushrooms” that greatly increased my contacts with what I started to call “The Grays”.
I tried to recall my memories of my “abductions” though hypnosis but I found the fear I would face was just too overwhelming! I got glimpses of insight into this phenomena but that was all it was. The Psychedelic trips were much more useful in breaking though the fear and I would quite often find myself in strange planets and even stranger ships. Yea, I know what you are thinking…how did I know the visions were not just hallucinations? The truth is there is no way to prove that they were... even though, my theory was that the drugs actually activated another dimension that made it possible for contact.
Even in saying all this, I still felt I was playing a cat and mouse game with something very allusive. Sometimes I would be the cat and sometimes I would be the mouse! Finally, one night I had enough. I was sitting on my bed reading one of Strieber’s books that only seem to trigger my frustration. So I scream out “if you are real I want you to prove it right now!” Suddenly the bed started shaking violently, which I thought was a strange way for a space extraterrestrial to act! Yea I was use to spirits doing this, but if these things were from another planet you think they would “beam me up” to their ship or something!
Well the only time something like that would happen was when I was in an altered state like a dream or a drug experience, nothing physical or “real time” stuff. So I started to say to myself “okay these jokers may be real, but they are not physical!” However, there are those who maintain they are physical and can react with us on a physical level. There have been claims of alien autopsies but none have been proven to be real! To get a clue on what is the truth behind these entities, we need to scrutinizes the “evidence” that has been supplied by those who have witnessed these critters in action.
How do they interact with humans and what seems to be their agenda? First off, they seem to have the ability to defy the laws of physics, like moving though walls for example. They got this “thing” about doing “experiments” some quite radical and cruel.
In fact, some of the indications given to us by the victims of these “aliens” are that some of these experiments seem more like torture! They can distort time and communicate on a physic level. They like to implant things into their subject’s bodies that seem to mysteriously disappear (at least most of the time).
They also appear to have a perverse sexual obsession with both males and females and part of their motives has a strong suggestion of an interbreeding “campaign.” Besides all this, they have been said to be propagating certain ideas or philosophies. My friend Magnolia does a fantastic job of going into details on such things in her hubs on the subject. Here is one of her links…demhttp://hubpages.com/_3tdy19xzvho1v/hub/How-To-Stop-Alien-Abductionsons .
My mission is to supply a theory that I have come to believe answers the mystery on why theses beings behave the way they do. It comes from the fact that for a great part of my life I have been obsessed with the study and applications of “altered states of consciousness.” I am convinced that most of the methods these demons use are to manipulate humans on both a conscious and subconscious planes.
Look at the fact that much of the time hypnosis is used to recall the memories of the abductees. Also, though out time people have used trances to summon spirits. I am convinced that what these fallen angles are doing is creating such absurd activities on a subconscious reality that it will “bleed-though” to the conscious mind! They are branding and conditioning people for the final deception!
After all, we live in a world were we are bombarded by “hypnotic suggestions”. Subliminal messages are even within our advertising and the repetition that is prevalent in commercials and popular music could be look at as a form of mental conditioning.
There is by the way, times that these fallen angles can take physical form, just like Heaven’s angles have been said to do. Just because I have not seen one in solid form does not mean they do not have the capability to become solid. I have met people who have claimed they have seen physical aliens or demons but they could not prove it.
After I finished writing this commentary, I had a dream that I was being chased by some very sinister looking people that I figured out must be demons. I then realized that I was carrying the head one of “the grays!” I thought to myself that these demons were chasing me because they knew that I could prove there existence, then a voice in my head said “no, they are chasing you because you know that ‘the grays’ are an illusion!” It was then that I realized that the head was made of paper! The voice in my head then informed me that I had to let go of the head! To me the message was clear; I need quite holding on to things that I knew were false! So that is why I plan to step away form subjects of this nature and instead concentrate on things that are true! I will not dwell on the things of darkness but that which of the light.
In many ways this hub is yet another companion to my Luciferian Doctrine series for it had been claimed by some UFO buffs that a reptilian form of alien even has control of the Illuminati! The challenging thing to do is to separate the hype from the truth, for, as usually the case with things such as this, there is much hype. Now of course the pure skeptics are going to think that this all just a bunch of nonsense. To them all I can say is…”in the name of Jesus you will WAKE UP when I snap my fingers” (snap)!