Beneath the Fabric of Being
Beneath the Fabric of Being
By Tony DeLorger © 2011
When I was a child I was deeply affected by religion. It wasn’t so much the beliefs or rituals but that feeling of being connected on a spiritual level that seduced me. I always questioned everything, having an innate thirst for knowledge and especially about life, its origin and state of being. These conundrums were of course unanswerable and confusing to a child, but I would lie in bed looking up to the night sky, pondering the universe and everything. In the end, infinity scared me and I’d have to stop myself.
Religion as such, was not for me. At the age of twelve at a Christian youth group I was told by the minister after a simple request that dancing was not allowed because we weren’t thinking of God. That’s precisely where religion lost me, forever. At that ripe age I realised that religion was about men and power, certainly not about God. However, despite that event my spirituality grew with my years and I explored all related beliefs and ideologies.
For me, being a part of any group of like thinking seemed counterproductive and limiting in that what separates group in belief, tends to alienate, be judged right or wrong. My understanding was that any belief that was not open-minded was a dogma and therefore a limitation. In the end I decided to live with my own understandings and remain open to any new ideas. After all, there are no definitive answers to these questions of creation and life, and anyone who thinks they have a handle on it, is deluded.
Even though I rejected religion at such a young age, I held on to my spiritual leanings and formed my own moral compass and ideals with which to live my life. These ideals are akin to the religious ideals, but of course without all the detail and ritual that religions consider so important. This sense of morality and right-thinking has been partly because of my mother’s idea of morality and a sense of justice in life. This, along with my experiences, has created the groundwork of my understandings about people, life and how it ensues.
Spirituality has remained at the forefront of my consciousness and the feelings that so enticed me in youth still uplift me and guide me though my life. I have studied eastern religions and philosophies and have gained much knowledge about how we exist on different levels and how life, action and result manifest on the physical. Ideas like Karma and the power of thought always fascinated me and there was much to learn, and still is.
The mechanics of life and how we experience it in the physical world isn’t that difficult to understand if you can develop your intuition and be sensitive and honest with yourself. There cannot be a question without an answer and therefore what you need to know is accessible. The human mind is an endless machine capable of so much more than we are aware. Exploring this has been a lifelong quest for me, the revelations of which have changed my life and continue to do so. I don’t suggest this is your path, but the rewards of this thinking are obvious in the way we can live and enjoy our lives.