CONVERSATIONS with the GUY UPSTAIRS
Ever since I was a little boy, I had doubts about Creation. I mean, like you know, it says, let there be light? And then light comes on? And the world was created in seven days? It took me a month just to replace an actuator in my car, for crying out loud. I know for a fact that views are shaped by the environment, and my love for science when I was a young kid probably contributed to this non-believer opinion. I am not a hater, I want to make that clear. I was baptized, took First Communion, recited my marriage vows the Catholic way (although I never was a church-goer). In between these, I attended Baptist churches (the excursions were cool), let in Mormons and had debates with them, spent sleepless nights to wait for Simbang Gabi, and all that stuff yet I still am not satisfied, nor am I fully converted.
Ah religion...such a incendiary topic when a group of people discuss their beliefs. What do I believe in? I believe that there is inequality in the distribution of wealth. I believe that working in a faraway land is the way-to-go in order to sustain the needs of family here in this impoverished nation. I believe that the select few who are rich get richer at the expense of poor people. I believe those in power do not give a damn about the little guy, and when in elected office, they further enrich themselves using taxpayers money. I believe that moral corruption abounds in every corner of society.
So where is He in all of this? He moves in mysterious ways, they say...hey, why not strike down the corrupt Senate President and feed him to the dogs? Hey, why not hear my prayers for a more peaceful and prosperous life because I love my family very much? Hey why could you not extend a little sympathy to a guy who covers his head with his pillow every night so that his wife & child does not hear him cry?
So where are you in all of this? And please do not say that I carried you...because I have been in pain all of this life...
But the irony of it all...I want to believe...