Choosing to Stay
Near Death Experience
Recently, I read the book, “Dying To Be Me”, by Anita Moorjani. Anita was diagnosed with cancer and had nearly reached the end of her life. She had fallen into a coma, her organs were failing and her family was by her side. Anita describes what she experienced while moving beyond her physical body:
“The moment the oncologist saw me, her face visibly filled with shock. “Your wife’s heart may still be beating,” she told Danny, “but she’s not really in there. It’s too late to save her.” Who’s the doctor talking about? I wondered. I’ve never felt better in my life! And why do Mum and Danny look so frightened and worried? Mum, please don’t cry. What’s wrong? Are you crying because of me? Don’t cry! I’m fine-really, dear Mama, I am! I thought I was speaking these words aloud, buy nothing came out. I had no voice.”
Anita had the opportunity to see her father who had passed and share a mental conversation with him. Linear time no longer existed for past, present and future existed all at once. She describes herself as being “enveloped in a sea of unconditional love and acceptance.”
The fact that Anita still lives, is a miracle to say the least, and no doctor can give a medical explanation of why she survived. At an ethereal level, she made the choice to come back to her earthly body, fully understanding why she had cancer and with a new knowledge of the meaning of self love.
I will leave this book with one of Anita’s messages. “I had the choice to come back…or not. I chose to return when I realized that ‘heaven’ is a state, not a place…”
Recently, Newsweek’s cover read “HEAVEN IS REAL”. Dr. Eben Alexander, an academic neurosurgeon, teaching at Harvard, had an experience that changed his life during seven days in a coma in which the human part of his brain, the neocortex, was deactivated by bacteria that had attacked it. On the seventh day of his coma, as his doctors weighed whether to discontinue his treatment, his eyes popped open. His experience was not exactly like that of Anita, but he came away with this knowledge; “You are loved and cherished, dearly, forever. You have nothing to fear. There is nothing you can do wrong”. I would like to share part of my favorite paragraph in the Newsweek article … “Not only is the universe defined by unity, it is also-I now know- defined by love. The universe as I experienced it in my coma is-I have come to see with both shock and joy-the same one that both Einstein and Jesus were speaking of in their (very) different ways.”
In 2005, I was given the news that my breast cancer had returned and this time I was in stage three and they found it in twelve of my lymph nodes. After surgery; six weeks of radiation and four months of chemo were prescribed. I experienced sickness unlike anything I had ever known, but during my treatment, I also had a life altering experience similar to that of Anita and Dr. Alexander. While resting one afternoon, I closed my eyes to visualize myself healthy again. As I lay quietly, linear time ceased to exist, and I no longer experienced my sick, weak body. The only way I can describe what I felt is to say it felt as though I was a baby being cradled in the arms of God. It was the most protective, loving feeling imaginable. I wanted to remain in that sweet spot, for I was no longer sick and was being cared for by an awesome, loving presence. Then, I remember thinking that my niece and nephew were not ready to lose me and I needed to return for them. Immediately, I was back in my body and have never figured out how I got there in the first place, but it was a beautiful gift. My perspective on life and what we perceive as death will never be the same.
Dr. Alexander’s realization that the universe Jesus speaks of is the same one that Einstein explains is a realization I experienced as well. I am at peace knowing everything and everyone is part of a loving consciousness we are incapable of understanding, and being human is only a part of our magnificent journey.