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Church Shopping Hopping
How could something so Alive be so boring?
Why is it so hard to find a good church?
I am more than frustrated in trying to find a good church to call home.
I was raised Baptist but must admit I never had a personal relationship with Christ until I went to a Pentecostal Church. Maybe it was because I really was searching at the time but I'm telling you those Pentecostal’s really know how to worship. Most important I got filled with the Holy Spirit with the evidence of speaking in tongues. So why did I walk away? I mean there is nothing like being filled with the spirit to the point, as Jeremiah put it, "it's just like fire shut up in my bones!" You can't sit still, joy over flows and nothing else matters. I tell you it's the best 'high' anyone can ever experience and it's free for the asking.
So now I was a Pentecostal. I gladly gave up make-up and pants (most Pentecostals believe that donning pants equals taking on the look of a man (Deuteronomy 22:5)
I went to church morning, noon and night. I was caught up in the flow of the Holy Spirit and I have to admit this was one of the happiest times of my life. Pentecostal also take 'Come out from among them' 2 Corinthians 6: 17, literally. So it was a simple life compared to the pressure to achieve and success of my formal lifestyle.
I woke up one Sunday and didn't feel like going to church, then the next and the next. I felt soo guilty. But God was faithful and led me to a Charismatic (Christians who believe in gifts of the spirit) non-denominational church close to my house. The women wore make-up and pants but you could feel the spirit freely moving.
There was not as much dancing and running through the aisles but the joy was overflowing. One evening service the entire congregation, choir and the pastor were all overcome with 'holy laughter'. I mean we literally could not stop laughing for over 30 minutes so the pastor dismissed us. I loved that place.
But once Pastor went on Tv , it grew to a mega-church and was never the same. There were cameras everywhere and we had assigned seating! One Sunday they locked the doors so people would not walk about while Pastor was 'on air'. My little girl had to use the restroom. It was not pretty.
So although the Pentecostals taught me how to get in touch with the Holy Spirit inside of me, something some Christians never learn to seek because they don't know there is such a depth, and my first non-denominational church taught me that you could have the Holy Spirit experience without legalism, I eventually walked away from both because they with all their spiritual knowledge they did not know how to end a service in less than 3 hours.
A few churches and TV preachers later here I am at, believe it or not, a Lutheran Church, and I am bored out of my skull!!
These people don't clap when the Word is good, they don't sing, heck they barely smile!
The pastor seldom uses a text; the sermon is two dimensional;
A) Don't feel guilty 'cause God's grace covers all and B) Other denominations, especially the Catholic Church, which Luther railed against, are evil. These people are happy to just receive salvation in Christ and know they are going to heaven. They may never get to know Christ personally or the Holy Spirit inside. They seem to come to church to relieve their guilt.
*Sigh. So why do I stay? Can I be honest? Because I can drag the whole family there without much resistance because the services are short.
Yes I feel guilty as sin and wonder, will my family ever know the depth and joy of Jesus that I know. Will they ever be filled with the Holy Spirit? Or love to read their bibles? Dear God I can only hope so.