Daily Bible Devotional: Commentary on Psalm 139
Life starts at creation
Psalm 139:13 “For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb”
In the bible, God makes it clear that He has created us. In fact, He even planned us and has watched over us from the time we were conceived. Unfortunately, in our society, somehow this message has been lost. Over 3,700 babies are aborted every day (one baby every 24 seconds), and there are countless women that suffer and continue to suffer over the loss of their aborted babies.
I was one of those that felt guilt, having an abortion at the tender age of 15. Back in the seventies when I had the abortion, no one in my circle seemed to have a problem with me having one. In fact, many encouraged it. The only thing I can think of is that no one in my circle took into account Gods design of children and what He thought about unborn babies. I don’t fault those people, because I know they did not realize or understand the seriousness of what I was about to do.
Fast forward many years…after grieving for many years for what I had done, the funny thing was is that I still defended my pro-abortion position. I still believed that I had the “right” to do what I did and that other women had that “right” also. I still did not think of an unborn baby as a living created being. I think the real reason I was feeling guilty is because I felt bad about what I had done and somehow needed to justify my position. I wanted others to think it was OK too. Now as I look back, I realize how wrong my thinking was.
One day, about 20 plus years after I had the abortion, I was walking into our local fairground and there were people out there holding signs of unborn babies. It was at that moment that something profound happened. As I looked at the photo of the unborn fetus, sadness mixed with clarity gripped my heart. That photo could have been my baby. He looked perfect. All of his little arms and legs were balled up, and he had small perfect eyes, a nose and lips. He was perfectly formed!
My heart towards unborn children and abortion was changed from that moment on. I started to study the word of God and found out that not only had God planned each one of us, but that He made each one of us with our own unique fingerprints. Just think about that for a moment, that out of 7 billion people that populate the earth today, none of us even have the same fingerprint!
My grandson and I
God forgives us
It was after seeing that photo that I began to realize how much I needed forgiveness from God. That He did not want me to continue on feeling trapped in my guilt for what I had done. But, He also did not want me to condone abortion anymore. As God began to heal me, I stopped jumping on the abortion bandwagon. I started encouraging other pregnant women instead to think about their attitudes towards the unborn and too tell them that God loved their unborn babies too. And that God wanted to forgive them also for abortions that they had had. I never became one of the radical abortion protestors because I felt God only wanted me to share my story to reach out to others – not with violence but in love.
My youngest son is here because of my change of heart. Because I was going through a horrible divorce at the time I was pregnant, there were some people that encouraged me to abort my son. They did not see him as a precious gift from God, instead they thought of him as an “inconvenience” in my turbulent life at the time. I am so very glad that I knew Gods design for my son at that time. I knew that their attitude towards my unborn son were not right. I knew that no matter what, God would see me through and He did!
And I know that one day, I will be reunited with my first child. I still miss him to this day but I know that he is with God and that God has forgiven me for what I didn’t understand all those years ago.
Something to think about: Abortion is a politically charged topic, but how many of the pro-abortion protesters have actually had abortions? Isn’t it kind of wrong to tell people what should be OK when you haven’t even had your own experience with it? Especially something so personal as the life of your unborn child? If you are pregnant and reading this, think about what God has said regarding his children. And if you are reading this because you have had an abortion and feel sadness and guilt because of it, remember that God loves you and will forgive you if you just ask. God is not in the business to condemn us, but to love us and teach us through His words.
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