A double minded man is unstable in all his ways. James 1:8
As of late this is how I've been feeling, double minded. I had a very, very bad day at work last week and ended up losing my patience with a patient. I work in a clinic and am usually very compassionate. I usually tell people I will pray for them and if they are sad I feel their pain and cry. It's like I have two extremes sometimes. I know sometimes we all lose our patience and re-act to the way people act or what they say. However, this is really bothering me.
I later called the patient at home to apologize. He said I wasn't brought up right. I also called my supervisor to let her know what happen. I thought I might be fired. I wasn't fired but my boss was quite shocked for me calling an elderly patient rude. She had seen the way I was with patients in the past. The man also complained to the clinic supervisor where the lab is located.
I worked hard at this job and had to learn a lot, so even though I was thinking of quitting but I am deciding to stick with it. I am shy to know that by now all the clinic staff and doctors of the clinic have learned of what happen.
Of course, when we lose or patience with someone there are always other factors that lead up to it. I hadn't slept much the night before. We were extremely busy that day. I had a few on going stresses or worries that was plaguing my mind. And this patient was rude to me on two other accounts before this day.
Sometimes I feel like I am bi-polar I have many of the symptoms and sometimes I don't feel very Christian like. I know God forgives us when we ask for it, but sometimes I feel like a hypocrite. I wrote a hub a few months ago about a soft answer turns away wrath and here I was re-acting to an elderly man's rudeness. I also wrote a hub about not worrying. I must go back and read these hubs.
Mostly, I would like to not work and just stay home, even though I am sure I would get very bored. Maybe I could work from home. I don't know but please pray for me fellow Christian hubbers. Pray that God will show me his will and give me extra patience.
- A soft answer
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