Falling in Love with a Chaos Magician: A 3.5 Year Whirlwind Affair of the Heart and Soul: Part 5
Meeting a Sikkubus
Chris and I were madly in love from the beginning. We exchanged pendants with one another. You see, Chris was Canadian and I was American. Our chance to be together was quite minimal. Chris' pendant was a quartz crystal in the shape of a vampire tooth. My pendant was a heart with a gold beach and an ocean wave. The flip side was the poem "Footprints."
The pendant from Chris had a spirit being attached to it. Her name was Amnia and she was a sikkubus (succubus). It would be awhile before I would actually experience Amnia. I was hospitalized the first time I connected to her. She appeared in my mind, energy bodies, and general vicinity. I knew her as a blond woman who was a patient at the psychiatric hospital. She merged with the personality of the patient named Pepe.
I always felt a symbiotic relationship with Amnia. I felt absolutely no threat. Chris inferred that Amnia was born in antiquity as a part of the cult of Dionysus. Again, this was all just so bizarre to contemplate. I never considered it really. But I did know that Amnia was of another realm. That I could admit.
Because I believe in One Love, I believe all of creation has a good and loving purpose. It did not matter if I could not figure it out. In the end, I feel that Amnia siphoned off energy from my system. I call this symbiotic because she was assisting me. She took the excess energy in my bodymind and she reduced my energetic system to a tolerable level.