For God Has Not Given Us A Spirit of Fear…
“Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.”Jos1:9
I was nervous. I may have slept a total of two hours the night before. Surgery is a scary thing, especially surgery that involves cutting into one’s spinal cord and manipulating the delicate nerve roots within. One false move could mean paralysis. Even if the surgery were successful, what would my live be like afterwards? I searched the medical websites to research the procedure (good move) and read message boards to gauge how others managed post-surgery (bad idea). I prayed for God to touch the hearts and guide the hands of the surgeon and nurses attending to me.
As I reclined in bed being prepared for the procedure, each person involved in the process stopped by to explain their roles. There was the nice recovery nurse who laughed and joked with me as she inserted the IV needed and took my vitals. There was her assistant, a respectful young man who gently put on the T.E.D. hose to help prevent blood clots from forming. There was also the kind young woman who explained what an EMG was and why she would be monitoring me. Next was the big burly guy with a smile and a twinkle in his eye. He was my OR nurse and when he said I would be fine, he gave me no choice but to believe him! The anesthesiologists were next and, lastly, my surgeon himself paid a visit to reassure me that everything would be OK. By the time the relaxing agent was administered into my IV, I felt better about the procedure and confident that the outcome would be positive.
I was also grateful for my Lord and Savior, a loving Father Who answers prayers and calms His fretting daughter.