From Christian Missionary to Consecrated, Syncretic Priestess of Isis
Dieties: God's emissaries
As a former Christian of 34 years and a one time missionary to Hong Kong, I found the Biblical reference from God that He was a jealous God very unusual and very telling. To me the mysteries of Source have rarely been touched upon in the Church that claims to represent Christ Jesus and the Holy masculine-based Trinity. In fact, the entire Old Testament is fascinating to me. In fact, years ago after breaking up with the love of my life who I met in the dark night of my soul and was a Chaos Magician, I began looking at the forbidden aspects of Protestant Scripture. And I targeted the God pronounced most wise man of the Old Testament: King Solomon. Well Solomon is now known in various non-Jewish and non-Christian circles as a Master Magician.
When I was growing up, my impression of deities were that they were not real in any way. This is not so. They exist today as they once did in the ancient cultures and they still do in indigenous peoples. There form is most likely different. I tend to think of them as collective energies that have a spirit and a persona. I learned this as I explored the ascended masters and the astral plane---as I delved deeply into the forbidden that my ex-boyfriend gave me a taste for. Because the forbidden fruit has always provided knowledge and that is decadent to me.
I am syncretic which means I blend belief systems. Christ is still my center and His embodiment of perfect, unconditional love is my daily focus but I am estranged from my foundational religion, Christianity, that I now see as a bastardized version of Jesus' message and heart. Christianity was created by Constantine the Great around 300 A.D. Most Christians scarcely know their own Church history. They only know Church doctrine and dogma.
I am a practitioner of One Love. I believe deities are God's divinely appointed governers as well as humanity's first major spiritual teachers within the Illusion known as Maya. Maya enables humanity to individuate and then reunite with their true awareness and reality of being entities of perfect LOVE. From my perspective, life is about reawakening to the greater truth that we are never separate from our Source. We are always one...infinitely with the Divine.
So are the emissaries and the angels and the spirit guides and every entity that exists as creation.
Many of the world religions allude to this. I subscribe to the Creator known as Source. I, also, subscribe to the feminine form of source called the Goddess. And I subscribe to any and every deity that calls my name and draws me into their existence. Isis called to me through the magick that I fell in love with while I sought to rekindle the eternal flame with my twin soul who left me so that I might individuate as fully as humanly possible. So that I might heal.
Isis: Goddess of Magick, Motherhood and Eternal Love
I am a child of God and Goddess. I accepted Christ in a childhood epiphany at the age of six. I accepted Isis as a woman of 37; but I knew her as a child also---from a Saturday morning show that "innocently" projected ideas of the ancient ways of the forgotten Egypt.
Isis seduced me on March 5, 2006 when I meditated in hopes of celebrating the Festival Isis that I read about on the Internet. I didn't know much about magick---only remnants that my former lover earnestly taught me day by day for 3.5 years. I was just trying what I felt might be magick. I now know this is when magick is born...through creativity and intution. I arranged to meditate and then I was hoping for a magickal, celebratory massage at the adjacent spa. All these were hopes, wishes really. I wanted to find the magick I had been seeking for a year---seeking the way I sought God as Christian.
My expectations were met boldly. I would meet the first person that I felt and knew came from another lifetime with me. He was my therapist that night and I felt his energy instantly. It felt like a huge dose of Bounce was needed to break the static cling between us; and then he said the magic words: Can I connect with your highest self? These were words I had dreamed of for over a year before I heard them spoken.
The session was magickal. I had not closed down my meditation before I went to the spa. I didn't know I should or I needed to. I was psychically wide open and I was out of body the entire session. It was fabulous for my mind but weird for him. It would be a week before a psychic revealed his name as she explored my incarnational history. And the most amazing journey commenced between he and I. Cosmic experiences occurred regularly. It was him that helped fill in the gaps to all my ex-boyfriends mysterious and cryptic teachings. But more importantly, Isis became very real to me that night and over the next eight years, I would grow into her loving, mystical care. She is my divine guru. She is my heart's consort.
Who Isis IS...
Isis is the Goddess of 10,000 names. She is the archetype for the Divine Feminine. She is the aspect of Source that fulfills the wholeness of humanity. She precedes the idea of original sin through Judaica. She is Mother, Magician and Eternal Love that resurrects her husband/brother, Osiris, as their son Horus.
Isis provides the Divine magick of profound sorrow since her brother, Seth, killed Osiris (also his brother) and strewn his body parts across the bank of the river Nile. Isis' sorrow resurrected Osiris through the sorrow which was filled with love. Love is the most high vibrating energy on the earth plane. It literally heals energetically which transforms disease, illness and wounds in today's present time. Isis showed her people how to heal through love and that knowledge spread throughout time-space. She collected Osiris' pieces except she could not find the phallus. Thus the sexual relationship ended and father became son. The phallus is an important element in Osiris magick which is about disembodiment and resurrection as well as reconciliation.
Isis is the divine Mother of her people and any person who aligns him/herself with the energy of the Goddess. she is eternal love and Osiris and Horus are her twin soul.
Learning to trust in the Goddess and Abandon the limited ideas of Constantine
It was a long relationship construction with Isis. I was a die-hard Christian when I met my ex-boyfriend the Chaos Magician. But my soul's dark night of three years and my love for the fascinating man consumed me and alchemized my existence. I became a very real extension of my ex. And my curiosity grew and my spirit waned in desperation for the virtual loveless feeling Christianity which just sunk my old beliefs. Day after day I became enthralled with theconcepts my ex would introduce me to.
But one day about 3-4 years into Isis development I had to truly make a choice to believe in her squarely and dynamically---personally. This was the point of no return, and seven years in, I became a consecrated priestess. This past March, I conducted Osiris magick and it was beyond powerful. Isis guides me regularly now.
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Connections, healings and blessings Part 2
Connections, healings, blessings Part 3
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