God Has Control
"There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able;
but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it." - 1 Corinthians 10:13
But still I was desesperate. I couldn't see the purpose in life any longer and it would grieve me. I just couldn't hold on any longer... I prayed and prayed,
but the demons would block my spiritual sight. I just couldn't get closer to God.
Until I said "I can't live any longer like this... I called my pastor that once preached to us 7 years ago (it's 2011). He was too far
from us and indicated me to go to visit another church closer too me. So I went to him and he prayed for me. Once again I felt the evil spirit leave, and I
thought "Maybe this is it!".. But I was wrong.. A few days later the same spirit came to torment me and I was weak. It somehow opened my heart and dwell in.