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Growing Up With Jesus

Updated on January 11, 2017
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Growing Up

He was always there.

I only realized that today speaking with a friend who is going through so much with health and family problems just as I have. You know, things you just don’t even tell your friends, and certainly don’t get online and talk about.

She was my sister’s best friend but just kind of got adopted by the whole family. She would eat my meatless vegetable soup mom sometimes let me make and Moms cold biscuits left over from morning. Those which none of us would touch so she must have been saving them for this friend; her new daughter who loved them so much. Well I loved my soup but not those cold biscuits. The rest of us had so many biscuits we weren’t about to eat them cold. The microwave had never been even dreamed of yet I am sure.

When I learned of all this friend’s health and family problems I felt so awful. With all the complaining I had done to her and my aunt, Moms only surviving sister.

Really being here talking about the fun times in my life has been the best medicine I have had in years. I had to write and talk about the Alzheimer’s and bad treatment these people get, Mom being one of them is why I came to writing but they are so very hard to write and relive I never go back to look at them, but the fun ones remembering all the fun times and years of my life have brought me alive again. Without being rich or special I have some of the most wonderful memories.

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Trouble Praying

I tried to tell this friend what I do when life gets so bad I just cannot pray; I do as Jesus says and say the Lord’s Prayer and tell God the Father this is what your Son told me to say and that You would hear, know my need and send my answer; and I remind Him that one thing I know is His Son is no liar and these are His words; I am merely sending back to merciful God the father, in Jesus’ holy name, Amen (so be it).

Now maybe God won’t work it out just like I think He should, but just handing it over trusting He has to do what His Son said He would, unloads the burden from me and I readily admit it is a fight and I know other Christians have an easier time with this than me and I wish I could be stronger, but so far I am still here and passing the burden does get easier the older I get. I am sure we all get at points in our life we do not have words and so I shared this with this friend in case she was at that point, feeling possibly she was.

Big prayers don’t bring answers any better or quicker. I do have to say though when I say the Lord’s Prayer I whisper it at least because of what God said about someone praying in their closet and I think this was meaning to not show off with your prayers in public making you look good instead of God, but somehow that told me it might be important to at least voice prayers to Him so I always did, well mostly anyway, even if no sound came as a child I told myself he could read my lips if nothing else.

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At Peace With My Soul

I was saved when I was around eleven and I talked to Jesus all the time in my mind. Like many kids have pretend friends, Jesus was my private friend but I knew he was real. I talked to him about silly things at first of course because I was silly and young. Thinking and talking as a child. I never talked to him out loud, probably because I never had a minute alone without a brother (having four younger ones). He just lived within me and as I made plans for my life I shared them with him, everyone of them.

It was sort of like saying, Jesus, this is how I want it to be. I don’t want no bunch of kids like my mommy had. Because besides my brothers I got stuck with every relatives child that came to visit. I had been taking care of babies since I was five years old at least. I was just tired of it. I really only wanted two but since I had always wanted a sister near my age it would only be fair to have a brother for the boy my husband would want, if I had a sister for my girl.

Even with so many brothers I was lonesome a lot from a young age up until my teens anyway. Jesus was the only all the time friend I had. I was an in between child and changing to a woman I guess and I was really neither. I got mad at Mom sometimes because my sister always had so much freedom and I had so little but then I reminded myself, if it wasn’t Jesus reminding me, that I had all that magical time at the lake because of being sent my sister's chaperone.

Mom really had a lot to do, even with my help and she was a wife who did her husband’s bidding. She worked from daylight until dark and was always happy, how could that be? Really when I thought of marriage and kids I never had a husband enter my mind. But I knew you had to have one. I would sometimes ask Jesus to give me a sneak peek into my future. But he never would. I wanted to be rich and buy Mom just everything she ever wanted. I told Jesus about that too. Well I didn’t get to do that. Although I always bought her things to make her happy and keep her warm. I did give her a loving patient daughter to help her up in life as far as possible.

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I have often wondered if it is really talking to Jesus if it isn’t said out loud. But then I thought of what the bible says... that thinking sin is the same as doing it. So surely Jesus would listen to good things thought and good plans, too. I know He helped me when I wanted so bad to beat up my brothers. When they were so mean to me and when I would tell Mom she would only laugh.

As I got older I probably didn’t tell Jesus so much anymore. I had friends and kind of just let Jesus go with me without thinking about Him so much. Life was full of fun and later life handed me some really tough problems but I never let Him go. I knew I could never make it without Him and I have figured out by now He knew without me telling Him. That in fact my plans meant nothing, what would be would be. But he would be there to help me through and indeed He was… so many times.

I cannot wait for spring coming soon when He will show me all His beauty He brought me to. Beauty I asked for when I was thirteen, the first time going through and seeing where I now live. It was a long wait. I am sure I was convinced at some point I would never get here; that He had not felt my heart beg to be here but now I have been here many years. Enjoying walks seeing all He has made that comes back every year. More beautiful than the year before.

When I take Him with me on that first beautiful spring walk I will thank Him again. I will ask for Him to please be with me to grow old too. To never let me forget no matter what happens. He will stay right where He is, inside my heart. To take me to what eye has not seen, nor ear heard. The place He has prepared for me. You see, He would never lie. My heart has always assured me of that.

What a Friend We Have in Jesus

Make Time for Jesus

Our days are numbered and don't we act as if it isn’t true?

What makes us rush about like there is no tomorrow?

In a hurry to live all the life we can, to get things done.

We only stop very briefly even in our times of sorrow.


In our hurry we must make sure nothing is forgotten.

Having this schedule to meet and quickly get it done.

Then if we hurry just a little more we can add some too,

Quickly now if we don’t hurry the day will soon be gone.


So we feel so breathless always on this fast paced run,

Believing there is not a minute to stop soon and breathe.

There is really no time to sit about as if all where done,

Let’s not forget to grab that long list to do before we leave.


While we are out; there are so very many stops to make,

So many things needed; we could never remember it all.

Then we jot it down and cling to the list to not forget,

Believing no way the many things to do we could recall.


With all this rush do we never stop to think about life?

How we rush right through and really miss almost all.

Too busy to know what life is really all about for us,

All leading to the eternity; for which each of us has a call.


Working hard to have all we can on earth never to enjoy.

Believing there’s no time except to strive for material things.

Somehow we compete to not let anyone outdo us for sure,

Believing life is all about cars, houses and golden rings.


Even our family it seems has no time to sit and talk of love,

Or kneel together; giving thanks to merely have each other.

Look at what life is really about for friends, family and God,

Who gave us these wonderful children, our father and mother.


Love for others is all we need for our great happiness.

Joy comes not from riches of material things we are told.

It comes from a desire of helping ones around us in need.

Our Father in heaven will reward us with streets of gold.


Scriptures say that Jesus has gone to our home, I do believe.

I believe as He said if it was not true He would have told us so.

He loves us, I feel that love and that is why I love Him so much .

Only our hearts can see this place; we who love Him, soon will go.


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    Eric Dierker 3 months ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

    A very nice read. I just have to empathize and guess what it is like without Christ our Lord. I ask my converted wife what it was like and she explains that you cannot miss what you have never had. Interesting stuff.

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    Jackie Lynnley 3 months ago from The Beautiful South

    Thank you Eric, and I am certainly glad she has found Him now. I cannot imagine it either. I would see suicide in many lives without Him and the hope we have in Him. How could we get through?

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    Eric Dierker 3 months ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

    I do not care for those who push for conversion. And I have no gift in that area. Sometimes I wish I did. I rejoice at just one finding Christ. I am glad I followed here for it is good to further reflect on this to start my day. Thank you.

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    Jay C OBrien 3 months ago from Houston, TX USA

    I grew up with a mother who was a spiritualist and a brother who was agnostic. My brother was mentally ill (paranoid schizophrenia). My mother divorced my father when I was about three months old due to my father's schizophrenia. My mother got little income from the divorce because she shared my father's lawyer. My father was an atheist. I have always wondered why God makes people mentally ill from birth. Do you know?

    I accept Jesus as my Savior due to his teachings of love, acceptance (non-condemning) and forgiveness. Jesus taught that God does not condemn at all. All condemnation comes from ourselves. Condemnation is a Projection of self. I forgave my abusive older brother because he is mentally ill and cannot help it.

    My mother remarried a man, Jim, who suffered from PTSD from the Korean action. My mother finally divorced him because he abused her and me. I came to realize Jim suffered more than we did because he suffered all the time. That is how I came to forgive him. Learn what Jesus taught and apply it.

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    Bill Holland 3 months ago from Olympia, WA

    It's always wonderful to read your thoughts, Jackie. Thank you for sharing them. Personally, I don't ask Jesus for anything for myself. I figure He's got enough to do taking care of people who have real problems.

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    MizBejabbers 3 months ago

    Thank you for your thoughts, Jackie. It is difficult for me to describe how I feel about Jesus because I open myself up to doubt and ridicule from those who don't understand the idea that one can be born already with Jesus and don't have to "find him". I prefer to think a person has "awakened" to a spirit who is always been there for him or her. He has never left humanity, you know. Some humans turned their backs on him, but he has never given up on us. Love the poem.

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    Dora Isaac Weithers 3 months ago from The Caribbean

    Jackie, this article reveals so much about you--your faith, your love for Jesus and your desire to share Him with others. You're a blessing and a bright light. You encourage me.

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    Jackie Lynnley 3 months ago from The Beautiful South

    Thanks MizB, I guess I think we must all accept Him (and confess Him) but we are the lucky ones who know Him from birth... for sure.

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    Jackie Lynnley 3 months ago from The Beautiful South

    Maybe I see what you mean Eric. I simply confess what He has been to me and do think pushing could be the wrong way to win souls but I do think the bible speaks of sowing our seed and hopefully others can have what we have if it looks good enough.

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    Jackie Lynnley 3 months ago from The Beautiful South

    Bill, Jesus loves us and of course He is not there to give us all our worldly wants...just our earthly needs.

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    Jackie Lynnley 3 months ago from The Beautiful South

    Jay, I would say you hear the Holy Spirit and He has shown you what you could not otherwise see. Forgiveness is a must and to put ourselves in others shoes is so important in learning to love. I learned to do this in my twenties and am so thankful. Life can hurt us so bad unless we have eyes to see and ears to hear. God has blessed you for being obedient and may He go on doing so.

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    Jackie Lynnley 3 months ago from The Beautiful South

    That is such a heartwarming thing to say Dora. You have been a blessing to me, also and I love sharing the love we do for our Savior.

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    Faith Reaper 3 months ago from southern USA

    Jackie, Thank you for sharing of your precious relationship with Jesus. This is such a beautiful testament from your heart of knowing Jesus for a lifetime! What a great gift of love He has given us that we can call upon Him at any time in our time of trouble or just talk to Him like a best friend for He is our best friend.

    What is so sweet is that when we are not able to utter a single word in prayer to Him, He knows us so well, that He understands our groans and knows exactly what is on our hearts. We do not have to say any words out loud for He knows our every thought.

    In reading here, I am reminded of that old song, "What a Friend We have in Jesus." So true!

    I, too, as a child knew He was right there with me, and that He would never leave me nor forsake me.

    I love your poem. I especially love the stanza,

    Love for others is all we need for our great happiness.

    Joy comes not from riches of material things we are told.

    It comes from a desire of helping ones around us in need.

    Our Father in heaven will reward us with streets of gold.

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    Faith Reaper 3 months ago from southern USA

    Oops, Jackie, I just left a long comment on this beautiful and special hub, and it went away ... I wasn't finished editing it but didn't want it to go away so I posted it, and it went away.

    I'm running out the door to work, so I will return tonight and leave another one. You may have written that poem for me!

    And, yes, I do know Jesus as my Lord and Savior!

    Love you, dear Sister in Christ!

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    Jackie Lynnley 3 months ago from The Beautiful South

    Strange Theresa, I had to say it was not spam to approve it. I don't have it set to need approving to show up. Crazy things just happen sometimes but glad it made it through and you don't have to redo that. That has happened to me several times lately and I end up just making shorter replies. Guess we should make a habit of copying before we post?

    Glad you enjoyed this. I had this at the site I got kicked out of for talking about Jesus. (Or preaching, lol.) I know you are like me and know just how important Jesus is not only as a friend and to help get us through life but seriously being our only means of salvation and everlasting life. I know many do not understand that or take it serious enough.

    We both are very blessed it comes so easily to us to love and trust Him.

    Yes a great song and so true. What a friend we have in Jesus. I will add that. Thanks!

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    Faith Reaper 3 months ago from southern USA

    Hi Jackie,

    Glad to see my comment went through via spam lol ...probably was too long is why.

    Oh, I don't like censorship as far as our faith goes especially, which is why I thought the site was created to be free to write whatever was on one's heart...

    I'm so thrilled you added that song, and I especially love Alan Jackson's version of it!

    Came back to share but I see the HP share button is gone, and I don't know what that Flipboard is about, so I guess I will pin it. Wonder why they removed the G+ share too?

    Yes, indeed, He loves us all so much that He placed himself on that cross.

    Hugs

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    Venkatachari M 3 months ago from Hyderabad, India

    Very nice hub, Jackie. I am very glad to read this hub, as it reflects my thoughts also in His company. Thanks for sharing this beautiful article. I am sharing it on Facebook and G+ also.

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    Jackie Lynnley 3 months ago from The Beautiful South

    He sure did Theresa and it was not an easy thing to do because He was God for He had also become son of man and our studies show it was not an easy thing to do (He sweat blood in anticipation of what must be done) but as always he shows us what we can do also when need be and too that it is alright and normal to have a hard time in our push to do the right thing. It does not give us cause to give up and say we just can't do it as I have seen in close friends and family. We have to realize we do not have to be good enough and could not if we tried. Jesus has done it for us and He was the only one who could!

    Thanks for stopping back back.

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    Jackie Lynnley 3 months ago from The Beautiful South

    Ventakachari - The shares are so appreciated, especially as there is always the possibility to reach someone when we least expect it. We plant our seeds and that is all we can do.

    I am pleased to hear your experience with Jesus has been much like mine but not really surprised since he is the same, yesterday, today and forever and we see Him as He is. Love affects us all much the same and our saviors love is so gentle and sweet and patient...amen.

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    William Kovacic 3 months ago from Pleasant Gap, PA

    Some wonderful thoughts, Jackie. It was a joy to read even if I'm late!

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    Jackie Lynnley 3 months ago from The Beautiful South

    Thanks Bill, no problem and I am sure you have read it before somewhere else! I haven't forgotten about you either, you just keep them coming out so fast! Well fast to this busy old lady!

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    Nell Rose 2 months ago from England

    Great read Jackie, and love your thoughts. I tend to chat to G-d at times during the day, not sure if He hears me or not! lol! love the poem too.

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    Eric Dierker 2 months ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

    Jackie I stayed following this. It just hit me that my children and my youngest now 7 may know Jesus more than me as I have all this intellectual stuff. Thanks for the reminder of humility.

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    Jackie Lynnley 2 months ago from The Beautiful South

    Sure He hears you Nell and when an answer comes from those chats that make perfect sense you are hearing from Him.

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    Jackie Lynnley 2 months ago from The Beautiful South

    They just may Eric. From the heart in trust and faith and what did Jesus Himself say about coming to him as these little ones?

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    wba108@yahoo.com 2 months ago from upstate, NY

    Thanks for sharing your heart and expressing it so nicely. If we don't take the time to be with Jesus, we really have nothing to offer anyway. It's a tragedy to chase the good and miss the best. We we're created for relationship with Jesus, nothing can replace that! God Bless!

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    Jackie Lynnley 2 months ago from The Beautiful South

    wba; thanks for stopping by to comment. You are so right and even I will admit I never feel I have done it right (well I now I have not) I still cannot imagine what or if I would have been without Jesus to fall back on.

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    Patricia Scott 2 months ago from sunny Florida

    you are so right, Jackie....He may not handle it the way we would desire but just being able to turn it over to him makes so much difference. So blessed to have God in my life....with Him, all things are possible.

    Angels are headed your way this morning ps

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    Jackie Lynnley 2 months ago from The Beautiful South

    Thank you ps and may angels be watching over you always.

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    Patricia Scott 2 months ago from sunny Florida

    Back again...this struck a special chord with me...and continues to reverberate.

    God knows what he has in store for our lives....how thankful I am for that....thank you once again for taking the time to compose this meaningful hub.

    Angels once again are on the way ps_

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    Jackie Lynnley 2 months ago from The Beautiful South

    Thank you ps, I pray all is well with you and Jesus I know has His arms around you.

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    Martie Coetser 8 weeks ago from South Africa

    Oh, how I love the song "What a Friend We Have in Jesus"!

    Beautiful poem!

    Only those who pray know the power of prayers.

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    Jackie Lynnley 8 weeks ago from The Beautiful South

    Thanks Martie. Others prayers have blessed me many times. I pray mine for others does the same!

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    Rolly A Chabot 3 weeks ago from Alberta Canada

    Hi Jackie... beautifully penned and certainly such a great message about prayer. It has become such a huge part of my life. I know losing people. Parents and those who were mentors teach us so much and I am thankful we were a church going family. As you have reflected we as children prayed about anything. As we have gotten older we fail sometimes to talk to God about what now seems trivial. He has heard through it all Jackie...

    Hugs

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    Jay C OBrien 3 weeks ago from Houston, TX USA

    From earlier post:

    "I have always wondered why God makes people mentally ill from birth. Do you know?"

    Just following up, any insights?

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    Linda Rogers 2 weeks ago from Minnesota

    Thank you so much for sharing your personal experience and relationship with our Lord. I am so glad you knew to talk to him throughout the years. You are such a beautiful child of God and I thank you for being you.

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    Jackie Lynnley 8 days ago from The Beautiful South

    Jay, God makes no one imperfect I do not believe and everyone has a means of healing or dealing with their thorn in the side. Look at Moses...and many others who made it through life with God by their sides.

    Some questions I think we just will not have answered in this life...accept to accept and make the best through our love for Christ and knowing His love for us.

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    Jackie Lynnley 8 days ago from The Beautiful South

    Thank you Linda. I so hope we are sister's in Christ.

    I was so lucky to be taught Jesus from birth and I think more will always be expected of me for that.

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