Ha-yom yom huledet to me! Today is my Born Day!
Yom Reeshone sameach!! Happy First Day!! Or, Sunday, if you so prefer. It can sometimes be a bit confusing and/or overwhelming to switch from today’s traditional Gregorian calendar to the Hebrew calendar; but, it’s all good!! The weather is going to be cold outside for about a week, give or take, and that’s okay as well. “And we know that all matters work together for good to those who love Elohim, to those who are called according to His purpose.” (Romiyim (Romans) 8:28.
What a beautiful thought to carry into the devotion this morning … all matters working according to His purpose. HalelYAH!!
Who am I?
I am not going to make any bones about anything today; it is my birthday!! Ha-yom yom huledet to me!! As December came upon us last year- Ha! That [almost] sounds funny or weird -I started to contemplate January, well, because it’s my born month. Let’s face it, folks, we aren’t getting any younger, and as someone, me, gets yet another year older, I start to really contemplate life and death and everything in between.
I was no different than other kids when my birthday rolled around each year, I was filled with excitement for the gifts and the birthday dinner and the cake! Oh, the cake!! All things chocolate for me all the time, every year. Chocolate, chocolate, chocolate!! I’m a bit older today, and my focus has gone from gifts and cakes to my purpose in life, to those things that matter in my life, to how my life has changed from my born day till now.
I was born on a Thursday, January 14, 1971, at 4:29 a.m. On my born day, I was named Shirley Jean Lutz. In October 1974, I was given a second born day … my adoption … and I was named Shirley Jean Christine Hall. Over the years, I have added several more names to my name identity- Tilden, Parson, and Johnson. Who am I? Why was I? What was I born for? What is my purpose?
From the ages of four through 12, I thought my purpose was to be a People Pleaser.
From the ages of 12 through 18, I thought my purpose was to be used and abused.
From the ages of 18 through 23, I thought my purpose was to become a mom.
From the ages of 23 through 31, I thought my purpose was to learn how to please my husband.
From the ages of 31 through 40, I thought my purpose was to be tested and tried beyond my limitations so the world around me could see me fail.
In August of 2012, Mark and I were given a set of keys that lock and unlock the doors to our very own home. For me, this was stability for the first time in 22 years. I was able to stop. I was able to close the door on the chaos that seemed to be my best friend for all those years. I was to step back and look at what I had done for 40 years, and what I saw was not something I could ever be proud of. Oh, to be sure, there were moments of gladness, happiness, joy, and laughter. There were moments that I could see the silver lining or the light at the end of the tunnel. There were moments when YeHoVaH’s glory was all around me, even when I wasn’t looking for it. But, now, on this day in August 2012, I could see a purpose and I became to know that I knew that I knew. A huge bonus … many of my familial relationships have become mended and restored … many.
I am His!
Tehillim (Psalms) 139:40 says, “I give thanks to You, for I am awesomely and wondrously made! Wondrous are Your works! And my being knows it well.”
The number one thing I finally realized, though my soul already knew, is that I am YeHoVaH’s. From time before time, I was YeHoVaH’s!! At the moment Yeshua gave His life for all mankind, I was YeHoVaH’s!! At the time of my conception, I was YeHoVaH’s!! At the time of my adoption, I was YeHoVaH’s!! Through all the pain and suffering, whether endured by me or perpetrated by me, I was YeHoVaH’s!! Today, I am YeHoVaH’s!! I!! Am!! YeHoVaH’s!!
But, it goes beyond even acknowledging and recognizing that I am YeHoVaH’s. It’s all seeing how the reflections I ponder about myself and my life overflow into an awesome praise of YeHoVaH!! The human machine, one of which I am, is a truly marvelous, miraculous, wonderful machine, with all its complexities and intricacies. Sometimes this fact is so wonderful that I cannot even wrap my mind around it. How can I not praise YeHoVaH Who so awesomely and wondrously created me!? (rhetorical question)
I pray and hope, and, as hope equals expectation, I expect that all of you will have a super fantabulous day!! I know I will, and not because it’s my birthday, though that is one reason; but, because I am YeHoVaH’s!! I am His child!! I am His daughter!! I am His heir!! I am His!! I am YeHoVaH’s!!
Tehillim 40:5--”O YeHoVaH my Elohim, many are the wonders which You have done and Your purposes toward us; there is no one to compare with You; I declare and Speak: they are too many to be numbered.”
Hazon (Revelation) 15:3--”And they sing the song of Mosheh the servant of Elohim, and the song of the Lamb, saying, “Great and marvelous are Your works, YeHoVaH EL Shaddai! Righteous and true are Your ways, O Sovereign of the set-apart!”