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Healing From Child Abuse - Set Free

Updated on September 14, 2012

Part 5 of 5

© Copyright 2012 by Gloria Tanner

I had faced the truth of my abuse; felt the pain of its reality; worked through my anger; and felt the depths of God's love. I now had no excuse to stay in the confines of self-contempt and shame. These were the walls I had built to keep people and God from getting too close to my heart.

It wasn't easy. I was fighting God to hang on to the smelly stinking garbage in my life. We have a tendency to stay with what we know, even when it isn't good. The fear of the unknown can be a strong deterrent that keeps us from moving forward. God said, "Give me everything, and I will exchange it for something beautiful." My reply, "Oh, but God, this garbage is all I've ever known, it's what I'm comfortable with." Imagine this, God wanted to exchange my garbage for treasure, and I was fighting him to keep it.

I was sitting on a precipice, and I knew I needed to take that leap of faith in order to move forward on my journey.


Standing on the edge of the cliff.
No turning back to the forest of denial.
There's only one direction to go,
but fear keeps my feet planted on the ground.
I feel the wind gently blowing.
The Voice softly beckoning me to come.
The earth beneath my feet is crumbling.
I see the rocks as they go crashing down.
I frantically search for some other way out.
But the Voice is getting louder now,
and I begin to tremble.
What if I can't do it?
I never have before;
I could come crashing down like the rocks!
I know I've run out of excuses,
but I need time to gather courage.
I've got to know one thing deep in my soul,
and beyond a shadow of a doubt.
Can I know for sure?
I just need to......
The Voice is loud and clear now
Fly, go ahead and fly.
Just take one more step,
and give me all that you are
so I can make you all you can be.
And in the midst of your flight do not fear.
For you will be safe in the shadow of my wing.

I has been over 20 years since I wrote these poems included in the 5 parts on the subject of Healing From Abuse. I can attest that God has been faithful, and I am still flying . My prayer is by sharing my journey others who may have a painful past will find comfort and hope.

Keep your eyes on the Son for strength, wisdom and guidance,
and may His love be the wind on which you soar.



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      6 years ago

      Thank you for your comments - they are appreciated.

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      Suzette Walker 

      6 years ago from Taos, NM

      What a beautiful poem and article. This is so hopeful and uplifting to all who read it. Thank you for sharing your journey, no matter how painful it was. This will certainly help others in any type of abusive relationship. It is so good to "see" such the strong and resilent woman you have become.


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