Hello, God? It's Me Again!
The wait is silent...only my beating heart fills the room.
I believe I know the answer-
it's goodbye to my self pity; my sorrows.
For how long, I know not.
My mind has resolved itself for the end but my heart refuses to accept this verdict.
As I stand in the rain this morn with my eyes closed, my arms spread open
and my feet planted firmly to the ground..
I am ready.
I will accept my fate.
The rain will wash away my tears and attempt to clear my soul.
The rest is up to God and me.
I pray for the courage to accept obstacles that cross my path.
To embrace them as stepping stones toward my journey of "self".
I know not what I want from myself at this time.
I do know that I can no longer sit and stagnate, waiting for a miracle to jump in my way.
I will bow down and accept all forthcoming...
I feel your hand guiding me and your arms around me.
For now, I feel calm.