Hide N' Go Seek
Like many children when I was a child I liked to play "hide-and-go-seek" or "hide-and-seek." Those hiding had to hide from the seeker while trying to find a way around him/her to home base; and the seeker had to find those in hiding and tag them after counting to the designated number. If they found you you were exposed, tagged (if they caught you), and were "it."
Many in adulthood still like to play hide-and-go-seek, but in most cases, as in childhood, we like to be the ones hiding; however, for the adult it's not only hiding behind an object but hiding behind beliefs, religion, insecurities, fear, excuses, relationships, intellect, degrees, arguing, loneliness, deceitfulness, manipulation, position, people, authority, music, science, fashion, and money; and Christ, our Seeker, wants to find us to expose us to the Light in order to pierce the dark places in our life.
What's making you hide behind whatever it is you're hiding behind? What comfort does it/he/she provide for you? What joy/fulfillment do they bring you? What security are they giving you? What makes these comforts, joys, and securities bigger than Christ? What makes you love and value them more than you love and value Jesus? What's preventing you from giving Him your will? The Bible says to examine yourself (1 Corinthians 11:28; 2 Corinthians 13:5) and work out your own salvation (Philippians 2:12), so these questions may aid in the process of healing and wholeness.
It is in our weakness that Jesus is made strong. He does not want to humiliate, hurt, harm, nor embarrass us. He want to save us. It is often "our" own doing that we are sometimes put in positions of humiliation due to our own disobedience and wanting to do our own thing and have our own way. It is humility and contriteness of heart that Jesus desires. We've all sinned and come short. Jesus knows this, so it's not just the sin in and of itself that hinders prayers, forgiveness, and healing. It's how we approach the throne of grace. Are we self-reliant and prideful? Or humble and repentant? Jacob and Esau both cried, but Jacob cried tears of repentance, while Esau's "grief did not spring from conviction of sin; he did not desire to be reconciled to God. He sorrowed because of the results of his sin, but not for the sin itself." Esau hid behind intemperance and a lack of humility and repentance, while his brother Jacob came to the Light.
For every one that doeth evil hateth the light, neither cometh to the light, lest his deeds should be reproved. But he that doeth truth cometh to the light, that his deeds may be made manifest, that they are wrought in God. John 3:20-21.
Are you hiding? If so, it's time to come out and step into the Light.