How I Came To Islam
Asalam Alykum Brothers and Sisters!!!
Let me start by saying that I was born in American and raised as a Christian. A little back ground on myself, I am 27 years old and a disabled veteran from the US ARMY, I was a Scout. I used to view Islam and Muslims as the American media portrays us. I thought all Muslims were suicide bombing, murdering, moon worshiping, Jesus haters. I used to look at all Arabs with suspicion and hate. I was closed minded and never thought to learn the truth about Islam. Let me say I am ashamed to have been this way, but it is important to my story of how I came to Islam.
Through out my life I have been up and down with Christianity. At times I lived exactly as I should have and some of the time I lived a very shameful life. At the beginning of this year (2009) I was extremely devout in my faith. I had been a drug, sex and for the most part sin free Christian for a little over a year. At this point in my life I was really active in church life. I was working in the youth ministry and volunteering many hours to the service of God. However I was struggling internally. Something about Christianity still didn't feel right. That to me was do mostly to all the hypocrite and deceivers you find in Christian churches today. A good quote from a very good Christian friend of mine who will remain unnamed for his sake, "If Jesus came back today and sees what has become of his church he would be very ashamed." To me this is very true, as I am sure it is to the vast majority of Christians, if they admit it or not.
My whole life even as a Christian, I was never a trinitarian (one who believes in the concept of the Father=God, the Son=Jesus, and the Holy Spirit=the Spirit of God) Nor could I fully accept that Jesus was the son of God. The Christian Bible says all of this is wrong, yet Christians openly practice this. There were many many things I did not agree with. I loved God, but I did not Agree with Christianity, I just didn't know any other way to express my love for God, remember I hated Islam at this time. I didn't know what it was. So I prayed, and prayed and begged God to show me the right path to follow. I pleaded with God to show me how to calm all of these conflicts I was having with my religion. I love God sooo much. Little did I know, but God was answering my prayers.
I had a friend who is a Muslim. We knew each other for about 5 years. We talked often and we discussed many topics, however in the past we never talked about religion. We were friends and we did not want something like that to come between our friendship. So we never discussed it. We stopped talking for about 2 years, until some time in late August 2009. And this is where my prayers came into action. Our first conversation in 2 years was a topic we never discussed, religion. Friends for years never discussed religion and the first time we talk in 2 years was religion. I didn't know at that time but this would be the main factor in my "reversion". I was told something different than what I had been hearing on the news since 2001. I knew some Muslims in my home town, and decided that if I wanted to learn Islam I should go to them and seek information. When I picked up a Qur'an for the first time I prayed to God and asked Him, If this is wrong and against what you want for us humans please give me a sign. When we ask God to reveal Himself to us, He does, and all of us faithful followers know this in our hearts. By the time I turned to the third page of the Qur'an I knew this was right and that I would become a Muslim. I became friends with the Muslims I knew in my home town and they invited me to the Masjid, to see what goes on there and meet some of the other brothers. I got some books, and found some websites on Islam and learned as much as I could as fast as I could. I couldn't get enough of Allah and Islam. My Muslim friend who turned me on to Islam told me about Yusef Estes, and a video of his called, "Why Yusef Embraced Islam" this film was his story, how he a former Christian Pastor became a Muslim while he was trying to convert a Muslim to Christianity (talk about irony lol). We had so much in common and his story was so powerful. At that moment I decided that I would take Shahada. I went to the Majid and in front of maybe 20 brothers I said "laa ilāha illa Allāh, wa Muḥammad(un) rasūl Allāh". It took me one week from the time my friend told me the truth about Islam and I read Al Qur'an for the first time to become a Muslim. I was so blessed to come to Islam during Ramadan. It is amazing, powerful and so peaceful when you come to Islam. I can never put into words the way I truly felt, it is just such an awesome felling to come to God.
In the last 11 months that I have been a Muslim, I have learned so much, I have meet so many friends. I have never felt such peace. My parents tell me everyday about how much better of a person I have become. The first time I made Wudu, I have never felt so clean and pure before in my life. I love Islam, it fits what I have always known in my heart. It is the true path to God. And since finding Islam, this has been the best time in my life. I had so many health problems that Allah has cured from me. I had so much conflict and confusion in my mind that Allah has taken from me, it is truly amazing.
Going to Juma and spending time with the brothers at the Mosque is a great gift. They are so kind and helpful. They will take time from their personal lives at almost any moment to spend time with a brother or sister in need no matter how small of big the problem maybe. My friends and family before I became Muslim, left me for my choices and even my mother still does not except my choices, I know she loves me but for a long time after my choice to become Muslim I was alone. But that did not last, I had a new family and friends in Islam. They accepted me from the first moment I became Muslim and even before. I am so blessed to know the great people I have met through Islam. The love I found there is just amazing, and unlike the last Christian church I went to the Emam at the mosque always has time for me. I love the masjeed so much. You can go there at any hour and find a friend that will talk to you about anything on your mind. Islam is not the enemy and it is my way of life.
My friends ask me, "Randall(my christian name) how can you go from loving one God so much, to loving another so fast." They do not understand, I am not building a new relationship with a new God, I just strengthened the relationship I already had with the true God. I came to know the true way God wants us to worship him. I love Allah. I love people. I love each and every one of you. And I will never forget the dear sister that brought me to Islam, she saved my soul and my life. I know she wishes to remain unnamed also, but you know who you are. Thank you do much my dear friend.
That is my story, if you have any questions, or want me to tell more about any one subject from my story, please feel free to ask me. Sorry its a short story, and some of the details maybe left out, but ask me anything you please. Salam everyone, and may the blessings of Allah be upon you and all those you love in this life and the next.