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How To Tranform Yourself

Updated on September 4, 2014

The Evolution of Transformation

There is a lot of counterfeits out there but there is only one Jesus Christ! He was TRANSFORMED into a man and then died so we may also be TRANSFORMED.
There is a lot of counterfeits out there but there is only one Jesus Christ! He was TRANSFORMED into a man and then died so we may also be TRANSFORMED.
I must not forget to wear protection!(Ephesians 6:11-17)
I must not forget to wear protection!(Ephesians 6:11-17)

The "Evolution" of Transformation

When I started my Howling Heart Series, I wrote of transformation. This was transformation from man into werewolf. Even though this was a work of fiction, there are a lot of cultures that believe in the reality of Shape Shifting and you can find other hubs that will inform you on that subject. The transformation I am referring to at this time is one that is quite real and yet, is difficult to prove scientifically. This is an inner conversion of “the soul” or “heart.” This process has often been referred to as “being born again,” “moment of clarity” or having an epiphany.

These are all terms for a life changing phenomena, which can be perceived as spiritual and yet, can be manifested in ways that some may consider non-spiritual. One profound example of this is becoming a socialist after being a capitalist. People who have dealt successfully with drug addiction or alcoholism had to go though a transformation to be able to quit. They made a choice to take certain action to accomplish this. Be it with the help of a twelve step program or though medication, or any other means that gave them the power to quit.


This is to me, is the most important aspect of any life altering experience, if you have changed then what? What are the results? What are you doing differently now that you have change? That is why; I feel is very important to draw a conclusion on what my life was like before my conversion.

Back when I wrote The War Within, I hinted about being heavily involved in the Occult. I will delve into that a little bit more, even though I have not been involved in Black Magic for almost 30 years, it is still a subject I have difficulty talking much about. I will do that now, only to show how far I have become since then. I now feel the Occult is based on lies and haft truths. Opening a door to that world can be dangerous and should be avoided. It will only lead you in circles and then to a dead end.

At one time, I was a Priest in The Church of Satan that was founded by Anton Sazandor LaVay. Even though I started with LaVay, I soon studied other aspects of the Occult like Alaster Crowley and Native American Shamanism. I learned how to read Tarot Cards and I discovered that I have the so-called “gift” to summons spirits. Because of this, I became subject to Physic attack, that I assure you was quite real. Eventually I came to question my own sanity. Every one I knew that was evolved at the level of Satanic worship that I was, is now dead.

At that time, my opinion was that Satanist were being honest about their true nature. Lust and greed were normal emotions that were to be pursued and indulged in! Also, most Satanists just saw Satan as a symbol and we were really just Humanist. How childish I was to pursue a religion that focused on pride and selfishness. I was a young fool that thought I deserved to be the center of the universe.

My perspective change somewhat when I got caught up in Carlos Castaneda delusional philosophy filled to the brim with contradictions and sprinkled lightly with just enough Psycho Babble to make me think it was profound! Then when I came down off the Psychedelics long enough to realize the skeptics were right. It was all a bunch of none sense.

Even after I had turned my back on any form of Witchcraft, it took me years of banging my head against an invisible wall, denying that Jesus was Lord and the Bible was true. I practiced Buddhism and other practices but refused to even consider that Christianity had any truth. All this time my Mother never gave up on me and kept me in her prayers. I now believe strongly that my Mothers prayers had a lot to do with my conversion to Christianity.

My Mother always told me to look to Jesus, not to people. Then I told her I could not see Jesus so I had no choice to look at people. I told her I could not tolerate the hypocrisy of Christianity. Now I see things differently for God, through his Holy Spirit I have begun understand that every one is a hypocrite and it is only through Him can we be truly transformed! It is only by surrender to His redeeming power can we even practice Christianity!

I was recently having a discussion with a Gentleman who lives in the Apartment complex I live in, about his involvement with what he called “Chaos Magic.” I am aware of the Chaos Theory in science and yet, I had never heard of this form of magic. To me chaos is something to avoided, not to be embraced! I ask him if he believed in one Supreme Being, and he said yes, however he felt that nothing that could be considered omnipotent could be fully comprehended by human intellect and that is why Pagan Religions “broke it down” so to speak, and used the concept of many gods.

I remember making statements similar to this not all that long ago! When you really think about the Creator of the Universe allowing His Son to be transformed into human form and then die in anguish for the salvation of mankind, it does seem beyond comprehension. This is backwards to what a lot of religions where the deity that is being worshiped demands a blood sacrifice!

The Concept of something of Divine Nature, perfect in every aspect dyeing for my sins is remarkable to say the least! This, I believe is why there is so many people that are skeptics. For it seems to GOOD to be true! I my self did not believe until something in me changed. Of course, if you ask those who do not believe in the existence of God they well argue that that Science has somehow proven that life is some kind of cosmic accident. We evolved out of Primal soup. They have become so convinced that evolution is absolute, taking it to a point were they worship a theory!

The Evolutionist or the Atheist may not see it as a mater of faith, however is it not what we really are talking about? The scientist and analytically among us, must have faith that his pet theory on how life came from mater and anti mater colliding and making a BIG BANG that started the whole mess! Can you actually prove your theory is correct? If, like you claim, we are just another animal that because of some lucky fluke just happen to evolve into creatures of reason and logic then why in the world do you think that science is infallible?

Do you really trust that men have the ability to save themselves from the disasters that they have created? Yes, we learned to spilt the atom and now we have the nightmare of possible nuclear annihilation hanging over our heads! If you look at all human history, it has not been THAT long since humans have made great achievements in science or any other field of endeavour, just like the Bible has prophesied!

If so many people here on Hub pages claim not to believe in God, then why do they seem so threatened by those who do? It seems like they would just ignore our commits, but instead they hover over the forms like starving vultures just waiting to pick apart those who they feel are worshiping falsehood. They, themselves are acting like a Zealot Missionary for The Church of The Divine Accident; determine to ridicule those they see as misinformed. You think they would embrace the philosophy that if they ignore us we would go away? They remind me of the priest and other Jews who felt so threaten by Jesus that they had to crucify him!

I remained silent because I knew that no mater what rebuttal I would come up with some would find fault with it. I did not want to fall into the snare of an angry confrontation. Why waste the energy? That would be like saying “my God is bigger than your test tube!” I am not angry about the words of ridicule; instead, I am saddened by them. One of the reasons it makes me sad, is it remind me of my self and all the time I wasted in disbelief.

I have witnessed people who I assume are adults slinging insults like “grow a brain” and claiming that we do not need God to find world peace. If that is so, why haven’t we accomplished this by now? Do you really believe that we will evolve to a place when we will no longer kill each other? We already had one war that was intended to be “the war to end all wars.” You can see how well that worked!

Well enough about them and enough about me, the old me that is. Instead, I want to introduce you to some men who have grown a brain, who have investigated what the world has to offer and have concluded that God’s way is the best way! These people are highly educated and free thinkers. Then, I want to share with you miracles I have been fortunate to witness with my own eyes.

I have seen physical healing and have experience my own physical and emotional healing. In a way, I have been raised from the dead; my life has been salvaged from a self-destructive path that would lead to an early grave. The transformation that happened to me and continues to happen to me can happen to you also. It all matters how bad you want the transformation to take place. You must seek it and ask for it. Even though Jesus “stands at the door and knock” he is not going to enter your life until you invite him. It all about making a choice…it is all about taking action! The very difficult act of surrender!

Some may disagree and say that giving up and letting God do His work is simple thing. Yes simple, because that is the beauty of salvation, it is simple but not easy! It goes against self-will the way of a fallen nature! For me to have any results in changing I had to be willing to get the heck out of the way! For my old self is one my own worst enemies, the other is Satan, the enemy of all man. In saying this, I also want to make clear that we must take responsibility for our actions because Satan cannot force us to do anything; the Choice is up to us!


I like the way that C.S Lewis says it in Mere Christianity, "to become new men means losing what we now call 'our selves.' out of our selves we must go." For those who do not know about C.S Lewis, he was considered one the great Intellectuals of the twentieth century. He was also an "Apologetics." He was well known Author who was good friends with J.R. Token. It is also interesting to note that at one time he was an Atheist. I will not go into detail about his life in this article, only to use him as prime example of some one who was well educated, intelligent and believed in Jesus Christ!

I also want to introduce you to another Christian Apologetics, Matt slick. He is the President and founder of the Christian Apologetics and Research Ministry. He earned his Bachelors in Social Science from Concordia University. He went on to receive his Master of Divinity from Westminster Theological Seminary, in Escondido, CA in 1991. Here is his explanation of the term Christian Apologetics. “Christian Apologetics is that branch of Christianity that deals with answering any and all critics who oppose or question the revelation of God in Christ and the Bible. It can include studying such subjects as biblical manuscript transmission, philosophy, biology, mathematics, evolution, and logic. But it can also consist of simply giving an answer to a question about Jesus or a Bible passage.”

Going back for a moment to what C.S. Lewis had to say about "loosing are self." to me, when one makes that form of transformation, you do not loose anything worth having! Every thing that you surrender or "give up" is replaced with God's gifts and I am not talking bout the promise of eternal life, even though that is nothing to sneeze at! What I want to clarify is that some of the benefits of becoming a Christian start instantly!


If you had told me only a year ago that, I would be writing about this subject, I would have said you were high! For even though God was starting show up in my life, I had one foot firmly planted in the world. I still wanted to find a way to compromise, to have Gods blessings while doing what I wanted to do. What happened was that God allowed me to go though some hard times, to were I had to depend on him. It is was then when I humbled my self and allowed God to move in my life, that is when I first started experiencing the Holy Spirit.

I have a good Christian friend that describes the Holy Spirit like a laser pointer to pinpoint the things that our wrong in your life. At first, it was not very comfortable place to be, under God's lazier pointer! I was having a difficult time trying to sneak back into my old ways! I found to my amazement that I no longer fit in my old life! Yes, I excepted Jesus Christ as my lord and savor and yet, I was still clinging to the corpse of my old self! Even though I had turned from my involvement in the Occult, Satan still was trying to sneak in

I found that I was Spiritually Oppressed for the fact that I wanted to hang on to things I knew were wrong. This was giving the enemy leeway into my life. He may not have had full control and yet he had more influence on my life than he should. This is when I received Spiritual cleansing/healing by a grope called Christian Healing Ministries affiliated with an Angleton Church called the church of All Souls, which I am now a member of.

Since then, I have witness many healing, some gradual and some instantaneously. I myself had a freak accident that nearly blinded me in my right eye. My doctor said I had about a fifty percent chance of recovery. After much prayer, by a lot of “prayer warriors” I was healed much faster than the doctor thought was possible! I like to share with you a good book about Transformation written by John Loren Sandford and his Wife, Paula Sandford. This book is named Transforming the Inner Man. Here is a statement that is made about the Holly Spirit that explains His function in our lives: “Whatever enhances fellowship with God and man, whatever sanctifies and matures in faith.” It is that connection between man and God that leads to true Transformation!

I will leave you now; with a verse, I found, that sums it up for me, Ephesians 5:8-11 “for you were once darkness, but now you are light in the Lord. Live as children of light (for the fruit of the light consists in all goodness, righteousness and truth) and find out what pleases the Lord. Have nothing to do with the fruitless deeds of darkness.”

God’s Peace to you though this Christmas Season!

This is my Christmas Blessing to all you at Hubpages!

Two Men who "grew a brain" and yet, were strong in there Christian faith!

C.S Lewis is a Author I will be writing a lot about,for he had lot of important things to say about Christianity.
C.S Lewis is a Author I will be writing a lot about,for he had lot of important things to say about Christianity.
J.R. Token, who went though a lot of Ridicule from fellow Christians for his Lord of Rings Fantasy Sires. However, there is so much in there about the struggle between good and evil and many other aspects of Christianity.
J.R. Token, who went though a lot of Ridicule from fellow Christians for his Lord of Rings Fantasy Sires. However, there is so much in there about the struggle between good and evil and many other aspects of Christianity.


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      vector7 6 years ago

      I've read three more of your hubs already, and I can't stop. I've had vague experiences and your words hit me so right and clear many of my thoughts about what was going on, it's almost like I can be there or God is teaching me through you in Spirit.

      You are certainly a blessing.

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      William Benner 6 years ago from Savannah GA.

      Thanks for reading and I am glad that you enjoyed it! Also, welcome to HubPages!

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      Shiningstar4u2c 6 years ago from Hilton Head Island

      A very powerful and moving read! Thank you for sharing such a wonderful testimony! Praise God for the transforming power He has wrought in your life!

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      Encouraging Scripture 6 years ago

      Encouraging Scripture. Bible Scriptures For Life - The Bible is

      God’s manual which reveals His love for mankind. Keep

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      Marliza Gunter 7 years ago from South Africa

      Wow..I'm blown away by this was deep and truthful and gave me a window into some dark matters that I could not understand.

      "I still wanted to find a way to compromise, to have Gods blessings while doing what I wanted to do." I call this hanging in limbo..not here and not there..most people I know are stuck in this position..

      How would you advise me on how to get a stubborn person out of his limbo state? did you end up with a hunger for God? tell me from your side, like a window.. :)

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      magnoliazz 7 years ago from Wisconsin

      Voting this hub up again!

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      healthgoji 8 years ago

      Very interesting especially the pictures and info about C.S. Lewis and J.R. Token.

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      magnoliazz 8 years ago from Wisconsin

      Great hub! Thank you and God Bless!

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      William Benner 8 years ago from Savannah GA.

      Hello Lita! I will be posting one on the subject of"The Gifts of the Spirit" very soon for I realized I only skimmed the surface on this subject...stay tuned and thank you!

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      Lita C. Malicdem 8 years ago from Philippines

      A great hub, great content, great read all in one. I particularly liked The Gifts of the Spirit and wanted more. Thanks.

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      William Benner 8 years ago from Savannah GA.

      Thank you Williamjordan! Tolkien is misunderstand a lot, for his books are filled with great inspiration! I have seen Christians trip over the fact he uses Wizards and other Mythical creatures to deliver his message.

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      Williamjordan 8 years ago from Houston TX

      Another Great Hub so many miss Tolkien's message

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      William Benner 8 years ago from Savannah GA.

      Thanks for your commits...I am intrigued by your view on summoning spirits/angels because what I have discovered is that demons are very good at pretending they are something they are not! Do be careful, once you open that door it is hard to close it!

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      AuthorLMS 8 years ago

      Merry christmas to you as well, thanks for sharing. I have never delt in black magic as it is too scary to think about however I do believe I can summon spirits/angels rather well. Nice to have read your hub.