ArtsAutosBooksBusinessEducationEntertainmentFamilyFashionFoodGamesGenderHealthHolidaysHomeHubPagesPersonal FinancePetsPoliticsReligionSportsTechnologyTravel

I Am an A/FA Alcoholic Food Addict

Updated on May 6, 2013
It's not a dog's life, it's a cat's life
It's not a dog's life, it's a cat's life

Why Bother? There is hope? You can betchur bippie!

I Am an Alcoholic/Food Addict

I am an alcoholic/food addict. From now on I’ll refer to my disease as AFA. I have been through the steps 12 x 12.I am a life member of Overeater’s Anonymous more times than there are letters in the phrase. Weight Watchers, should film a commercial about me, as the only person to join the group and actually gain weight. I may even start a business, how about “Weight Gainers”? Funny thing about keeping secrets. When you admit the secret, it's not so big anymore.

So I met this guy, who knows me better than I know myself. See, He created me. Some people call Him God, I call Him Pops, or Poppa God. Poppa is one of those people who yells at you 24/7,in ways that only a lover can. His whisper is a train barreling down the highball at ninety miles an hour. His whistle screams," I... Love...You..." The problem is that the only time you are able to hear Him is when you quit complaining about YOUR issues and listen to HIS gifts. You see, the screams are tiny. The yelling is gentle. The words are wind wisps prancing through autumn trees. You can only hear Pops when you take time say "Thanks for loving me".

"Pops", how is it that you can love someone who keeps trying to run away from you?"

"Listen, you...." I heard. That was strange because I had never 'heard' before. I had been busy in conversation with the most important person in the world. ME!

"Let's get some things straight. I have already forgiven you. Kids do stupid things all the time. It doesn't mean I can't love 'em. What's the payoff in that? I'd rather fool around with a broken Abundant Old Soul than a High falutin' yahoo of a know it all. Besides. I know everything already, so you don't need to."

Now my interest was piqued. "You mean my success is not all up to me?"

Well, I didn't say that." came the cardinal song from the tree. "I provide the inspiration, you provide the perspiration. I gift you with the dedication, you accomplish the remediation."

He had me on the hook. "Pops, what's the remediation? Don't tell me you just needed a rhyme. You INVENTED words."

"Hey Kiddo, what does remediation mean? To change. To get better. To accept correction"

"Poppa, are you saying I have to say 'I'm sorry cause I screwed up? I accept your forgiveness?" I was talking out loud by this point.

"My dear, dear son, I wouldn't use screw up. You don't even know which end of the screwdriver to use. I would say, 'I made a mistake' and leave it at that."

"Ok. I made a mistake, Pops. Sorry. Are you going to punish me?" I was suddenly feeling a little more hopeful.

"For what? Being a human? I already forgave you for all the stuff you have already done, and guess what? You got the coupon that says 'get out of jail free', for all the stuff you are going to do! Good deal, eh? Just say 'I accept'.

Needless to say, so I won't. I shouted "I ACCEPT!"

Thus, I have admitted that I am AFA. I have given my life to God, and guess what, He said, “I love you, and no matter what YOU think, what I think is all that matters. I think you are lovable and I think you are worthy. I love you just because. That's good enough for me. Wake up because the coffee's burning and it smells good. Sweet, like the love I have for all My children. Even the ones who don't realize I'm their Father, too. I am holding you in the palm of My hand because when I make a promise, I keep a promise. You see, my dear one, I needed an example of someone who could overcome and finally realize that even when you don't love me, I love YOU! Don't ask questions, just know that I love you."

When I finally heard the whisper shouting in my ear, I was transformed. Of course I have problems with food. But I also have a poppa who loves me and accepts me for who I am. Amazing. He Loves ME!

I decided to go for a walk and talk to my Pops some more. When you get to know someone really cool, you want to be around them. Sometimes talking to your poppa is the best way to get everything off your chest. Here is a snippet of what we talked about.

"Pops, " I said, "Thanks a lot for being more patient with me than I ever have been with myself. You were right all along. The reason you love me is because I am ME. Knowing that there will never be another Me has gotten me thinking about what that really means. I guess I better start telling people about you, right? Maybe I should tell people that even in despair, you are there, in the air, in your hair, not over there, or even where...."

Before I could finish, Poppa God stopped me. "Hey, you... Emily Dickinson you're not. Just say thanks and enjoy the birds. I have a lot of people to watch today, and if you keep crying, you'll miss all the gifts I have given to You. I love you"

I kept crying, but I saw the gifts more clearly than I had ever seen anything before.

"Hey Pops,I love you too. Thanks."


He holds you in the palm of his hand

I love you, kiddo
I love you, kiddo

Can you say irony?

Which one is the Fool?
Which one is the Fool? | Source

Have you had a conversation with God?

What do you talk about with God?

See results

Mindfulness Eating Meditation

Whatever you think, you are right!

Submit a Comment

  • Abundant old soul profile imageAUTHOR

    Abundant Old Soul 

    5 years ago from united states

    Billy-

    I redid this! Look at the different tone. I am using your advice. Thanks a million.

working

This website uses cookies

As a user in the EEA, your approval is needed on a few things. To provide a better website experience, hubpages.com uses cookies (and other similar technologies) and may collect, process, and share personal data. Please choose which areas of our service you consent to our doing so.

For more information on managing or withdrawing consents and how we handle data, visit our Privacy Policy at: https://hubpages.com/privacy-policy#gdpr

Show Details
Necessary
HubPages Device IDThis is used to identify particular browsers or devices when the access the service, and is used for security reasons.
LoginThis is necessary to sign in to the HubPages Service.
Google RecaptchaThis is used to prevent bots and spam. (Privacy Policy)
AkismetThis is used to detect comment spam. (Privacy Policy)
HubPages Google AnalyticsThis is used to provide data on traffic to our website, all personally identifyable data is anonymized. (Privacy Policy)
HubPages Traffic PixelThis is used to collect data on traffic to articles and other pages on our site. Unless you are signed in to a HubPages account, all personally identifiable information is anonymized.
Amazon Web ServicesThis is a cloud services platform that we used to host our service. (Privacy Policy)
CloudflareThis is a cloud CDN service that we use to efficiently deliver files required for our service to operate such as javascript, cascading style sheets, images, and videos. (Privacy Policy)
Google Hosted LibrariesJavascript software libraries such as jQuery are loaded at endpoints on the googleapis.com or gstatic.com domains, for performance and efficiency reasons. (Privacy Policy)
Features
Google Custom SearchThis is feature allows you to search the site. (Privacy Policy)
Google MapsSome articles have Google Maps embedded in them. (Privacy Policy)
Google ChartsThis is used to display charts and graphs on articles and the author center. (Privacy Policy)
Google AdSense Host APIThis service allows you to sign up for or associate a Google AdSense account with HubPages, so that you can earn money from ads on your articles. No data is shared unless you engage with this feature. (Privacy Policy)
Google YouTubeSome articles have YouTube videos embedded in them. (Privacy Policy)
VimeoSome articles have Vimeo videos embedded in them. (Privacy Policy)
PaypalThis is used for a registered author who enrolls in the HubPages Earnings program and requests to be paid via PayPal. No data is shared with Paypal unless you engage with this feature. (Privacy Policy)
Facebook LoginYou can use this to streamline signing up for, or signing in to your Hubpages account. No data is shared with Facebook unless you engage with this feature. (Privacy Policy)
MavenThis supports the Maven widget and search functionality. (Privacy Policy)
Marketing
Google AdSenseThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
Google DoubleClickGoogle provides ad serving technology and runs an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
Index ExchangeThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
SovrnThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
Facebook AdsThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
Amazon Unified Ad MarketplaceThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
AppNexusThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
OpenxThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
Rubicon ProjectThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
TripleLiftThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
Say MediaWe partner with Say Media to deliver ad campaigns on our sites. (Privacy Policy)
Remarketing PixelsWe may use remarketing pixels from advertising networks such as Google AdWords, Bing Ads, and Facebook in order to advertise the HubPages Service to people that have visited our sites.
Conversion Tracking PixelsWe may use conversion tracking pixels from advertising networks such as Google AdWords, Bing Ads, and Facebook in order to identify when an advertisement has successfully resulted in the desired action, such as signing up for the HubPages Service or publishing an article on the HubPages Service.
Statistics
Author Google AnalyticsThis is used to provide traffic data and reports to the authors of articles on the HubPages Service. (Privacy Policy)
ComscoreComScore is a media measurement and analytics company providing marketing data and analytics to enterprises, media and advertising agencies, and publishers. Non-consent will result in ComScore only processing obfuscated personal data. (Privacy Policy)
Amazon Tracking PixelSome articles display amazon products as part of the Amazon Affiliate program, this pixel provides traffic statistics for those products (Privacy Policy)