Why I Don't Use Tarot Cards Anymore
Around a year ago, I bought my first tarot deck.
I learned what tarot decks were through Youtube. I don't know how, but I found myself watching videos where supposed psychics and experienced tarot readers read cards and predicted people's future. I was first introduced to tarot decks by watching astrology videos based on my zodiac sign. Before I knew it, I was watching various pick a card videos. These videos were free general readings where viewers were given the choice between a set number of piles which contained both tarot cards and oracle cards, among other things. These were, and still are, some of my favorite videos to watch. Because of this, my interest in tarot cards peaked and I decided to buy my first deck—The Dreaming Way Tarot. I wanted to see if I could somehow learn to read these cards and predict my own future.
I'm not that superstitious, but. . .
I learned through my family that tarot cards were used to predict people's future and that they were to not be used at all. There was talk that these cards worked, but in exchange the person closest to you would have to die. So, they were basically taboo. Only witches and warlocks and people involved in the dark arts used these decks. Playing cards like the typical Bicycle Cards were also taboo. I learned later on that these cards were also used to predict the future, and in my family, associated with the devil. Back in my family's home country, there was a brujo, sort of like a witch but male, that was known to play these card and yes, he did not fail in finding people or predicting things. Despite coming from a very catholic family, my family tended to associate with people like this and yes, they believed in him and other things. He was pretty kind. Not many people believe in the paranormal, and I sometimes find myself thinking that there is no such thing as ghosts or witches. But then, I think about all the stories I've been told and how so many people share similar unexplained experiences. The things I heard in my family about these cards left me scared and worried about the possibility of somehow finding my soul taken by a demon, or the devil himself. I'm not a very religious person, but I do admit I am a believer of god.
Despite my fear, I decided to take a chance.
The people on Youtube didn't seem to have suffered any consequences for using these cards and being young, I thought that maybe my family was too old-fashioned and religious to understand that these cards didn't really do any harm. Along with the tarot cards, I also bought my first oracle and Lenormand deck. And yes, I was ecstatic. I started studying these cards by looking at the pamphlet that came with it, as well as websites with tarot meanings and spreads. It was fun, but also frustrating. There were just so many meanings, but so little explanation as to how I should use these meanings to really answer any questions I had.
Using My Intuition
I tried to use my intuition. A lot of these spiritual Youtuber's and whatnot talk about using your intuition while using these cards, but how am I supposed to use this intuition. Some talked about having psychic powers and opening your third eye, all of which seemed pretty bogus to me. And I know, given what I've typed, I'm not one to talk. But, to be honest, how many people truly think that it's intuition that helps you get answers from these cards. And, who in the world is spirit? I never looked it up, for fear that I was truly involving myself with something sinister. Avid users of tarot (I learned while making this article) think of spirit as being spiritual guides, or ancestors, that were meant to communicate with people through these cards. Others say it's the spirit of the tarot deck itself, or even our own subconscious powers connecting us to the divine.
It doesn't sound very believable. . .
Nevertheless, I continued to find the answers to my questions. I shuffled the deck and used different spreads to see if I can get any sort of answer. And I did get answers, but I ended up losing my energy pretty quickly. I don't know why, but when I used the cards I became tired and it felt like a large chunk of my energy was taken by them. It was weird and I though that maybe I was just tired. I would also get a pain in my chest and coincidentally learned that I was not the only person who felt this way when using these cards. Where we all suffering from a heart disease or did this have something to do with the cards?
Paranoia and Delusions
I might not be that big of a superstitious person, but that doesn't mean that I'd live in a house if people said it was haunted. So, when I realized that I was not the only person who felt that, I did my research. Members of the spiritual community felt the same way that I did while using these cards but attributed it to being something that happened due to something related to energies and soul connections, and whatnot. To be honest, I couldn't even understand. It was like people were just making stuff up. I found it quite odd that no one thought it weird that people were experiencing this or that people continued to speak to spirit even without that much information being available about spirit. Why is it that modern tarot readers, Youtuber's, and the like never really explained what spirit was? Are people ignoring this? Is it all a farce? Now, I don't doubt that the majority of these supposed psychic tarot readers are just trying to make a buck. A lot of them feed people illusions and talk about manifesting things, making spells, and giving people charms to help them. So many people with low self-esteem and a need to escape reality pay for these services and I can't help but feel bad for them. Of course, people are adults and know what they are doing. As for me, I simply enjoyed it as a hobby. It kept me entertained, but in the end, left me feeling as though I was delusional. I also started feeling paranoid as if at any moment things would start flying. The answers that I got were not really answers and I ended up feeling as though I had just wasted my time. I didn't really have any sort of paranormal experiences while using tarot cards, but I do admit that there was a prediction that was made using the Lenormand deck and a certain website that left me shook. Now, I don't know if that specific event was meant to happen or if that was a consequence of using that deck, but what I do know is that I don't wanna know.
In the end. . .
I stopped using all the deck because it felt that I was doing myself more harm than good. I also made a promise that I would stop using these cards and felt that a weight was lifted off of my shoulders once I threw them out. It's fun to want to predict the future and find the answers to any questions one might have, but it should be done in a healthy way. I can't say that these tarot cards are completely bad, but what I can say is that if you have to communicate with any sort of spirit to get an answer from some cards, then it's probably not something you should do. I also would argue against getting involved in witchcraft, especially if it's not something that runs in the family. Some things are better left untouched. Believer of the paranormal or not, I think we all know better than to get involved with something we don't know much about. Let's not forget that what you put out into the world will come back to you. So, it's better to be safe than sorry.