I am not afraid of God
Pardon me for I choose not to be afraid of God.
It is one thing to belief that God exist or does not exist then another thing is how we understand God, if we belief he exists. The understanding of God means the kind of relationship we have with him, our knowledge about him, what we believe by faith or experience that he can do, and our general view of God.
Atheist may have nothing to bother about God or any reason to be afraid of God or God’s punishment, after all, to him, God does not exist. The theists have various and conflicting understanding of God, some of them see God as a loving father of all tribes and nations. Some of them see God as a God that loves Israel most and from Israel extends his love to other nations and tribes. Some people see God as a merciful God even so merciful that he could not send his creatures to hell, while others oppose such idea. We can find various conflicting theological theories of God and each theory wants to claim superiority and authenticity above the others. It is not the purpose of this work to go into the various details and theories because people already know most of the theories and people can easily find out more, if they want, from those that have the beliefs.
I was discussing with a young pastor who is aware that I am a difficult person to deal with terms of religion. This is because he is aware that I raised above all religious borders by my ability to tolerate the diverse religious views which most people, even my family, still find it strange to understand me. That is why most people find it difficult to deal me, as they said, in that area because people have failed to convince me to take sides. But if they know the truth then they would not have tried to change my purpose of existence. The pastor was shocked when I said that “I am not afraid of God”. His reaction is not surprising because, like I said earlier, people have various views of God. Most of those that beliefs in God expect that people even themselves should be afraid of God. Maybe this is because God is the almighty, powerful, supernatural being that exceeds all understanding.
They may be right that we should be afraid of God. No wonder the Israelites trembled when they heard God’s voice like a thunder that they begged he spoke no more to them but to Moses. Whatever maybe the reason for people to expect us to be afraid of God, I cannot really understand or point out but what I know is that I love God and I respect him but I am not afraid of him. It is because of my love and respect for God that I shall live a life pleasing to him. We all have the right to choose the kind of relationship we want with God. That is the secret of all the ages. Some people choose to be prophets of God. Some people choose to be called servants and messengers of God. Moses, Elijah, among others are found in this list of messengers and prophets of God but Jesus choose to be called the son of God and that changed a lot of things because people now realize that they can be called sons and daughters of God “ beloved now are we called sons of God.”
Therefore it all depends on the kind of relationship you have with your God for your God may not be my God but one thing I am sure of is that I shall not desire to worship or serve a God that I will be afraid of. Maybe that is why I am not afraid of my God. Who will I run to in the time of trouble, if I am afraid of my sole trust and companion? Who will be my hiding place? How can I be afraid of my father? How can I have pleasure, comfort, and confidence to go to the presence of God, if I am afraid of him? Well I do not know your answers to these questions. You can choose the kind of God you want. You can tremble in the presence of your God. You can be afraid to stand before your God. You can be afraid to dine in the table of your God because you choose to be a servant. You can choose to be called my son or daughter while you call God my father. You can choose to be a part of the heavenly table as a son.
I know that I have the right to make my own decision and mine alone for that reason, I do not boost but I have to let people know that it is in their hands to decide the relationship they want with God and you live the life so that you are found worthy. That is why I am not afraid of my God and that is because of the kind of relationship I have with him.
A man after God’s own heart let those that have the keys of David hear this.