For awhile I have been interested in Buddhism. I am the type of person that gets mad easy, especially at the stupidest things. I am the type of person that as I start feeling uncomfortable in any sort of relationship my ability to share my emotions shuts down. And especially with my temper mixed in with that I then find it extremely difficult to say I'm sorry.
I'm sorry..one thing that even when you know your in the wrong, but your temper is raised and your in the middle of a fight...just makes it that much harder to say. I think its because you think your showing weakness, admitting when your wrong. Which actually in turn you are showing strength and respect. But for some reason its so hard to see that. But I know when I think about that, it makes it a little easier to say it. Saying I'm sorry shouldn't ever be a thing that's held back, in any conversation. It should be freely used if you are sorry. You shouldn't be scared to say it and yet it does happen. When you begin saying it less and less it only gets that much harder to start saying it again. There should be more I'm sorry in this world. Because this is definitely a world of mistakes and wrong doings. I'm sorry shouldn't ever be held back, especially as spite against the other person. In any type of relationship. That goes for you married folk as well and I am most definitely pointing at myself on that one.
I don't enjoy my bad personality side, I know its me and I also know that I can better myself. So now I have been thinking of Buddhism and how you work on making the perfect you. I want that. I want the perfect me. As I believe everybody wants the perfect them. Why wouldn't they? Please answer that if you don't I would like to see how many people answer that.
The perfect me..the perfect me would show respect to anyone and anything no matter what I feel. The perfect me would show compassion and love. I would love myself, because without loving myself how am I supposed to love others fully. I want nothing more then to not be angry. It is a tough thing to overcome. But I know with some hard work and effort and learning the tools of tolerance, compassion, wisdom and serenity I can do it.
This is why I have chosen to look into Buddhism, to become a better me. The perfect me. With no creator god or gods to follow. I want to look within, not without (as in to god). This is my preference.
Fill your mind with compassion.