ArtsAutosBooksBusinessEducationEntertainmentFamilyFashionFoodGamesGenderHealthHolidaysHomeHubPagesPersonal FinancePetsPoliticsReligionSportsTechnologyTravel
  • »
  • Religion and Philosophy»
  • Christianity, the Bible & Jesus

It's Like Fire, Shut Up In My Bones

Updated on February 26, 2010

I Tried To Straddle The Fence

For the vast majority of my years here on planet earth, I lived according to my own desires. I have spent far too many uncounted for hours chasing after the always elusive elements of pleasure. Even after reaching my teen years, and realizing that some things were missing in my life that parties, drugs, alcohol, or even women could give me, I persisted in going my way, and doing business as usual. I knew that the Holy Spirit of God was tugging on my heartstrings, and I could hear, at times, the very voice of God whispering in my ear in an effort to draw me closer to him. But I was having none of that.

The more I would feel the urging of God, the further I wanted to be from his presence. The more I would hear the voice of God in the ear of my spirit, the deeper I would plunge myself into vices and sin.

I was brought up in a Christian home, a home where both my parents loved and served the Lord. We were taught to read scripture and pray as small children, sitting at the feet of my parents. We would sing songs and hymns, giving God glory and praise, yet I was constantly feeling the pull of the world, and tried for many years to sort of " Straddle The Fence."

I did my very best to be obedient and pleasing to my parents, while keeping a secret hand in the things that were going on in the world.

Saved, Sanctified, and Washed In His Blood

God delivered me safely through the horrible times of economic depravity, segregation, and racial injustice during the fifties and sixties, the era of free love and sex, and the Nam war of the seventies, and the inhumanization and fall of generational morality brought on by the crack epidemic of the eighties. I began to look back over my life, realizing that many had not made it, many had been lost along the way.

I began to understand the call of God on my life, and decided that it was time for me to get back into relationship with Him. Now a grown man, with a wife and children, and never wanting for my sons to live the way I had, I went back to church.

It wasn't long before I had fallen in love with Jesus, and totally submitted to his word. God put his word in my heart, and wrote his word on the tablet of my heart. And even though I had been baptized early in life, I submitted to be baptized again n the name of the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit.

I was Saved, Sanctified, and Washed in His Blood.

I Can't Hold My Peace

Jeremiah 20: 7-9, ( Student Life Application Bible)

O Lord, you persuaded me, and I allowed myself to be persuaded. You are stronger than I am, and you overpowered me. Now I am mocked by everyone in the city. Whenever I speak, the words come out in a violent outburst. " Violence and destruction!" I shout. So these messages from the Lord have made me a household joke. And I can't stop! If I say I'll never mention the Lord or speak in his name, his word burns in my heart like a fire. It's like a fire in my bones! I am weary of holding it in !

I found that I, like David, had come to a place in my relationship with God, that I love what God loves, and I hate what God hates. I began to understand better the " Seriousness of the Mission."

I began to understand why the scriptures speak so often, and so definitively against the false Prophets, who would deceive the Elect of God with enticing words, fables, and old wives tales. Jesus called them " Wolves in Sheep's clothing." Prophets who have studied and rehearsed the Letter, and have become skillful enough with an illusion of words to make you think a round peg will fit into a square hole, and yet remain void of understanding of the Spirit. Prophets who came with a word for the people of God, taking advantage of their every opportunity to stand on the proverbial "Soap-Box" for vain glory, to be seen of men, and heard for their much speaking, while God is saying, " I did not send them." Prophets who God says, " Bandage the wounds of my people as though they were not serious."

I struggled with closing the pages of my hubs, and backing away from the computer. For I would much rather that I myself be silenced, than to bring division within the body of Christ. I searched for a way that resolution could be reached without confrontation. But the word of God says, " The kingdom of heaven suffereth violence, and the violent take it by force."

God has charged his shepherds today, with the same charge he gave to the Prophet Ezekiel, saying, Son of man, I have made you a watchman over the whole house of Israel. Therefore, listen to what I say, and warn them for me. Jesus said that anyone who enters the fold any other way than through the door, was only a thief and a robber. And the thief only comes but for to steal, kill, and destroy.

Truly, I love the people of God without exception. I do not write to be exalted, nor for money, nor to gain fame or notoriety, but that we may grow in the grace and knowledge of him together, and give praise to his Holy Name. But I must call em' like I sees em'. It is only the truth that makes us free. I tried, but I can't hold my peace.


    0 of 8192 characters used
    Post Comment

    • drpastorcarlotta profile image

      Pastor Dr. Carlotta Boles 7 years ago from BREAKOUT MINISTRIES, INC. KC

      Your a breathe of fresh air godpreacher and I have missed you. As always your Hubs touches many. Thank you, voted-up!

    • godpreacher profile image

      godpreacher 7 years ago from Atlanta,Ga.


      Thanks for coming by. Sorry I am so late getting back to you. Remember, last doesn't mean least.

      God Bless

    • JeanieR profile image

      JeanieR 7 years ago from Sequoia National Forest, CA

      "Like fire, shut up in my bones!" Godpreacher, I just found you and you certainly have my attention. You have a true gift with words and a noble cause for using them. God Bless!

    • godpreacher profile image

      godpreacher 8 years ago from Atlanta,Ga.


      Thank you for that prophecy, I receive it in the name of God. I am glad that you enjoy the hubs in the context of which they are written, and I'm also glad to have you as a friend.

      God Bless

    • godpreacher profile image

      godpreacher 8 years ago from Atlanta,Ga.


      I receive that word from you for I consider you to be an anointed man of God, of great character and integrity.

      God Bless

    • JetterV7 profile image

      JetterV7 8 years ago from Angola, IN

      godpreacher, wonderful to have you here again. I love your honesty and integrity and straight-shooting style. God has huge plans for you my friend and I am proud to be one of your many followers.

      God Bless

    • profile image

      "Quill" 8 years ago

      Love the humble heart you have to serve the Father...God has ordained you for doing His work and doping it you are...

      Blessings and love

    • godpreacher profile image

      godpreacher 8 years ago from Atlanta,Ga.


      You know the proverb that says, train up a child in the way that he should go, and when he is old, he will not depart from it. I know that you have planted the word in their hearts, they may stray a little, but they won't go far. Missed you also, I never stopped reading, just didn't leave any comments.

      God Bless

    • godpreacher profile image

      godpreacher 8 years ago from Atlanta,Ga.


      I understand.Thank you very much.

      God bless

    • godpreacher profile image

      godpreacher 8 years ago from Atlanta,Ga.


      I couldn't stay away from you. You are such a beautiful sister, an example of the glory of God on earth. Luv Ya.

      God Bless

    • A M Werner profile image

      Allen Werner 8 years ago from West Allis

      godpreacher, I hear my own kids tell me even today that the hardest part of the Christian walk is not straddling that fence. It is so easy when you're young to want Christ but also participate with your friends in questionable behavior. There is constant temptation coming in from every side. Staying true to the Word is the only thing that can light our way.

      And don't worry about causing division out here on the internet for it is the Word that separates, not us. We ourselves are not a two-edged sword.

      Also, welcome back - missed your hubs! Peace.

    • profile image

      loriamoore 8 years ago

      Jer 29:11 (NIV) "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

    • profile image

      peacenhim 8 years ago

      Great message godpreacher!! Your testimony really hit home with me. And I am so glad to know you on Hubpages as your words are Truth!! God Bless!!

    • RevLady profile image

      RevLady 8 years ago from Lantana, Florida

      Missed you! God loves you and so do I.

      Forever His,

    • godpreacher profile image

      godpreacher 8 years ago from Atlanta,Ga.


      Here I be also. For truly the word of God is like fire, shut up in my bones, and I can't hold my peace. Thanks for the prayers and for keeping me lifted up before the Father, as I will continue to pray the blessing of God for you and yours.

      Kiss the wife for me.

      God Bless

    • godpreacher profile image

      godpreacher 8 years ago from Atlanta,Ga.


      There is so much that you have already shared. I am strengthened and inspired for just having known you, and those who are true bro. and sis. in Christ. I pray that I may be a blessing to you.

      God Bless

    • godpreacher profile image

      godpreacher 8 years ago from Atlanta,Ga.

      His Daughter,

      Truly God loves us, one and all, for He is no respecter of person. And there is no way that we can ever repay that sin price. And yes we must march on, remembering, " He who endures to the end, shall be saved."

      Thanks for coming by and leaving such and inspiring comment.

      God Bless

    • Unchained Grace profile image

      Unchained Grace 8 years ago from Baltimore, MD

      Jeremiah 23 underscores a lot of what's contained in this Hub and climbing the ladder out of our personal pit is something many of us still must do from time to time.

      I applaud your transparency and your testimony. I as well struggled with a decision concerning HubPages, though God told me to keep writing and He'd handle the rest, so here I be. Great to have you back and you know I've been praying for you.

    • Saintatlarge profile image

      Saint Lawrence 8 years ago from Canada

      Missed you bro' and i'm with you. If i'm able to share something from my heart and life... that is my joy, to see others edified.

      Blessings. L.

    • profile image

      His daughter 8 years ago

      What love the Father has for all of us that He will go to any lengths to bring us into relationship with Him. He gave His Son for us at great cost. What we offer and give to ourselves (laying down our lives for Him) could never repay the cost He suffered. Keep pursuing and going after that relationship with Him. When you love what He loves and hate what He hates you are walking in the fear of the Lord. Never back away from that for it brings great rewards.


    This website uses cookies

    As a user in the EEA, your approval is needed on a few things. To provide a better website experience, uses cookies (and other similar technologies) and may collect, process, and share personal data. Please choose which areas of our service you consent to our doing so.

    For more information on managing or withdrawing consents and how we handle data, visit our Privacy Policy at: ""

    Show Details
    HubPages Device IDThis is used to identify particular browsers or devices when the access the service, and is used for security reasons.
    LoginThis is necessary to sign in to the HubPages Service.
    Google RecaptchaThis is used to prevent bots and spam. (Privacy Policy)
    AkismetThis is used to detect comment spam. (Privacy Policy)
    HubPages Google AnalyticsThis is used to provide data on traffic to our website, all personally identifyable data is anonymized. (Privacy Policy)
    HubPages Traffic PixelThis is used to collect data on traffic to articles and other pages on our site. Unless you are signed in to a HubPages account, all personally identifiable information is anonymized.
    Amazon Web ServicesThis is a cloud services platform that we used to host our service. (Privacy Policy)
    CloudflareThis is a cloud CDN service that we use to efficiently deliver files required for our service to operate such as javascript, cascading style sheets, images, and videos. (Privacy Policy)
    Google Hosted LibrariesJavascript software libraries such as jQuery are loaded at endpoints on the or domains, for performance and efficiency reasons. (Privacy Policy)
    Google Custom SearchThis is feature allows you to search the site. (Privacy Policy)
    Google MapsSome articles have Google Maps embedded in them. (Privacy Policy)
    Google ChartsThis is used to display charts and graphs on articles and the author center. (Privacy Policy)
    Google AdSense Host APIThis service allows you to sign up for or associate a Google AdSense account with HubPages, so that you can earn money from ads on your articles. No data is shared unless you engage with this feature. (Privacy Policy)
    Google YouTubeSome articles have YouTube videos embedded in them. (Privacy Policy)
    VimeoSome articles have Vimeo videos embedded in them. (Privacy Policy)
    PaypalThis is used for a registered author who enrolls in the HubPages Earnings program and requests to be paid via PayPal. No data is shared with Paypal unless you engage with this feature. (Privacy Policy)
    Facebook LoginYou can use this to streamline signing up for, or signing in to your Hubpages account. No data is shared with Facebook unless you engage with this feature. (Privacy Policy)
    MavenThis supports the Maven widget and search functionality. (Privacy Policy)
    Google AdSenseThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    Google DoubleClickGoogle provides ad serving technology and runs an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    Index ExchangeThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    SovrnThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    Facebook AdsThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    Amazon Unified Ad MarketplaceThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    AppNexusThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    OpenxThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    Rubicon ProjectThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    TripleLiftThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    Say MediaWe partner with Say Media to deliver ad campaigns on our sites. (Privacy Policy)
    Remarketing PixelsWe may use remarketing pixels from advertising networks such as Google AdWords, Bing Ads, and Facebook in order to advertise the HubPages Service to people that have visited our sites.
    Conversion Tracking PixelsWe may use conversion tracking pixels from advertising networks such as Google AdWords, Bing Ads, and Facebook in order to identify when an advertisement has successfully resulted in the desired action, such as signing up for the HubPages Service or publishing an article on the HubPages Service.
    Author Google AnalyticsThis is used to provide traffic data and reports to the authors of articles on the HubPages Service. (Privacy Policy)
    ComscoreComScore is a media measurement and analytics company providing marketing data and analytics to enterprises, media and advertising agencies, and publishers. Non-consent will result in ComScore only processing obfuscated personal data. (Privacy Policy)
    Amazon Tracking PixelSome articles display amazon products as part of the Amazon Affiliate program, this pixel provides traffic statistics for those products (Privacy Policy)