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Life stinks. I am not looking for a fight.But brother bring it on. The lament of someone called and commanded.

Updated on August 4, 2013

Peace be in you and the Spirit part of you.

If you think you get to choose. I love you for that.
If you think you get to choose. I love you for that. | Source

There are good folk who just want to convert and they are tiresome.

I have no cause to convert anyone. My wife converted. Well no that is a lie. She was like me. We did not come to Jesus. He came to us. He took me biting and screaming and denying love. When he smashed my head onto the concrete and broke my face I yelled "I will not repent". I whipped out a gun in a fist fight. And He said shoot me! I said wait one minute and caused my fist to break one more man's nose. Bar fight back a few decades.

Well I got my commission and I did not go willingly into the night. I chose and was granted a right to fight.

I do declare that I have met only a few Christians that have been commissioned. Every one of them been told to love and comfort or go out and convert. Not me.

Should we assume that is why I only preach the Gospel of Love? Because I am burdened with the Gospel of turning tables over and breaking out a whip.

But my friends I am spectacle. Not normal.

When does a warrior get to REPENT?

And then He took me and laid me to die in pain

He put me flat out, getting a blood transfusion in my 8th week of chemo for lymphoma. And He appeared like a light bolt of energy. Turned off the transfusion. And scared the medical folk to death. And he told me that He did not make me neither All American in sports nor let me race with Olympians for my edification. He provided me with my wits and doctoral education.

The physical ability to compete was only to teach me the realities of defeat. I declared "damn my Lord" and fought to live. And then He sat with me in the snow in the dead garden of my life. And I saw the battle plan. And the role He had for me in it.

Assume I get to stop fighting, then who will?

Peace is not at hand. I am made to slash a word sword.
Peace is not at hand. I am made to slash a word sword. | Source

Real Christians do not get called. No my friends that is not how it works.

We get commanded. We do not look for we are found.

I would love to quit and learn the ministry of money making and organized religion. I got no qualms with them folk. I got no beef with bible thumpers. And I love every atheist that I meet. And a scientist engineer is like fresh air to me, though I still look for bees and the honey.

But!! My Lord did not give me re-passe.

He gave me a blessed commission.

If atheist 1 is beating up on Christian 1004 that is my commission. If Jane sits in a pew alone because her hubby is off to war, that is my commission. If one person is being slammed for belief it is my commission to come and attack the slammer. I do not get to rest because it is Sunday. I am called to war every time someone bashes our Christian beliefs. I am a sacrificial lamb. I get it. I do not like it. I want to rest. But the jawbone has been put in my hand and the Lord stands in judgment.

Oh my gosh, He does not stand in judgment of you. He just loves you. And He just wants you to love your neighbor, enemy and yourself. I want you to also. I was born a homeless bastard. I shall die one. My pillow is not made for you. You can rest. I am made not to.

Some were made to fight and others just to love. I feel other's love and I try to give it.

Give me peace. I am not worthy to carry the mantle.

I wonder when the tell me to act right what they mean?
I wonder when the tell me to act right what they mean? | Source

Grandma please intercede

I need a rest. Oh bull. I need a decent fight. These who attack lovers are lame at best. These who attack my congregation are weak of spine. These who are small of faith and lack belief in other than themselves are but cartoon characters to me.

So when you see me seem small and fight let me be alone and go back to love. Leave me be and pay no mind. Go to the well and drink the water that I pray to keep safe until the end of love. Know that though my face is snarled in a wicked warriors mask and my sword held high in death blow stance that I pray that I am you. Giants of peace and calm and love. Know I want to come home and sit at your hearth.

Know I want peace and that my weapons burn my hands and that my heart aches for old age and a desire to sit and rest and drink tea with you.


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      Bill Holland 3 years ago from Olympia, WA

      I have fought for too long, Eric. I finally had to give up and accept life....but that doesn't mean I don't work for change...I just don't fight any longer. :)

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      Eric Dierker 3 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Thanks Bill, I love your comment. I put all in first person. I hope the message came across that it is tiring to fight, and that if it is a choice it is not right.

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      Dora Isaac Weithers 3 years ago from The Caribbean

      Eric, you are obeying your command with passion. You're a good example!

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      Maria Magdalena Ruiz O'Farrill 3 years ago from Borik√©n the great land of the valiant and noble Lord

      I also want peace and my weapons are burning my hands, my heart aches for old age and I have a desire to sit and rest, drinking tea listening to Cohen again.

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      Eric Dierker 3 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      MsDora, Obedience is the key. So I will happily. Trudge on until I am given a road down hill.

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      Eric Dierker 3 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      You my wonderful lady are made to bring peace and harmony. Oh my, you do a great job.

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      Abby Campbell 3 years ago from Charlotte, North Carolina

      This is why I am so glad to be friends with you, Eric. God has poured forth His love in you! That I can hardly say about many who claim to know Him. It's sad but true!

      Earlier this year, I came across a wonderful book by someone who is now a dear friend. His name is Steve Roberts. He published a free book called "Soulshift: Manifesting Abundance." His heart is as ours, and he is also a preacher overseas like yourself. I believe he is somewhere in Asia as well. If you have a Kindle, you can obtain it from Amazon or you can google and get it from his website for free in PDF. That is, if you are interested. It is the best book I have ever read. Before reading it, I was tired as you in fighting the good fight. But, then I learned to "just be"... be who I am as God lives in me. There is no need to be anything else. If we allow Him to live in us, then love will flow through. There is no need for arguments and fights. And, wherever we are... wherever our two feet stand... His love will pour forth to those we surround.

      Blessings to you, my friend! Just be who you are as nothing can conquer LOVE. ;)

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      Dil Vil 3 years ago from India

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      Thank you Eric, i have corrected. Well, now i believe that is fine. It was in a hurry, absolutely in a hurry.. the most ugliest intro has been dumped in there. Thank you for noticing and bringing the same to my notice for the correction. Thanks again to you my friend :)

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      Eric Dierker 3 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      If we do not love then we are no one. Your comment here will always remain. And it remains in my heart. Peace be upon my friend.

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      Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales

      Another great read Eric and voting up as always.

      Eddy.

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      Eric Dierker 3 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Thank you Eddy. What if God were one of us, just a slob like all of us?

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      Karen Szklany Gault 3 years ago from New England

      Wow, Eric. Fighting the good fight can be exhausting...just the day-in-and-day-outness of toiling to end injustice, to end hunger, homelessness and unjust wars, to bring healing to the earth...to all flesh...with love. This world needs it...and those who keep on keeping on are blessings to so many that they may never know they've touched...including you, my friend. But only in reaching out to the Lord...to the Holy...is what will keep us on a steady course.

      Love the Cohen video! ...and love the "What if God was one of us" song, too. ~:0)

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      Eric Dierker 3 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      I think I like the battle. But I hope it does not define me. My buddy Billy kind of keeps on me to let it go.

      Well I am a lucky on because I get to look forward to rest.

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      Karen Szklany Gault 3 years ago from New England

      ...my favorite rest to look forward to is after hours in the garden....oooooh, that's because I battle weeds...so we have that in common in the area of warriorhood....tee hee. ~:0)

      Hope you are having a happy day, Eric. :0)

      With love from Seafarer Mama/Karen

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      Eric Dierker 3 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Oh Mama! Our battles are a little tougher around here with a happy precocious 3 year old. Cars crash and robots attack dinosaurs and Jet airplanes are always in dogfights. Oh well, in three years I will miss it.

      Outside battles are just living.

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      Karen Szklany Gault 3 years ago from New England

      Yes, they can be...but it seems like you have enough love in your home to give you some respite from all of that outside-in-the-world craziness.

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      Eric Dierker 3 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      I surely do. Shucks -- truth be told I got enough just inside to fill a good lifetime. I think today I will go give some away out there.

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      Karen Szklany Gault 3 years ago from New England

      You go, my friend. I will do the same. It seems the best times are had when that happens. ~:0) Will have to make sure swinging with my daughter is one thing I do before the sun sets today. ~:0)

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      Eric Dierker 3 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Lucky you, I have to tell a story at my boy's school and then play chase and horsey! Oh well such burdens ---- ;-)

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